my head is in a total.. confuse state.. i just wan this thing to be over with.. i think i wont talk to him anymore lor.. i really feel CHEATED!
jaz reminded me that he HAD a child.. i totally FORGOT about it.. how can i? baka me.. then i suddenly realise too that one of my friends also tio him bully.. although not as bad as me.. but then i think its unworthy.. its like i still think good for him.. but all he gave was a sorry through sms.. i'm REALLY a BAKA for believing in him in de first place! *PENGZ*
but still.. it is a great impact on me.. ham u really put de fact right in my face.. lols! (don worry.. i'm alright about it..) u say that i'm LUCKY that i never got raped.. i know i could have been.. but then i'm REALLY REALLY glad that things didnt go THAT way.. but still.. cos of this sentence it made me think.. do i really have that strength to fight him if i were in that situation.. why am i so stupid.. stupid enough to believe in him.. to trust in him.. *BANG WALL*
i really had a sleepless night yet.. keep on waking up in shock.. imagine if i wre really... by him.. zzzz~ i really just wanted to rest.. get it over with.. i just wan to STOP thinking about it..
by de way.. i have space in between.. so hope that everyone can read better.. cos i know sometimes its too wordy.. sorry.. n i'll update more pictures.. thats all~
pls bring me out of this world.. because i wan to smile.. as freely as i can be..

