I'M SCARED! REALLY SCARED.. >.<
today was suppose to be a happy day for me de.. had my piano lesson in de noon.. i can play my songs & even learned parts of my grade 4 theory & practical exam.. but suddenly like a breeze washed away de happiness.. leaving behind de sadness..
this afternoon my maple cannot patch.. *ahh~~~~~* soul teddy, jason even daii de all can patch! only mine.. keep on not responding! zzz~ then when i check with them all say can! *FAINT!* make me feel miserable.. *me floating pass* i go maplesea website also never see de new version of manual patch.. *faintED* lols.. try de auto patch 4 times.. check website 3 times.. *GIVE UP!* zzz~
then going out to do my project that time was so moody.. lols~ not moody la.. just thinking about alot of things.. =.= i also don know wat i thinking about.. just that i suddenly like have alot of things on my mind.. then on de way also sms alot of ppl.. maybe thats why ba.. cos everyone talking about different topic ar.. then whole way got chat with daii~ then we crack alot of jokes.. FUN! xD
after that meet xanthus & zakk at newton.. i'm late! *BANG WALL!* so sorry! then we went to discuss about our community service project.. its hard! *ahh~* we cant get an organisation! we try calling many times.. CCF only picked up 2 times.. despite our so many calls.. =.=!! then de salvation army NONE! plus a hospital also.. all voice mail.. zzz~! then we must finish everything by august lor.. times i running OUT! so we try calling them again when we 3 gather.. they actually picked up! xD but this is de 2nd time they pick up our call lor.. =.=~ then we confirm with them see if we can go down straight ma.. then we got from them another e-mail & they say just send de proposal over then its alright.. ok~ waiting time agian.. =.=! *sian~*
we wan to send de proposal on de spot.. so we went to starbuck.. i actually wanted to drink hot chocolate.. but then.. 6.40 for 1 SMALL CUP! zzz~! its expensive! n recently i'm trying to save $.. so i don need ask so much from my mum.. (not that she mind.. i just don like asking for money..) so for me its like save & spend.. lols~ u wan something.. u save it urself~ =) so i gave up on my hot chocolate~ (i can drink it anytime ma..) hehe! ^^ then we used the wireless net there n sent our de proposal! yeah finally! xD but in de meanwhile we'll still try to get everything sort out.. we have to look for other organisations.. IF ANYONE GOT SUGGESTION! PLS PLS PLS TELL ME! >.<
after that it was still quite early.. n js (from maple) ask me if wan to meet ma.. then i feel abit bu hao yi si la.. cos i rejected him quite a few times.. then plus i'm feeling hungry at that time.. so maybe he come out then we eat also not bad.. but end up i went to his house.. base on my thinking that i trust him! n that daii is actually waiting for me in maple.. n my patch don work! so save all de trouble of fixing my maple.. then he was late when he come pase raise fetch me.. then i joke with him that he own we another meal..
but de scary thing happen here.. n i really feel like crying.. those who r reading this post.. pls don find him after this n i know i should be scolded.. but to me its also UNexpected! i had a total shock.. *ahhh~~* BAKA ME! >.<
in his house.. he got try to get closer to me.. then i avoided him.. he got try to catch my hand.. we joke round.. its still quite ok.. but then went home that time he die die also wan to send me home.. then he say all de sweet stuff.. of cos i didnt believe in him.. but then he tried to hold my hand.. i got scared! i didnt let him hold.. but i felt that wo hao xiang pei pian le.. cos i trusted him.. but he did something that made me scared.. although u can say its just a small thing.. but then.. we 2 werent even dating! plus de fact that he KNOW that i didnt like him in THAT way.. *ahh~* then hor he msg me a sorry.. n then asked that is it possible btw us.. no.. its not.. sorry..
wo zhen de bei xia dao le.. ya u'll say its ur fault for going ma.. but have u think b4.. its not that i LIKE going.. its because i trusted him.. thats why i went.. i know its my fault.. i should have been more careful.. but its really something that i dont expect.. cos he KNOWS that i DON LIKE HIM.. he KNOWS! T_T arh.. i'm really shocked myself..
when i was small.. i always use to go to my friend de house.. but this is de first time something like this happen.. i think its a lesson to all of us.. pls ladies.. take care! DON BE LIKE ME! although nothing happen (except holding hands & HIM trying to get closer) but other things might happen next time! so PLS PLS PLS LADIES! TAKE CARE OK! >.<
i think i'll have nightmare le.. but its my fault.. & I PROMISE TO EVERYONE READING THIS.. THERE WONT BE A NEXT TIME LE! NO NO NO NEXT TIME LE.. I REALLY.. LEARN MY LESSON LE.. T__T *gou gou shou plus chop stamp*
i hope rainbows are all over.. cos i really wan to smile..
i wanna see de stars again with u.. i really do..
