i don know how.. i just suddenly see de light in this darkness.. its always been a thing that i know.. lols~ funny right.. n plus.. after reading some ppl's blogs, i just find somethings are very true.. even for different ppl.. hahas~ i think each of us have to really experience urself.. then u'll know wats precious & wats just rubbish.. lols!

well.. i think i did really have a few things that r REALLY screwed up.. but thats also de lesson that learn from it that make me more mature ba.. i usED to take ppl's saying very seriously.. not because like i cant ignore it.. because i wan to change.. if i really had this bad habit.. i wan to change it.. then today.. i suddenly realise.. sometimes.. its JUST NOT MY FAULT! its just something that i couldnt control.. n because its something that i COULDNT control.. i shouldnt care much more it.. like de misunderstandings btw me n me been close to boys.. i mean.. its just close.. nothing else! see my mind pls.. nothing else is going on~~ @_@ but rumors keep on flying.. make me guilty.. feel sorry.. wanna do something to stop it.. n thats distant with de boy.. but is it a wise choice? sometimes i think we didnt see de other way round.. sometimes i hurt de guy instead.. truth can be blind.. so u have to use UR HEART to find out.. anyway.. one such case happen.. a gal misunderstood me & her guy.. when actually nothing is happening.. then she "scolded" (i think so..), say some nasty things to him.. but after that.. its actually just a misunderstanding.. then after that she felt really sorry about it.. she apologised to de guy n me.. at first i was shocked.. cos i felt guilty too.. i think its partly my fault.. but then she said that don need to say sorry.. cos its because she didnt trust de guy enough.. she believed in something that IS NOT TRUE.. she believed in rumors.. while de fact that de guy is loving her so deep is RIGHT B4 HER EYES.. love can be blind.. but then u gotto trust each other.. just as jaz had said.. trust is VERY important in love.. i suddenly.. wake up~ lols.. ya right.. its like.. none of my business! just because u believe in de rumors but doesnt mean its true! de guy love u.. not me.. n i will NEVER snatch a guy away from a friend OR another gal.. so pls.. see de other side of things.. trust in ur partner!

i also read of my best sisters blog.. i think parents are all de same.. hahas.. although she had been really compare to another of her neighbour.. while my mum didnt do that.. but my mum nags.. lols~ no matter wat she also nag.. so i guess its just one thing or another.. but still its for our own good.. but then.. i still think that some decisions u have to make it urself.. how long can they "advise" u? life is so short.. although they gave birth to u.. they see u grow up.. they lived longer than u have.. but its UR life.. u're going to walk it.. either alone or with partners.. so no matter wat u do.. just odn regret.. make everything de best! wish u all de best~ ^^ n rmb always.. once u have made this descision.. stand by it.. no matter how tough it is.. cos its ur own things.. not other ppl.. but urs.. ^__^

alright! i just finish wat i wanted to say! YAHOO~ lols~ too high today.. hahas~ *relaxed (at last!)* n my grandma is nagging again.. =.= say i like must sleep at 11 le.. zzz~ i also wan to sleep early ok.. just that somethings r not finished i feel weird.. zzz~ its always de same! naggings.. =.= *wu yan*

ok~! time to sleep! xD i'm sleepy le.. no matter u believe me or not.. thats all i wan to express of myself today.. hahas~ i'm speaking de truth about me.. but believing or not ups to u.. just hope that u'll have fun at my blog! xD n my feeling now is about memeories.. so i think my blogskin is going to change le! xD just like this song.. i really hope that i can have my old life back (meaning when i was small).. hahas~ but i know its not possible.. but then.. no matter how life is going to be for me.. i'll stood straight.. stood by de truth that i believe in.. ^^