DISGRACE! T__T SI DIAO SUAN LE!
just got back my first test, music theory, de results FAIL! T__T omg.. i FAILED the test! ahh~~~~ imagine de previous night i still study until so hard.. then i still ask if i don understand.. but de results is still fail.. i wanna die..
yanling is right.. music is something that i'm doing for myself.. so all de more i cannot fail it! but i did... *BANG WALL!* plus i rmb de different ppl telling me that they cant get into this course.. n wan me to help them "fulfill" their dreams.. OMG! i'm BAD AT IT! zzz.. added on to de fact that i'm really lucky to get into this course.. so all de more.. HOW CAN I FAIL?!? *BANG WALL AGAIN* i'm really USELESS man.. kill me ba! scold me ba! do anything! i feel guilty.. sad.. disgrace! i studied music b4 ok!! so I CANNOT FAIL! why why why?! T__T ahh~~~
i knew de results first thing in de morning.. from that moment onwards i WANTED TO CRY! just find a HOLE & HIDE! i wan to fall asleep.. FOREVER don wake up.. i'm really useless.. i suddenly felt that maybe i have chosen de wrong course! how can i be bad at something i've learn b4..?
but actually.. wat de test is testing is something that i have not learnt b4.. my teacher, Mr James also didnt really go through it.. he just gave us a piece of paper & say that if u do this paper then u'll definitely pass de test! i can actually do de questions in de TB.. then i went through a few questions in that paper too.. i can do! but when i do de test.. everything crumpled.. i realise from de test that i've been reading de wrong concept.. de test is about changing de time signature from simple to compound or vice visa.. i've been studying de wrong concept all these time about that!
so straight after de exam i ask pei lin to teach me music theory.. n i get it afterwards.. its actually VERY SIMPLE! i was like.. WHAT THE HELL! i get it after de test.. why not b4 or during de test?! but i guess its de disadvantage of not learning up til grade 8 for theory.. so therefore.. I'VE DECIDED TO TAKE PIANO LESSONS AGAIN! xD this time round.. i wont just focus on practical le! i'll focus on both theory n practical! xD WISH ME LUCK~~
for de next test i'll confirm get higher! like an A ^^ n i believe i can do it de! xD cos i wanna prove to myself & de ppl around me that music is something serious to me! i am WILLING to WORK HARD for it! ^_^
so hor anata~ don worry ok! i'll cheer up~ ^^ my fighting spirit is back! =D
u cheer me up so i can fly again.. u give me hope so i can smile again.. thank you! ^^
