BAKAS! PLUS WEIRDOS! @_@
zzz~ i suddenly found alot of interest in de ppl around me n those who i am not close with.. everyone is like.. so out of point to one another.. but that is also de thing that brought us close or far.. i suddenly feel so weird.. maybe even a baka.. cos i didnt realise this b4.. lols.. ~.~
something happened yst actually set me thinking.. n something happened today actually gave me de dajavu feeling.. LOLS! but still.. out of so many misery.. there's always something or someone(dar dar) there to cheer me up! so its always a rainbow hidden somewhere ba~ *hic*
anyway.. yst was suppose to post an update on my blog.. but my laptop sort of.. shut down? or restart.. everything i typed have to be re-typed again.. *sian~* was de only thought when that happen.. plus i knew de horrible news concerning my father (aka family).. n wat happen in de afternoon was sort of.. erm.. unpleasant.. (dar dar i told u le.. de webcam thingy) so forget it.. i just off my com for that night.. by de way this was updated on monday 6 may.. but i go edit de post that i saved yst.. so it actaully showed yst de timing.. lols.. sorry..
life is SO BITTER SWEET! ONE MOMENT u can be HAPPY.. de NEXT BITTER SWEET.. its so.. changable.. anyway yst afternoon was actually doing my hw.. online on my msn too.. played a fre arounds of msn games with yaNLing then both of us went to do hw.. after that, someone chat with me in msn.. its not a very close friend.. jsut someone i knew from maple.. n we didnt contact each other for a very long time le.. so when SHE/HE suddenly talked to me.. i was SHOCKED! but nevertheless.. i went n talk to her/him.. (seriously.. i don't even know he is a guy or gal.. i rmb him as a boy.. but when i ask she told me she gal..) --> n for ur info.. he doesnt sound like a gal to me at all.. so we chatted.. n end up "fighting".. lols.. its not really anyone's fault.. just a different idea to soemthing.. because she told me yst was actaully her birthday.. n she asked if i'm free to chat with her.. i said yes.. (chat as in text form) cos i was busy doing hw.. so i thought text chatting should be ok.. but she said she wan to webcam with me.. i said no.. i don wan webcam n do hw at de sametime.. its.. WEIRD! lols~ so i rejected her.. she said hais nvm.. so i asked her.. why she always think so negative.. (cos that time she also said she wan to webcam with me but i rejected her.. then she also gave de same reply that no one cared about her..) i told her that although cant webcam but sometimes when ur friends are busy chatting is also better than nothing ba.. then she said that its her birthday today.. was webcamming with her too much to ask? i told her no.. but if ur friends r busy i guess its a no choice! i was getting annoyed at this point.. (she was SO persistant in asking me to webcam with her.. i don know reject how many times le..) so i sort of "scolded" her after that.. saying that why u always think about urself? have u think about other ppl? wat if their busy.. (cos last time she ask said something like is it webcamming with her too much to ask..) so anyway she reply by asking me have i been lonely b4.. yes.. of cos i have.. everyone would somehow or rather have lonely times de.. i answered her yes.. then i said that but u cant except ur friends to 24 hrs be there.. bdays can celebrate anytime.. its de heart that counts! she said that don compare me n her.. its different.. i'm not comparing.. i'm just showing her lonelness can be overcome.. (if only u are willingly to do that!) after that sentence.. i just wished her a happy birthday n off de chat box.. but she reply by saying that can i be sincere enough to show her that i truely wish her happy birthday through de webcam.. i was frustrated! so i asked her.. 'did u understand de word sincere? its not de webcam that counts.. its de heart of wishing u a happy birthday!' (if i'm not sincere.. i wont even wish her a happy bday in de 1st place! she told me that i certainly don "look" sincere enough.. i was BOOMED! i said i final sentence.. 'as u said.. both of us is different.. this is my way of wishing u happy bday.. if u don like it i take it back!' n by that we ended de chat.. *phew..* type SOO~ LONG! lols.. but de conclusion is.. its neither of us at fault or both of us is in fault.. i should have understand her because she is lonely.. she just wan someone to chat with.. on de other hand.. she should also trying to understand why i don wan to webcam with her.. (one thing to note is.. she/him always talk to me when i'm using my laptop.. when i'm using my desktop, she/him never talk to me once! o_o surprising? lols! n when she/him send me de invitation to start webcam.. i just got this bad feeling about it! so i always reject her..) but anyway.. its really a tricky suitation.. wat if wat she's saying is real? or wat if its just bluff? i don know.. i guess i'll just go by my feelings.. plus in de night when i finally had some clue wat is going on about de case involving my father.. i was.. BROKE! (really thanks that dar dar was there for me wheni needed him de most! ^^ *huggies*)
de case was actaully... simple? or complicated? i don really know.. i just knew that this was de 2nd time that my father got caught of hiring foreign workers.. (we really had no choice! i can't really explain it here.. i don wan ppl coming sue-ing me for wat i wrote here.. sorry guys.. but maybe i'll give a clue or 2 on de up-coming post ba..) its just.. lets just say its no choice.. we have look for many alternative ways to hire workers.. but it just doesnt work out! n this time.. he got caught.. again.. court case.. fine or jailed.. but it looks like my father is going to be jailed! T_T ahh~~ why why? why all de bad things happen to my family?! first my biological father died when i was very young.. then my stepfather is going to be jailed! wats next? my family income is gonna crash! i thought finally i could put EVERYTHING behind me! but it just kept coming! GOD! LET ME GO! zzz~
suan le.. life is always full of ups n downs.. but then de good thing is.. my family, friends n dar dar is always there for me.. like yanling & michelle.. special thanks to them.. both of them tagged at my blog.. really thank you! n my family.. they wan me to comcentrate on my studies.. n told me that everything is fine.. i think its a wise choice.. cos i was REALLY CRASHED! when i know that.. n really really special thanks to dar dar.. he didnt even hesitate to call me when i needed him de most.. although his parents may kill him for using too much phone.. but he called n cheer me up! so thank you for everyone that have helped me! ^^ i wont forget this little helps de.. *HUGGIES TO ALL!*
lastly.. i just wan to say that.. with ur support & concerns.. I STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT ME N MY FAMILY CAN SURVIVE THROUGH THIS! really thank you! ^^
ok ok.. enough of heavy matters le.. i'll update soon.. tired..
zzz~ i suddenly found alot of interest in de ppl around me n those who i am not close with.. everyone is like.. so out of point to one another.. but that is also de thing that brought us close or far.. i suddenly feel so weird.. maybe even a baka.. cos i didnt realise this b4.. lols.. ~.~
something happened yst actually set me thinking.. n something happened today actually gave me de dajavu feeling.. LOLS! but still.. out of so many misery.. there's always something or someone(dar dar) there to cheer me up! so its always a rainbow hidden somewhere ba~ *hic*
anyway.. yst was suppose to post an update on my blog.. but my laptop sort of.. shut down? or restart.. everything i typed have to be re-typed again.. *sian~* was de only thought when that happen.. plus i knew de horrible news concerning my father (aka family).. n wat happen in de afternoon was sort of.. erm.. unpleasant.. (dar dar i told u le.. de webcam thingy) so forget it.. i just off my com for that night.. by de way this was updated on monday 6 may.. but i go edit de post that i saved yst.. so it actaully showed yst de timing.. lols.. sorry..
life is SO BITTER SWEET! ONE MOMENT u can be HAPPY.. de NEXT BITTER SWEET.. its so.. changable.. anyway yst afternoon was actually doing my hw.. online on my msn too.. played a fre arounds of msn games with yaNLing then both of us went to do hw.. after that, someone chat with me in msn.. its not a very close friend.. jsut someone i knew from maple.. n we didnt contact each other for a very long time le.. so when SHE/HE suddenly talked to me.. i was SHOCKED! but nevertheless.. i went n talk to her/him.. (seriously.. i don't even know he is a guy or gal.. i rmb him as a boy.. but when i ask she told me she gal..) --> n for ur info.. he doesnt sound like a gal to me at all.. so we chatted.. n end up "fighting".. lols.. its not really anyone's fault.. just a different idea to soemthing.. because she told me yst was actaully her birthday.. n she asked if i'm free to chat with her.. i said yes.. (chat as in text form) cos i was busy doing hw.. so i thought text chatting should be ok.. but she said she wan to webcam with me.. i said no.. i don wan webcam n do hw at de sametime.. its.. WEIRD! lols~ so i rejected her.. she said hais nvm.. so i asked her.. why she always think so negative.. (cos that time she also said she wan to webcam with me but i rejected her.. then she also gave de same reply that no one cared about her..) i told her that although cant webcam but sometimes when ur friends are busy chatting is also better than nothing ba.. then she said that its her birthday today.. was webcamming with her too much to ask? i told her no.. but if ur friends r busy i guess its a no choice! i was getting annoyed at this point.. (she was SO persistant in asking me to webcam with her.. i don know reject how many times le..) so i sort of "scolded" her after that.. saying that why u always think about urself? have u think about other ppl? wat if their busy.. (cos last time she ask said something like is it webcamming with her too much to ask..) so anyway she reply by asking me have i been lonely b4.. yes.. of cos i have.. everyone would somehow or rather have lonely times de.. i answered her yes.. then i said that but u cant except ur friends to 24 hrs be there.. bdays can celebrate anytime.. its de heart that counts! she said that don compare me n her.. its different.. i'm not comparing.. i'm just showing her lonelness can be overcome.. (if only u are willingly to do that!) after that sentence.. i just wished her a happy birthday n off de chat box.. but she reply by saying that can i be sincere enough to show her that i truely wish her happy birthday through de webcam.. i was frustrated! so i asked her.. 'did u understand de word sincere? its not de webcam that counts.. its de heart of wishing u a happy birthday!' (if i'm not sincere.. i wont even wish her a happy bday in de 1st place! she told me that i certainly don "look" sincere enough.. i was BOOMED! i said i final sentence.. 'as u said.. both of us is different.. this is my way of wishing u happy bday.. if u don like it i take it back!' n by that we ended de chat.. *phew..* type SOO~ LONG! lols.. but de conclusion is.. its neither of us at fault or both of us is in fault.. i should have understand her because she is lonely.. she just wan someone to chat with.. on de other hand.. she should also trying to understand why i don wan to webcam with her.. (one thing to note is.. she/him always talk to me when i'm using my laptop.. when i'm using my desktop, she/him never talk to me once! o_o surprising? lols! n when she/him send me de invitation to start webcam.. i just got this bad feeling about it! so i always reject her..) but anyway.. its really a tricky suitation.. wat if wat she's saying is real? or wat if its just bluff? i don know.. i guess i'll just go by my feelings.. plus in de night when i finally had some clue wat is going on about de case involving my father.. i was.. BROKE! (really thanks that dar dar was there for me wheni needed him de most! ^^ *huggies*)
de case was actaully... simple? or complicated? i don really know.. i just knew that this was de 2nd time that my father got caught of hiring foreign workers.. (we really had no choice! i can't really explain it here.. i don wan ppl coming sue-ing me for wat i wrote here.. sorry guys.. but maybe i'll give a clue or 2 on de up-coming post ba..) its just.. lets just say its no choice.. we have look for many alternative ways to hire workers.. but it just doesnt work out! n this time.. he got caught.. again.. court case.. fine or jailed.. but it looks like my father is going to be jailed! T_T ahh~~ why why? why all de bad things happen to my family?! first my biological father died when i was very young.. then my stepfather is going to be jailed! wats next? my family income is gonna crash! i thought finally i could put EVERYTHING behind me! but it just kept coming! GOD! LET ME GO! zzz~
suan le.. life is always full of ups n downs.. but then de good thing is.. my family, friends n dar dar is always there for me.. like yanling & michelle.. special thanks to them.. both of them tagged at my blog.. really thank you! n my family.. they wan me to comcentrate on my studies.. n told me that everything is fine.. i think its a wise choice.. cos i was REALLY CRASHED! when i know that.. n really really special thanks to dar dar.. he didnt even hesitate to call me when i needed him de most.. although his parents may kill him for using too much phone.. but he called n cheer me up! so thank you for everyone that have helped me! ^^ i wont forget this little helps de.. *HUGGIES TO ALL!*
lastly.. i just wan to say that.. with ur support & concerns.. I STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT ME N MY FAMILY CAN SURVIVE THROUGH THIS! really thank you! ^^
ok ok.. enough of heavy matters le.. i'll update soon.. tired..
dar dar i love u~ xP *muacks!*
