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MERRY XMAS!

2009-12-22T12:19:00.006+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

hello all ~ its been such a long time! i am finally here to post again! i'll be updating my photos soon and well, this blog isnt dead, but neither is it fully "alive". i'll just login and post according to my feelings =x now i don realli see the point of blogging everyday now. haha.

but u're very welcome to drop back anytime! i will post about anything and everything! as long as i find it interesting i will post it. =P so do come back for more!

well, finally its christmas! this year's orchard doesnt have very beautiful lights. LOL ! =x i'm not tryin to me mean, but i think the focus here is the xmas tress! i absolutely love the trees! xD

my favourite is the Ion xmas tree! aw too bad i didnt take a photo of it. haha. =x but i do have some other photos, i'll post it here. =P hope u enjoy!

At Suntec Convention Center

The other side of Convention Center. LOL =x

Well i guess i only have this 2 picture =x i should take more xmas trees! xD alright ~ c ya all soon! =D

something new

2009-06-10T22:34:00.002+08:00

Something New!

something new is coming out! ha! lols. actually i mean that i am starting a blogshop with my friends! =D we gonna sell tons of stuffs~ and they're not that expensive! it will all be affordable prices! =D cos, we know that we are those that don have alot of money. haha. so look out! xD

it will be launch soon ya, so by that time, everyone pls take a look! =D

nothing special really these few days. i am completing the fanfiction that i had written! it will be up soon, i'll post the link here so do drop by if u're interested!

have been enjoying myself. got to rest. although i reali slept late. x.x yst i slept at 4am! LOL! =x cos i was reading a fanfiction that somebody else wrote =x its a nice story! xP so yep, its like i'm taking these days off. felt realli relax now. guess i should go back to working soon!

work is alright! finally talked to my boss about my work. hopefully the load will be lighten now. and that going to work now is much happier! thank you God! and yes, i am finally decided to go back sch! to do work of cos. so yep. its kinda de happy merry me now! LOL!

but i can feel it, trouble is gonna strike again. but i wont fall so easily. trouble always strike us when we thought we are prepared for it. but, somehow it just din scared me that much anymore. felt like i have grown up. lols. hopefully, my frens, whoever that is suffering or thinks that he is living in hell rite now, look up into de sky! there's always someone else who is suffering as well. maybe even more worst than u. so yeah, u just gotto deal with ur life. =)

arh, like writing rubbish. LOL =x but oh well~ happy day all! xD

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

syco

2009-06-07T00:41:00.002+08:00

Singapore Youth Chinese Orchestra

went to watch SYCO today. its for 1 of my assignments. when i at 1st bought the ticket for it, i thought lets just go n watch this n see how it goes, because back in my mind i want to watch something else, like maybe Indian music perf. cos i grew up from a chinese background afterall. had been listening to these instruments. however, when i went there, i found out that i am SUPER WRONG! LOL =x -shy-

the perf was GREAT! good standard for a local orchestra. and furthermore, that is when i realise that, chinese music can be so interesting as well =x i always thought i knew wat is chinese music already. LOL~ how wrong i am! something new to learn again! really interesting in those instruments! i wan to go read up about them and maybe even see how they are played! not surprising that there is harp and double bass in the CO as well.

there's 2 part for the pref. the 1st is all done by the youths. their technique is generally good! you can even hear precisely wat each note is. and not to mention that they did the dynamics well. other than that accept a few timing issues here n there. but overall is good. their pref is actually better than what i had presume. -thumbs up!-

then the 2nd part is the SCO, the adults. not as surpring as the youths are. maybe its because i already fixed a certain standard for them. they did achieved it but did not excceed it. lols. but u can see that they are generally more familiar and more confident with their instruments. and they had more experice or more skills than de youths, so they are able to deliver the pref smoothly, without much timing issues. however, it just feel like it lacks something there. maybe the feeling is totally diff from the SYCO. it just doesnt feel that hyper i guess. anyway, all these are just my own views. a few of my chinese music "experts" says that its only ok. so ya..

anyway! i hope that they will continue to improve! in sg alone, they already stood out. so i hope 1 day, they can make it to the world stage! =D JIAYOU!

ok, i'm tired! tmr i still need to go back to sch for event, doing live sounds. then meeting fren to eat at around 2. hopefully i had time to acconpany my family in the morning. monday meeting long time no see fren for dinner. tue go k. x.x so many things! n not to mention that i wan to go back sch do assignments. and plus my work at RC.. @@ must really sleep more. if not i wont have the energy to stay active throughout the week x.x

ya, so sorry haru and frens, if i am unable to accompany u all to talk at night. but i still hope that u can enjoy life as it is! =D JIAYOU! u have my support!

Good Friends are like StarS, You Cannot always see Them, But You Know, They are THERE! -huggies all to those that are so busy with ur work and hws!- GOD BLESS! <3

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

nice day !

2009-05-29T09:43:00.002+08:00

Nice Day!

such a nice day again! every time i woke up, i'll look up to the sky 1st. its always so blue and comfortable. the white clouds always floats in the baby blue sky, making me feel so relaxed! ah~ thank you God for this welcoming early morning scene! =D

hmm, recently ar. slacking. seriously == finally started on my work. feel so good about it! =D if not i'll always nag, literally nag myself to do it. but now, since everything had started, i'll get the ball rolling on my own. i think its kinda weird, or u could call it interesting. there's this char trait inside me. whereby, if i don start it, i never will in a 1000000000million yrs. but if i do get things started. i'll chiong all de way until it ends. LOL ! but most of the time, cos things require efforts and my chiong-ing energy always use up pretty fast, that i often will slack back at de end. this is something that i must solve. i believe that God will help me with it! =D cos now, i learn to take things slowly, get the ball rolling but yet don push myself too hard about it and persist on. =D smart rite! LOL =x

i'm transcribing 我还想他 sang by JJ Lin for my REMT 3 assignment. i realise this song is hard. so much for giving the credit of a nice song. == nice songs are really hard to transcribe. -ROAR!- but so far, i had already gone the guitar part. so much triplets! the bass part is slightly easier. however, the notes are low. although its normal for a bass but ya its low, so low that sometimes it blends with the kick, don even know wat it is playing =x and the bass like to hold long notes. @@ sometimes i wonder if there's a imaginary bass note there. but oh well! =S trying my best! =P and its fun! feel so accomplished! to actually transcribe a song which is written by a famous person. i failed my aural test in 1st yr wor. never thought that i could actually give accurate reading too! xD -new found skill!- LOL ! -blushes-

haha, meanwhile, i'm working on my POD as well. listening alot of songs rite now. trying to pick out watever that is best or suitable or nice for my song. its kinda like match and piece tgt kind of puzzel game. ha! its fun and interesting. it "open" up my ears. i hear more things in a song rite now. =P

lessons are interesting as usual. its more fun and interesting than ever. LOL ! its like all my attention now solely following my studies. don need to worry about other stuffs. my family also had this understanding thus, all is well! =D -thank you God!-

well, hope you have a nice day too! =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

scared

2009-05-18T20:55:00.003+08:00

Scared.

i'm feeling scared, a rush of darkness just kopes my heart. the other day, i just had a "quarrel" with my mum. i know she meant good. she just keep on telling me to practice my piano. until she had to literally sit there n watch me play. of cos i wasnt very happy with that. but its not her fault. thinking back, i shouldnt be unhappy actually. just that sometimes, when i wan to play piano, she will ask me to do something else for her, "disturbing" my practice time. then when i don feel like playing, she will always ask me to play. but the good thing is that, i actually sat down n play, because there's no escape. so i had to practice, had to play. and i finally be able to play the last part of my 3rd exam song. now everything is much smoother. irony isnt it?

sometimes, i just wonder if people around me ever notices me. my feelings, my thoughts. do they even care if i exist? well the answer is actually yes. they do care. they do show concern. but its just.. it just doesnt feel rite. its like everyone is going their own way. nobody ever saw me as who i am. i just feel.. transparent. its like, it doesnt matter if i am there or not, or who i am, or wat i am thinking. as long as i dont do something wrong that will 害到 them, as long as i did something that i am suppose to do and finish it without "extra" stuffs. stuffs that are from me. for example, if i think that doing something this way is better, i would have done it this way, but no. i cant. i just have to do wat i've told.

yst night. had a "chit chat" with teddy, sky and haru. its like they don realise i can be special too. that i am not just the gal next door or just any other gal. sort of like "taught them a lesson" LOL! feels so glad that i had actually spoken by mind this time. well it doesnt matter, cos, this is just who i am ba. it feels really good to speak ur mind. and make ppl for once, notice u as who u are. i am getting frustrated. and desperate. == oh i hate to admit that. ==

i just feels like i am not living. its like going into hell. after "quarrelling" with my mum, i cant help but cry. i went to "bath", and cried while i was bathing, hoping to cover my cries with the sound of rushing water. i don wan my family to see me cry. but, it really pain me.. to tell my mum de truth. i bet she cried too. and it really pained my heart. but, will she understand de pain i felt for her in my heart? hai. i don blame her, i don intend to tell her anyway.. i think somehow, i just wish someone would understand and be there for me..

you know when i cry, i really cried my heart out. it feels so pain. its like eating u from inside out. u wish to scream, to tell someone to just shout. but u cant. tears keep on rolling down ur cheeks. u cant seem to control de pain, the feeling of been eaten up by despair. its so scary. it felt like i had to make a decision that time. to live freely or to be controlled. and i choose to be controlled. because i don wan to hurt my parents.

i don know if my knight will ever come and "resue" me. i don know if i will ever fall in love again and be crazy over him. but i know, God has something planned for me. and its the BEST. so while i wait, i wish i can get this feeling away from my head. pls give me strength God. =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

trial camp

2009-05-16T21:10:00.006+08:00

Trial Camp

today had cmcc's trial camp. the actual camp is actually next week. gone back to help out as the logistic team when in actual i'm just the 1st aid. kinda cool! and the job i wanted. i just wan to walk around, to make sure everything is ok. then let them have fun without anyone getting injured. LOL. =D

trial camp is fun! n tiring. had night walk yst night. the 1st time when we walk (around 12am), it isnt that scary. then until the 2nd time (cant rmb the time, but its much later), the lights were totally offed. i have to admit, i am scared. but at the same time, i am 'safe'. its quite hard to explain. my mum had given me a cross necklace just weeks ago. i wore it on my neck. during the night walk, i felt peaceful. didnt experience any 'funny' things that i had experienced in the previous sch night walks. even when the lights are dark and the corridor looks long and narrow, like an endless road in darkness, i don feel that scared in my heart. i am just kinda annoyed cos the "ghosts" had to keep on scaring on. there are other camps having night walk at that time, so its hard to tell which grp of ppl belong to which. and we are using quite the same road to wat they are using. thus, i just kinda don wan them to scare me. =x but they did xia dao wo la. f3. lols!

after that, we chionged 3 horror shows. the 1st is quarantine. the ending is just.. == diao. LOL then after that is the wig. but i didnt get to watch the middle cos we went for the 2nd night walk that time. missed totally the middle part of the show, only saw the ending n starting =x after that is called curse i think. its like a documentary about a noval writer. the story is kinda interesting but the way they made it, making it look like a doc, is long and draggy. x.x kinda scary in a sense that you know jap ancient traditions can be scary. so yep. its kinda interesting to find out wat is it but yet its long n draggie. good thing is that later part of the show, the tempo picks up. none scary points at all. just that when the 'ghost' do actually appear, its kinda disturbing =x nothing serious thought. the whole story line requires you to think.

but you know, the show finally ended, its already around 4am plus. i did slept alittle in between. but yeah, when it ended we just switched off all lights n everyone went to sleep. everyone is tired. but there isnt real air-con in the classroom that we booked. its more like just wind. vandiletion to just let us have moving air inside a sealed room so we wont die. so the room is filled of sweaty body heat smell. kinda not use to it. because its only a 1 night thing. so some of us din bath de previous night. but of cos, we did change in new clothes and brush up in the morning ok. but camps are suppose to be like this. =x it makes it more worth while to experience something u don usually do.

what i crave most then is a hot bath at home! xD

but yeah, now i had bath and everything it feels so nice! =D

but my eyes are closing, so ta! till we chat again! xD

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

new photos!

2009-05-13T21:04:00.002+08:00

New Photos! =D

hello all! I've just updated my photoflick with NEW photos! xD although, it might not be as exciting as you people think it would be, but yeah. This is me. LOL =x

so ENJOY!

Totally tired! just feels like don have de energy. its like, i know i need to learn. i wan to learn. but because of the tireness, i just tend to slack. doesnt want to go and figure out the new stuffs. just wan to stick with wat i know. its bad you know. cos this way you wont ever improve urself in this fast moving world.

but yeah, i am really tired, physically. i need to go sleep early. should not "drift" so much. but i cant help it. i just tend to drift with my feelings. tend to do things that are relaxed and fun. just like for piano, i just wan to play it with my feeling. like "playing" the piano you know. so yeah..

this is giving me headaches, cos its like i cant "control" myself. but i'm trying my best! so bear with me! there are times which i can do it. the max time i can control myself is for 1 whole week! yeah, you think that its little but hey! its ALOT of effort for me ok. imagine me 1whole week no online games, straight piano everyday, then do hw. after that jiu sleep le. although msn still have, but its when in between breaks. for now, this is as far as i can go! i need to find back the feeling to allow me to stick to my pre-plans again. but yeah, JIAYOU!

i believe i can do it. and now, i really wan to study. cos i enjoy it! never thought study would be this fun, but yeah! i really enjoyed it! so now i gotto try to adjust myself to the "fix" plans everyday. but i can still have fun! just like in that week, i really did had fun. haha! xD jiayou ba peiyan! =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

fun !

2009-05-05T23:38:00.002+08:00

FUN! Filled Excitement! =P

live sound is FUN! i never thought that doing live sounds can be so fun. i thought i wont like all the work that is involved. and all that planning sometimes just made me fed up! =x but nope! life sound is fun! the more i do it, the more i wan to do it! LOL ~ call me weird if you want! but yeah. that's what i am going through right now. =D

hope i can continue to help out at moberly. there's still plenty of things i need to learn! i still don quite understand the fold-back moniter thing. sometimes it worked, sometimes it just didnt work. == so... confusing! tomorrow must ask peilin! if not, i really have no idea how to solve it. == -feels so dumb suddenly-

but whatever i'm doing now, for assignment or just for fun, it is ALL so INTERESTING! never knew that sounds and audio can be so connected with other things! i never use to notice that. =x -sadly, i really don't in the past- so anyway, i just like studying so much now! xD

can't wait to do the moberly show tmr again! i bet its gonna be fun & enriching! xD

night all ! =P

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

so tired

2009-04-30T20:35:00.002+08:00

New Day!

tired. slept at 2plus yst. @@ head is spinning now. tonight better sleep early ar! 10pm off light. LOL =x but, we all know its impossible, not really impossible just that maybe surfing net or play maple until over time. LOL =x well, thats me. =P

guess wat! i'm playing maple as i type this. LOL. the ship is still taking dam long to fly from orbis to vic == oh well, but still, its a game! suppose to be fun. ha! =D

life is good. messed up with hws though. finally handed in POD proposal today! xD just need to present on mon, then if de idea is accept, i can start doing de project! feel so excited! how many times do u get to do something u like. haha~ especially when its a sch project! xD but anyway, suddenly feel that there's alot to learn. its like, i'm still sooooooooooooooooo FAR from the ending. there are tons of stuffs still waiting for me. but while i'm on this learning journey, i need to take care of myself too. so NO MORE LATE NIGHTS! erm.. not quite possible at de moment. but i'm working towards this direction. =D good health = to good life. ha! xD

i wonder how is everyone. xiu lao po is at china for exchange prog. then jeremy's gf when to china for itp. alot of ppl i know is going overseas.then me ne? wat do i plan to do ar? i guess i'll start with locals. learn as much things as sg can offer me. threater studies is wat i am interested in. at the end of de day i think, i'm going overseas? i don know. but, no matter wat happens, sg is still where my half childhood is. i wont forget u guys! xD -hugggg all! real tight!-

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

hello all !

2009-04-27T22:08:00.002+08:00

Backei? =D

27th Apr! Life changing history? haha. I AM BACK! woots! =x ya.. i know i said that i am back alot of times. =x but oh well.. u never knew what's gonna happen in ur life. you take a step and look.

well, times have been ok? things happened, you been through alot. that's life. =D wasnt as sad anymore. called me more "open-minded"? i just look at things differently now. or should i say with more "experience". =D oh i still love this song. ha! just opening my blog on another window & this song was playing while i typed this. i still love it. xD

gone back to the habit of writing again! sometimes, just too lazy to pen down my thoughts! =x i don like pens! or sitting down concentrating on writing at something or someone. =x i write when i feel. LOL! =x so the brain is my paper, my feelings, thoughts, 5 senses and everything else is my pen. =P

yep, so i want to revive this blog! i still love this blog! not sure how many people do actually visit my blog nowadays. =x i know it's not alot. i don't blame them =D but it doesnt matter that much anymore. i mean it still matters. because alittle part of me do wish that someone would actually read what i wrote here. but, a large of part me just want to write. for whoever wants to read or whatever reasons =x

u know, 1 of my hw is to write a dairy every week for at least 5 days. it was fun! xD noting down ur thoughts & what u see. no longer do u just aim at ur feelings. but u start to notice why u had this feelings, wat attract u to actually see wat is happening. =D i am more aware of de stuffs that happen around me. i use to look at small details, now i'm beginning to look at bigger pictures. n i believe soon enough i can see both =D big then zoom in on small! xD

sch's fun as always! assignments is rising == as always as well =x but it challengers me to be better. to gain more knowledge that wat i have now. its a good sign! =D learning is fun! i don wan to look back n regret. especially when i grew older n is working, i wan to cut out that sentence! studying is always de most fun. =x nah! -throw that sentence out of de window!- xD

alright! so much for now. i shall sign off!

God Bless everyone! =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

just some short notes

2009-01-19T20:47:00.002+08:00

Just Some Notes.. =)

here are just some short notes/sentences that i received from a email. its pretty sweet & true. keep ur passion alive! =D

Hi Friends,
Pls read….nice word

小心讀每一個，再用一兩秒想一想

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
緊記: 所有事也是因果循環的。

True friends: How many people actually have 8 true friends?
真正朋友: 有幾多人有八位真正的朋友?

Hardly anyone I know ! But some of us have all right friends and good friends!!!
我幾乎不認識這些人! 但在我們當中有些人全有對和好的朋友!!!

You have been Tagged by the Green Dog!
你已被綠狗捉住了!!!

,-._,-.
\/)'(\/
(_o_)

ruff!!!!!!

You will Have Good Luck For Two Years if you send this to 8 people or more and if this is sent back to you then you are a true friend......
如你把這個發給八個人或以上你便會有八年的好運。如這個給發回給你你便是一個真正的朋友... ...

You must send it in 5 minutes or your good luck will run out.
你一定要在五分鐘內發出去如不是你的好運便會流走。

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Being happy is the priority of living, If u wanna be sad, Be sad 4 something thats worth it.
珍惜你所擁有的，慶幸所曾發生的。
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LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

its 2009!

2009-01-08T22:04:00.002+08:00

ITS 2009! =D

hey all! finally its 2009 huh! a new year has arrived! =DD

looking back at the last year, so many things happen! u smiled, u cried, u tried, u tired, u broke, u come back up, u stayed, u left... and so on.. so many things happen. so many events. too many to list, too many to rmb, too many to recall. but then again, because of these events, we get to know each other more, we know ourselves more, we know our friends our family more. no matter wat ur doing now, as ur reading this post, take a min & look back at 2008.

how was 2008 to u? i'm really curious. have anyone look back at de year and think about it? not reflect or anything, but just look back at it. how do u feel? do u feel that ur wasted thies year? or do u feel that everything is startin afreash, what has happen in 2008 gives u a promising 2009. or is it u feel that everything is just like that lor.

i'm sure many of us had experienced alot of things. to me, its really a wonderful year! because of whom i met, wat i do and wat i had in 2008, i can have a more blessed 2009! =D wonderful yeah! so i hope everyone here will have a great year ahead! =D

no matter ur studyin, working, ns, slacking, or wat so ever, just make sure u don reget anything u do this coming year! (or de year that is alreayd here =x ) i tell u, its a great feeling to be able to look back at de last year without regrets =D

live ur life happy! wat unhappines u face in 2008, forget it, rebuild it with happiness! nothing in this world is too hard! =D

-bless u all with my fairy wand!- haha~ =P

have a blessed year ahead!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

Just another laugh!

2008-12-28T10:55:00.002+08:00

Just Another Laugh! =D

haha~ here's another laugh. quite true! but funny! =D enjoy~!

Lessons My Mother Taught Me...

1) My Mother taught me about ANTICIPATION... "You just wait! Just wait till your father comes back!"

2) My Mother taught me about RECEIVING... "You are going to get it when we reach home!"

3) My Mother taught me to MEET A CHALLENGE... "Look at me when I'm talking to you! Why are you staring back at me?!"

4) My Mother taught me about HEALTHY COMPETITION... "Aunty Mary's son scored 100 marks for Maths! Why can't you be like him?"

5) My Mother taught me about FINANCIAL PLANNING... "Make sure you marry a rich man/woman in future!"

6) My Mother taught me about HISTORY... "Many many years ago, when I wa s your age, I used to...."

7) My Mother taught me to be HOUSE-PROUD "Chalet? Stay what chalet? You have got your own house , why stay outside?!"

8) My Mother taught me about GENETICS... "You ..you're just like your father!"

9) My Mother taught me about the WISDOM OF AGE... "When you get to my age, you'll understand."

10) My Mother taught me about JUSTICE... "One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like YOU...Then you'll know what it's like!"

AND FINALLY...

11) My Mother taught me about POWER... "I am YOUR mother, you better listen to ME!"

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

My Mightly God!

2008-12-17T09:07:00.003+08:00

My Mightly God!

chain e-mails about God have been passed around for centuries. how many ppl did really pay attention to it? recently, while i was checking my e-mail, i saw this msg. although i received this e-mail sooo many times, but i still believe that its from God. =)

DID YOU KNOW THESE FACTS? I SURE DIDNT TILL Death is certain but the Bible speaks about untimely death! Make a personal reflection about this. Very interesting, read until the end.

It is written in the Bible Galatians 6:7 'Be not deceived; God is not mocked:for whatsoever a man sow, that shall he also reap.'

Here are some men and women who mocked God:

John Lennon Singer):

Some years before, during his interview with an American Magazine, he said "Christianity will end, it will disappear. I do not have to argue about it that.. I am certain.. Jesus was ok, but his subjects were too simple, today we are more famous than Him." (1966). Lennon, after saying that the Beatles were more famous than Jesus Christ, was shot six times.

Tancredo Neves (President of Brazil):

During the Presidential campaign, he said if he got 500,000 votes from his party, not even God would remove him from Presidency. Sure he got the votes, but he got sick a day before being made President, then he died.

Cazuza (Bi-sexual Brazilian composer, singer and poet):

During a show in Canecio (Rio de Janeiro), while smoking his cigarette, he puffed out some smoke into the air and said "God, that's for you." He died at the age of 32 of LUNG CANCER in a horrible manner.

The man who built the Titanic:

After the construction of Titanic, a reporter asked him how safe the Titanic would be. With an ironic tone he said "Not even God can sink it." The result: I think you all know what happened to the Titanic.

Marilyn Monroe (Actress):

She was visited by Billy Graham during a presentation of a show. He said the Spirit of God had sent him to preach to her.After hearing what the Preacher had to say, she said "I don't need your Jesus." A week later, she was found dead in her apartment.

Bon Scott (Singer):

The ex-vocalist of the AC/DC. On one of his 1979 songs he sang "Don't stop me; I'm going down all the way, down the highway to hell." On the 19th of February 1980, Bon Scott was found dead, he had been choked by his own vomit.

Campinas (In 2005):

In Campinas , Brazil a group of friends, drunk, went to pick up a friend. The mother accompanied her to the car and was so worried about the drunkenness of her friends and she said to the daughter holding her hand, who was already seated in the car "My Daughter, Go With God And May He Protect You." She responded "Only If He (God) travels in the trunk, Cause inside Here, it's already full." Hours later, news came by that they had been involved in a fatal accident, everyone had died. The car could not be recognized what type of car it had been, but surprisingly, the trunk was intact. The police said there was no way the trunk could have remained intact. To their surprise, inside the trunk was a crate of eggs, none was broken.

Christine Hewitt (Jamaican Journalist and entertainer):

He said the Bible (Word of God) was the worst book ever written. In June 2006, she was found burnt beyond recognition in her motor vehicle.

Many more important people have forgotten that there is no other name that was given so much authority as the name of Jesus. Many have died, but only Jesus died and rose again, and he is still alive.

PS: If it was a joke, you would have sent it to everyone. So are you going to have courage to send this? I have done my part, Jesus said 'If you are embarrassed about me, I will also be embarrassed about you before my father.'

You are my 8 in 8 seconds. I am not breaking this. No way! I'M TOLD THIS WORKS!!!!! Bishop T.D. Jakes '8 Second Prayer.' Just repeat this prayer and see how God moves!!

'Lord, I love you and I need you, come into my heart, and bless me, my family, my home, and my friends, in Jesus' name. Amen.'

My dear friends, after reading this, what is ur thoughts? Have u love Jesus as much as He had loved u? Have u start a relationship with Him? Do NOT be afraid my friends! Listen to His words and follow Him!

Let God bless you.

LoVes,

-pEiyaN-

a joke!

2008-11-22T22:27:00.004+08:00

a Joke! (DON Take It Seriously!)

well~ jus another joke on sg life! hav a good laugh! don take it seriously ok~ =D

In Singapore , the majority of us live in Highly Dangerous Buildings(HDB), and most people have already got used to Paying and Paying (PAP).

Not only do you have to pay, you Pay Until Bankrupt (PUB). If that's not enough, somebody still Purposely Wants to Dig (PWD) and get more from you.

So what more can you do when you are in the Money Only Environment (MOE)?

With the current Mad Accounting System (MAS), you are forced to Pay the Sum Ahead (PSA),Which will leave some people Permanently Owing Some Banks (POSB).

And forced to live on the Loan Techniques Always (LTA) system.

When you fall sick and happen to be admitted to a Money Operating Hospital (MOH), You might be able to use your Cash Prior to Funeral (CPF) fund.

If you are out of luck, you may meet doctors who Never Use Heart (NUH) to treat you, and you will be Sure to Give up Hope (SGH) To help ease the traffic, motorists have to pay Cash On Expressway (COE).

If that doesn't help, they can always Eternally Raise Prices (ERP) on the roads.

If you don't own a car, you can always make a Mad Rush to the Train (MRT), OR get squashed in a bus Side By Side (SBS ).

Lastly, under all these pressures, there are not many places we can relax, not even the good old place we used to go because it has become So Expensive and Nothing To See Actually (SENTOSA)!!!

lols! just have a good laugh! =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

another new post!

2008-11-13T20:49:00.003+08:00

Another New Post! =D

well i am back! just posting another new post~ lols! some jokes~ =P

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TEACHER: Maria, go to the map and find North America.
MARIA: Here it is.
TEACHER: Correct. Now class, who discovered America ?
CLASS: Maria.

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TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN: You told me to do it without using tables.

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TEACHER: Glenn, how do you spell 'crocodile?'
GLENN: K-R-O-K-O-D- I-A-L'
TEACHER: No, that's wrong
GLENN: Maybe it is wrong, but you asked me how I spell it.

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TEACHER: Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O.
TEACHER: What are you talking about?
DONALD: Yesterday you said it's H to O.

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TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with 'I.'
MILLIE: I is..
TEACHER: No, Millie..... Always say, 'I am.'
MILLIE: All right... 'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.'

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TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted it. Now, Louie, do you know why his father didn't punish him?
LOUIS: Because George still had the axe in his hand.

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TEACHER: Clyde , your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
CLYDE : No, sir.. It's the same dog.

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TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
HAROLD: A teacher.

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have a good laugh guys! =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

YO!

2008-11-11T20:00:00.001+08:00

Hello Everyone! =D

well i'm back~ but this time around, its news updates! =D

Health Tips!

a) Answer the phone by LEFT ear .

b) Do not drink coffee TWICE a day.

c) Do not take pills with COOL water.

d) Do not have HUGE meals after 5pm.

e) Reduce the amount of OILY food you consume.

f) Drink more WATER in the morning, less at night.

g) Keep your distance from hand phone CHARGERS.

h) Do not use headphones/earphone for LONG period of time.

i) Best sleeping time is from 10pm at night to 6am in the morning.

j) Do not lie down immediately after taking medicine before sleeping.

k) When battery is down to the LAST grid/bar, do not answer the phone as the radiation is 1000 times.

thats about it for this post~ =P updates will come sooner! =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

alright alright!

2008-07-26T16:57:00.002+08:00

Woots! I am BACK! =D

Thank God! i am safely posting here right now.. haha~ ok ok! i know its 1 month alright.. -f3 but still! i am back~ =D Thank God for that!

God is really amazing! He NeveR forsake us.. Thank God for giving me such helpful friends! i am rushing my assignments really.. but Thank God! because of U, i am able to have such wonderful friends here to help me out =D really Blessed by U Lord! =D

just this week's thurdays, steph dear, ian, james, deb, ning & me went to celebrate amily sis bday! we ate at Modesto (erm.. don know how to spell that.. =x) its really good! de lasagna (erm.. u get it =x) was really really nice! haha~ me n ning was having that.. de rest tried it form our plate.. n guess what! after eating it they just wan more! xD haha~ oh & amily sis! hope u enjoyed ur presents! =D God loves u!

dear Lord, just wan to pray for sis amily.. pls keep her safe with you.. & i know that through ur hands she will do great jobs to glorify u! bless her Lord! she loves u! =D

hmm.. sch was pretty good.. busy but a fruitful week! wan to thank all my classmates again! especially jeremy! thanks for lending me studio hrs~ thanks tera for helping me fix up my song! the arrangements and everything is really better than b4! thanks shulan for singing for my song! don worry about it ok~ u did great! =D thanks hui zhuang for giving comments on my song~ thanks tim r for borrowing me the studio on this coming tues, thanks jimmy for rmbing! so if tim r forgot about it, we could find u to remind him~ ha! & most importantly.. THANKS Dear! =D thanks for coming down all the way to help me play guitar, bass and drums.. thanks for helping me with my recording~ without u i will still be as lost as a sheep~ thanks! =D and thanks for everything! de accompaniment, the encouraging words, ur presences.. it means alot to me.. thanks! =)

yeah! tml i'm going back to church! finally! =D i miss u church! the House of God is really great! it just feel great to be inside! thanks alot God! Thank You! =D

oh well~ all is well! for now & for the furture.. God will keep me safe =D

oh & b4 i forget.. i've added more pictures in the flick so just enjoy! =D

in Jesus's name i pray, Amen!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

wahahaha!

2008-06-26T19:03:00.002+08:00

Life Is Good! =D

life is good! thanks to God! =D dear is coming back soon! yeah! xD Thank You God for keeping him safe =D yst he just "international" call me & ask me for my add.. he wan to mail something to me.. i wonder wat it is.. cant wait! xD Thank You God for sending him to me! my praises for U is NeveR enough! =DD God I Love U!

now.. i leave everything to U.. i know U had plans for me.. so i'll be patient! =D cant wait for sunday too! church church! xD but then.. there's no class with xue wei.. T_T aww~ i wan to learn more about U! x.x arh~ but nvm! cos service is still de same~ =D i can feel ur presence anytime, anywhere! =D

just looking through de photos.. really had alot of memories! =D some pics are really cute! should be posting them up soon! meanwhile just enjoy de pics & links here ba~ oh ya! i lazy to do de alignment le.. =x i think like that is ok too! haha~ =P

God, pls be with me! change my life through ur Holy Spirit.. =D I Love You!

in Jesus name i pray, Amen!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

(ps. i love u dear~ i miss u.. & I Love U God~ =D)

woots!

2008-06-26T00:03:00.002+08:00

Woots! =x

ha~ so happy! can post my photos here~ i thinking of closing friendster acc le.. x.x abit tired to go there every time.. & now i can post de photos here! =D but 1 bad thing is.. i think it will let u all have a longer time to load ba.. i don know.. cos mine load super fast! =x

ha~ anyway! hope u enjoy de photos ne! ya ya~ i know i need to work on de alignment! ROAR ! =x opps~ ha! c ya soon!

I Love You God! i love u dear~ =D *hug!*

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

there r so many things!

2008-06-25T21:33:00.002+08:00

There are SOO Many Things! =D

currently.. there are SOOOO many things that i wanted to do! =D but~ de sad thing is i cant do everything at de same time.. LOL =x

1stly i wan to re-paint my room! sweet pink or lavender purple on de walls.. sky blue or baby blue on de ceiling! i wan a dreamy yet clam feeling on my walls.. (they say pink help to clam ppl o.o) then sky blue or just de sky colour on my ceiling! hehe~ =D at night i cant put luminous stars on it! =DD

but de problem is i cant re-paint them now.. my parents are busy & they don wan me to re-paint them alone.. aw~ but its ok! cos right now.. its de furniture thats important! =D i got a new bed.. he~ xD so right now i only need to move my furniture around~ ha ha! =D after doing that just need to do some cleaning up then can le! i can do my hw & things like that~ he~ i really wan my room to change now.. ROAR! =x ha~ cos to me.. my room is really important! it gives me a nice area for study & all nor~ hehe~ so if its not ready.. i would feel abit.. off balance on my "work" or studies or watever things i wan to do.. lols.. but i guess its going to be done soon! cos i know God have his plans! =D i'll pray~

i really feel that God has his plans nor.. just last service.. we talked about order of worship.. it really enlightens me.. haha! Thanks God! =D I Love U!

anyway dear dear! my hand is healing ok! no more blue black le.. hehe! xD & don worry~ i got take good care of myself nor! =D *pat on my shoulder* ha~

& zhuang zhuang sis~ stay strong ok! i'll pray for u~ nothing is too hard for u! we all care about u~ so STAY STRONG! =D *hug~*

God pls bless me & my room! =D I Love You!

in Jesus name i pray, Amen!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

(ps. I miss you..)

hais

2008-06-24T20:29:00.002+08:00

Disappionted.. With Myself.. T_T

its like.. i almost denied God infront of my friends.. almost! i feel so bad! T_T instantly after i sort of denied Him.. my heart "cracks".. u can feel that its so painful! actually.. i was just playing one of de christian songs.. then my friend look over.. so i said.. hey its a nice song ok! at that time i was wondering if i should be so "open" or watever u call it to her.. cos i know she dont believe.. & she was having a bad mood.. i don wan to anger her or quarrel with her.. but still.. i feel that i'm so bad! T_T forgive me my Heavenly Father.. i didnt do it on purpose! from that moment onwards my heart just sank.. i'm so SORRY! T_T

i just feel bad.. but i know i am forgiven.. thus from now on.. i'll follow as closely to ur words as possible.. =D Lord I Love U! thus i wont mind so much of my friends de comments le.. believe me when i said that.. cos i Really Love U Lord! =DD

i wonder how dear dear is doing ne.. my heart now is totally at peace! cos i know he is well protected =D enjoy ur holiday at Perth ok! i love u dear dear.. & i miss u..

in Jesus name i pray, Amen!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

(ps. God really do exist.. feel Him with ur heart, mind & soul.. =D)

wao..

2008-06-23T21:13:00.003+08:00

Wao!

abit risky these days ne.. just last sunday, when i was walking from my piano teachers how to de bus stop.. almost got "bang" by a car.. =x almost ok! ha~ God bless me thus i am safe & sound =D

but another thing happened today.. dear's necklace drop today.. 下到我! T_T but my heart if peaceful.. God told me that nothing had happen to him.. but i'm still scared.. thus i prayed to Him.. i know He'll answer my prayers.. =D

i trust in him.. he'll be safe & sound because he promised me that.. =D dear i love u! I Love U too God! =D *hug~*

1st day of sch.. so far so good! full of chiong-ing spirit.. ha! =P so far nothing much ba.. just recapping of last terms lessons.. omg! a amazing thing happen! cos today.. i really was so scared.. on my way home.. as i was thinking if something really happen to him.. wat will i do! i'm so scared.. n this make me realise that his so important to me! i'm scared.. on my way home.. 想到这里, 我就哭了.. although its not that obvious but.. i'm still scared.. i prayed to God.. i told him pls pls pls pls pls.. pls keep him safe.. although i am scared on de outside.. but my heart is peaceful.. i didnt worry.. i don know how to say.. but then.. my heart is peaceful.. i knew deep inside my heart that i trust God to keep him safe.. & i know he will be.. & de amazing thing happen! as i was typing these.. dear called me from Australia! his voice sound somewat different.. i guess it was because of de weather there.. but that doesnt matter! God answered my prayers! although i didnt tell him i wan a sign or anything.. cos i know in my heart his safe.. but God still made this happen.. its so.. so.. just so amazing! THANK YOU GOD! now i know for sure his safe.. =D U seen through my worry even when i didnt tell u.. =D for that i Praise U! God I Love You! =D

i love u dear.. & i miss u too! come home safely.. i'll be waiting.. & once again.. THANKS LORD! my praises for u will never end! =D

I Love You Jesus! =D

in Jesus name i pray, Amen!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

without u

2008-06-22T20:40:00.003+08:00

Without U..

life's never de same without someone u love.. since u're been gone, i've been missing u! although its only 2 days but.. its just not de same! i miss u..

rmb when we always took 39 & stop at de bus stop.. as i walk pass de bridge i rmb u telling me that we can watch beautiful sunrise & sunset here.. although today is a raining day but i still rmb.. there's a warm feeling inside me.. as if u're just right beside me! =) as i walk further down, i had to wait for de road crossing.. unlike last time we always cross with ease.. ha.. but as i wait.. i can feel de warm feeling in my hand.. its like as if u're holding my hand is right beside me, waiting with me.. its so warm! de chicken didnt "morning call" today.. its awfully quiet today.. but i enjoy it.. & i can feel u beside me.. enjoying it with me.. how amazing is that! Praise de Lord! He made de chick croak when we r tgt there.. its sort of like a topic that we can chat on.. then again He gave us peace & quiet so we can just simply enjoy each other's company.. i can feel u even u're not physically beside me.. de warm feeling never leaves me.. & i know God is looking after me.. when i take trains i always rmb u telling me to let de passengers alight 1st.. it always reminds me of u when i tie my shoelace.. there r tons of other things that reminds me of u.. & i know all that had happen God made it happen.. He sent u to me.. i'm really blessed by Him! =D I Love U Lord!

from this point on.. my life is changing.. for de better! sunday class with xue wei is fun.. i get a deeper meaning of wat is it like to be Christian.. it just let me wan to get closer to U! even when it rain so heavily today morning.. i told myself i must go! & i didnt regret! U answered my prayers as if like U're talking to me personally! for that i Praise U! without U.. my life is nothing.. Lord I Love U! i adore U! =D

still have 5 more days to go dear.. i'll be waiting.. =D waiting for u to come home.. & even though ppl say that when ur love is away, u'll feel lonely, sad, emo.. things like that.. but as i pray & believe in God, & in u.. i never had that feeling.. even when i search deep inside my heart & ask myself.. am i lonely without u? would i die, can i stand weeks without seeing u? de answer is no.. my heart is contented.. rmb i told u that i can feel u even when u're not around me physically.. its true! =D as i pray to God to keep u safe, as i pray to God about me worries & feelings.. i let them go to God.. & God answered my prayers.. He sent u here to me.. make my heart full & i never need to worry about anything else.. =)

dear i just wan to say that i trust u! even when we cant see each other for a week.. i know u'll be safe & sound.. u'll be enjoying ur holidays & i'll be concentrating on my studies.. & i really hope that u're enjoy it! don waste it by missing me too much wor~ =P i know God is with us.. even though i cant see Him physically but i know somewhere up there.. His smiling at us! =D His proud of us..

dear i'm proud of u too! u made me see de importance of God in our lifes.. i love u dear dear! don worry about me ok! enjoy ur holidays! =D i'll be strong! for u & for God! =D *hug!*

in Jesus name i pray, Amen!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

leaving for perth

2008-06-21T21:47:00.003+08:00

He Just Left For Perth..

dear God, dearest just left for Perth this afternoon.. was missing him.. x.x i guess it cant be help.. ha~ its like a pre-cant-get-to-see each other practice.. after he go in to army we cant see each other for longer! T_T don know how i will live.. but of cos God, i know i have u! i cant live without U.. U made everything become brighter.. U brought every little good things to my life.. U made me saw that U'll AlwaYS be FaithfuL to me.. just as dear had mentioned.. my walk with U is just amazing! no words nor feelings can describe.. u really got to feel it.. =)

Lord i thank you for everything little thing that u put me through.. even went i thought i was gonna die if i don get out of a situation soon.. but U always sent Ur AngeLs to me.. kept me company.. time n time again U brought me back to church, to U! & i'm really glad that i came to U! imagine de days without U! i've missed so much! if U're not in my life right now.. i don have a life.. i'll just be wandering day through day.. don know where i belong.. where i have a place call home.. my walk with U is not done yet! its even barely starting Lord! we have years, thousands of years to count! I Love U God! I Love U Jesus! =D *hug!*

God, i just wan to pray for de 9 of them at Perth right now.. that they will have a fun & fruitful holiday.. Lord i pray that U'll be with them always! guiding them through de days.. let them NeveR forgetting that U'll always walking in Faith with them Lord! =) i pray that U'll bless them with good health.. simply let them enjoy this chance of holiday trip.. hope that U'll relax Francine.. don let her be so "stress" nor remind her of work at there.. just wan to pray that U'll be with them & let them have a safe journey Home! =D

oh well~ havent 1 day i'm thinking of them returning home le.. =x especially him i guess.. ha! xD but.. i really pray that they'll enjoy de trip ya! let it not be wasted! =D

1 week without him is hard! T_T but~ i have God! =D & thats more than enough! i'll miss u dear~ take good care of urself ok! i'll be waiting for u here, ur Home~ =D

i love u dear! I Love U God!

in Jesus name i pray, Amen!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

(ps. i'm already starting to miss u~)

oh well~

2008-06-15T21:27:00.003+08:00

Still a GooD Day! =D

Praise de Lord! still a good day afterall~ ha! choir singing was good in de morning! although its hard to sight-sing! especially when u need to read de words n notes at de sametime.. @@ but Praise de Lord! i made it through! =D its not that bad actually! for once i thought i done pretty well~ =P

didnt actually went for sunday sch.. but then i got a special course~ its call zhuo miao.. xue wei is taking me in this.. she shares with me her life with God & how as a Christian that we should continue to believe in God no matter wat! i really thank God for this time.. its really enriching & lets me know more about u.. i was actually quite scared about this.. n thought that its just like those of sharing sessions that u have to go through.. but then.. as we went through de 1st lesson.. it just hit me! God is amazing.. u can NeveR end ur Praises for Him! He is just so amazing that without him u would be nothing.. seriously nothing! i thank God for this time because i really knew more about Him.. more about been a Christian.. wat u're suppose to do.. how U put Ur glory in front of us.. how U show us Ur love through many many ways! for that i Praise U Lord! =D U r TrulY amazing!

today i also knew a little about her relationship.. God i pray that U'll continue to give her strength & strengthen her.. let her grow steadily through ur love.. her relationship is built on Ur love.. pls bless her with everything.. i have to say that i'm truly looking forward to de next "lesson" that i'm going to have with her! Thank God! =D

evening i had dinner with my parents.. thank you dear for accompanying me to piano lesson.. sorry its so far from ur house.. x.x (alright alright, i know sorry is a precious word.. =P) but still i thank you! =D

my parents was asking me about me been a Christian.. she was questioning me with qns.. i was abit scared.. but phew~ Praise de Lord! i made it through! =D Thank You God! i was able to stood strong infront of them! even with all these qns-ings.. phew! although both of them still doubt about this n that but.. i know God have his plans.. n i know i am part of it to change my parents' views.. i'm glad! =D i know 1 day they'll understand.. & i trust God for watever plans he have.. =D

i know i still got alot to learn about God.. but i know U had plans God.. so i am willing to wait & learn about U everyday.. i need u so much in my life Lord! =D come to me as i bow b4 u.. I Love U! =D

& i pray for bro allan.. tml we're visiting him in de hospital.. hope U'll bless him & keep him safe! bless him with a fast recovery.. =D

I Love U Lord!

in Jesus name i pray, Amen!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

hmm yst..

2008-06-13T10:17:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. Yesterday...

yst was a good day actually! despite a few things here n there.. it was generally alright! =D i finally got my bilingual bible! =D it was big & a little heavy~ but! it doesnt matter! dearest reminded me that its de contents that is important! haha~ =P thank you dear!

piano lesson was alright! cleared up a few qns here & there.. now can complete my hw le! xD then my piano fever is now constantly burning! =D Praise de Lord! i once pray to God that he'll keep my piano fever everlasting.. & its actually working! how amazing is that? xD right now.. i love de piano! =D although i only play that few songs but it doesnt matter! cos through Lord's power, i can do anything! =D

after my lesson i went to meet my dearest then we head to Bible House to get my bible.. they actually had a sell there.. so ppl interested in any books or de different lang of bible head to there NOW! =P its just around de corner of some street.. i don know how to spell de name.. @@ but will find out~ then post it here.. haha!

i met 2 of his sec sch friends.. mev & jos.. mev going into army today! Lord i just wan to pray that u'll look after him in camp =D bless him with a healthy body so he can do Ur works! =D I love u Jesus! =P

jos didnt join us for dinner.. he already had plans.. so me, dearest & mev head to vivo for dinner.. but b4 that mev went back to dump his camp eq 1st.. de funny thing was.. b4 i met up with them.. de guys went to lav to buy de camp things.. dearest was telling him to write a list.. then when mev reach his house mrt then he rmb de list.. so he run all de way run to get his list.. lols! then after that when they reach lav.. he lost his list.. =.= lols! =x

oh btw~ i got a chewy milk bone for my doggies! xD i'm sure they will have healthy teeth from now on! God, pls bless them with good health! =D haha~ but i think i will save up & take them to de vet soon ba.. their pi fu bing is abit out of control.. & feifei have ear problems.. T_T aww.. Lord, pls bless them with good health! & take away their pain.. they 2 r very guai de doggies.. so pls bless them!

if u have time.. go to vivo there.. de sunset there is really nice & beautiful! if possible.. bring ur love 1 along & just sit there n chat.. nothing is more peaceful than there.. with ur love 1 it just feel different =D look at God's creation.. its really amazing.. oh! 1 thing to note.. de merlion looks evil.. =x ops i mean.. haha~ with its eyes glowing its just.. a little evil =x

alright! Lord i just wan to pray that u'll bless those who r going to army with good health & they will get along with de army life just fine! & bless those who r going through hard times.. bless them with angels to help them pull through.. let them see Ur light among de dark times.. guide them on that path & bring them to sucess.. thank you Lord for everything.. every morning i wan to tell U that i would only live for U! Ur grace is enough for me =D

I Love U Lord~

in Jesus name i pray, Amen

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

life is great!

2008-06-11T11:43:00.003+08:00

Life IS GreaT! =D

life is just great~ when u accept someone in ur life.. and made him de most important person.. its just so great! i love u my Heavenly Father! =D

yst when i was on de way home.. i was taking 60 with my dearest.. then de sensor of de bus just don work.. cos its raining heavily & i guess de raindrops disturbs de sensor.. de new 60 bus.. if u doesnt close de door de bus cant move.. so for awhile we were stuck there.. then both of us at de same moment cried to God for help.. & instantly after that de door closes.. haha! how powerful was that?! Praise de Lord! =D

life is so far so good! church was fun~ choir in de morning was great! although i don really like de idea of singing early ind e morning.. but still~ de power of ppl coming tgt is really great! & God made that happen~ =D the bunch of us just come early in de morning to sing & Praise de Lord tgt! =D its amazing~

just last week.. i attended de service.. it talks about God's jealousy.. its interesting~ & let me learn more about God! i'm so glad.. so so glad that i came to him.. good things dont usually come ur way.. but with him! everything GOOD is coming ur way.. haha~

the outings was fun too~ just last sunday after de service, we had an outing at east coast.. it was good! we run de whole east coast park to find ppl.. x.x &... de clues doesnt really make sense but.. haha! we had a Great time tgt! Praise de Lord! b4 that.. i pray that it wont rain.. & He responded.. it was a good day! no rain.. nor really sunny.. so~ =D THANK YOU GOD! I Love U! =D i learnt alot more.. about working tgt & things like that.. its really enriching.. although a few of them fall & hurt themselves.. but its generally alright! =D Praise de Lord! =DD

i'm looking forward to church again~ thank you god everything my Father! I Love You! <3

in Jesus name i pray, Amen!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

dear lord!

2008-06-07T20:13:00.002+08:00

Dear Heavenly Father!

i feel so Proud of u! & proud of myself (in a way).. haha~ cos! u made miracles happen! & u lend ur powers through me to do ur holy work! i'm still so amazed at ur miracles that my praises for u would never stop! =D

i love u lord~ & i know u love me too! =D just as u love everyone else! in John 3:16 "For God so love the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life." Dear lord, u are really so great! u gave ur 1 & ONLY son! u let him died on de cross to wash away our pain.. how many ppl right now in this world can do that?! its amazing! and because of this.. we have eternal life.. we have ur blessings.. we r whole again.. i really thank you for that.. u show ur Love to u in EVERY, SINGLE way! no man nor anything else could be as loving as u Father.. u gave ur everything to us.. for that i Praise u, i Love u! =D

lord, i just wan to pray.. for 4 of my friends.. that their relationship problems could be work out.. no matter wat relationship problems that their having.. i pray for them lord.. let ur blessing flow through them.. make them realise that by believing in u.. they have de power to do great things! let them realise that it is through u that they have such a Gifted & Bless life! lord i wan to pray that u'll send ur angels down to help them with their problems.. show them de light lord! show them that nothing is too hard with u by their side =D

i also wan to pray for 3 guys who are going into de army.. Ian, Stephen dear & Kai Yuan.. i wan to pray that u'll keep them safe.. continue to show ur love to them.. let them be all well in de army.. no matter how hard it is going to get.. bless them! pls send ur angels to protect them =D

i wan to pray for Ning too.. she's working too hard.. i pray that u'll look after her.. u'll bless her with happiness & free from work stress.. pls send ur angels down to divide her work load.. pls take care of her.. she's really working too hard lord.. she loves u lord, n i know u'll going to bless her with ever single love u have! for that i praise u! =D

i love u Jesus~ u'll like a big brother to me.. =D i am really glad that God sent u down to us.. because of u.. we are able to enter heaven again.. because of u.. he learnt that God will NEVER abandon us.. He would always be faithful to us.. and for that.. i Praise u! thank you Jesus! I LOVE U! =D

i just wan to pray for everyone thats around me.. lord i pray that u'll bless them with good health, good jobs (for those who are working), good results (those studying).. watever de case might be.. u'll be our lord, u'll be de Father that we love always & forever =D

I Love U!

in Jesus name i pray, Amen!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

dear lord

2008-06-06T10:18:00.002+08:00

Dear Father,

well.. so many things happen wor.. alot of my friends r feeling down at this moment.. right now! i feel so helpless actually.. well.. but still.. deep inside my heart u're telling me i can help! i'll follow u n lend them my hand to hold on =D

but.. i wan to pray for them.. i pray that u'll give them a blessed life.. help them realise that u r de 1 n only in that life that can make them be so blessed.. lord, send ur blessing through me.. let me do ur mircales for them! =) i wan to be there when they need me.. i wan to be ur messenger! lord i just wan to pray that u'll keep them under ur wings.. take good care of them.. help me go through thunder storms.. i just pray that u'll bless them.. =D

i love u lord~

in Jesus name i pray, Amen

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

wonders of life!

2008-06-04T10:22:00.003+08:00

What a Wonderful GOD! =D

i do had such a wonderful~ sometimes i wonder how come he had so much grace to give.. ha! i think even de kindest man on earth will run out of his grace someday.. but my lord.. its really amazing! =D

u know de funny part is.. sometimes when i pray, i ask god to take care of himself.. ha! its funny i know.. god had powers yes..but hey! he has feeling too ok! =P u'll be tired too right arent u lord? ha~ so i pray for u ok Jesus! pls take care of urself & ur father.. both of u looking after so many ppl on earth is tough! just imagine if u're de leader of a nation.. there is so much for u to go through! sometimes we get so tired in our own lifes.. how can he not get tired? ha~ so do take care of urself ya! cos ppl like us will keep on sinning.. we need ur grace lord! *HUG U!* =D

something miracle happen! lols! something good! it just feel so natural.. so easy & free in god! he really did show me wats best.. =D i am so So SO glad! THANK YOU! =D *HUG HUG HUG!* i guess thank you is not enough! so i'll do my very best.. thank you lord for showing me this.. i really appreciate it!

alot of things in my life start to come to me naturally le.. whenever i walk down de windy path of my garden at de back of my house.. i feel like lifting my hands.. but it always felt so heavy.. x.x its like u'll get embarrassed if ppl see n things like that.. u worry about this minor stuff.. x.x but then.. just yst.. when i lifted up my hands.. its as light as a feather.. no worries in my heart.. even if they see.. well~ so be it! =D things really took off differently.. n guess wat! during that time.. i was thinking about god.. how he had made my life wonderful & i know i'll continue to grow steadily in him.. ha~ see.. he can show u wonders! even if its just a small thing.. =D

well.. now lord.. i put my everything in u.. i love you, i trust u! every relationship that i have.. everything emotion.. every worry everything about me.. i put it in u.. i know through u i can do wonders.. so fill me up with ur holy spirit! i am ready! =D

when u came back lord.. with ur only son.. i would stood proudly b4 u n tell u that i love u lord.. that i am NOT ashamed to be a christian.. that life is wonderful with u! i'll walk this path with u lord =D *HUG~*

i love you lord~ more than anything or anyone! =D when u ask me to go.. i will follow u! =D be de lord in my life! i'll kneel b4 u n listen to ur words! I LOVE U! =D

thanks alot for everything lord~ i love you~

in Jesus name i pray, Amen!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

dear heavenly father...

2008-06-03T10:21:00.002+08:00

Dear Heavenly Father..

i really pray.. had a conversation with one of my friends.. found out that he actually had a hard time believing in u.. i wasnt surprise.. i know how hard it can be to abandon himself n carry de cross to follow u.. but i believe that u have de power to support him! =D u have me lord.. use me as ur messenger & spread ur words! =D

i also read some older post of another 1.. i found that really.. sometimes ppl can be so baka.. when everything comes.. troubles, sadness, unhappiness, n things like that.. ppl forget ur words.. they didnt listen to ur soft whispers again.. they curse & harm themselves n others.. its really baka isnt it.. ha! thats why i must thank you! u moved ur power through me & bless me with ur wisdom.. so i wont be blinded by just wats in front of me.. but see's de future with a new light.. =D i thank you! & i'm really glad that u moved ur power through them too! bringing them back to u.. to ur everlasting love & show them de wonders of life.. =D right now lord.. u have me.. so i pray that u will send ur words to me.. let me help u spread them out! i'll gladly be ur sowers for de fields.. =D

i love u lord.. i trust u.. & i know i will continue to grow steadily in u! =D so lord.. i pray that u will help them come back to u.. bless them with ur wisdom.. show them de wonders of life.. spread ur words through me =D *hug jesus!*

in Jesus name i pray, Amen

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

happy~ =D

2008-06-01T19:49:00.002+08:00

What a Wonderful DAY! =D

today is such a wonderful day! i thought sunday sch will be boring & so straight forward kind.. =s but after attending it my mind totally change! =D it was fun & fruitful! alot of topic discussion~ talk about recent topics & we r all allowed to share our views.. ha~ xD thank you god for bringing me to de sunday sch today! =D

service was nice~ i love it alot! =D although cant really get use to the language.. didnt study bible in chinese b4.. @@ but it was good experience! xD i decided to get a bilingual bible~ =D praise de lord! xD from now onwards i know my life is gonna change~ god will bring me to greater heights! =D n di song shared his experiences with me.. was happy.. everyone was open to me! =D good sign ok~ xD

furthermore.. i had a really good news! ha~ xD didnt expect it coming.. i thought i was something bad.. or u can say de total opposite.. but! god really do wonders to ur life ma~ *THANK YOU!* I LOVE U JESUS~ =D

today is de day that i totally accept Jesus, our god, into my life~ june 1st 2008~ =D an unforgettable day! xD 2 good things happening is really a miracle~ =D thank you my father~ =D

& alot i pray that i can go out with amily soon wor! she recently got alot of activities ne.. hope u will bless her with good health! =D i also pray for my parents~ bless them with good health too! xD i love u jesus~

in Jesus name i pray, Amen

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

praise de lord! =D

2008-05-31T15:25:00.002+08:00

Praise The LORD! =D

u know.. god really do wonders to ur life~ for so long.. i've been setting my eyes on god.. but things kept coming.. some kept me close to god.. so drifted me away.. but then again.. he always send angels to me.. i was so blessed! =D thank you lord.. u have always blessed me & give me gifts much more wonderful that anything else.. and now.. i will use this gifts to bless de ppl around me =D i will be ur messenger & spread ur word.. u have me as ur messenger.. and most importantly, i am ur daughter =D I AM A CHRISTIAN! =DD ha~

life is really great.. wat i have been through in de past isnt something bad actually.. cos i am bless with that experience & now.. i can share these experience with my friends.. =D

i am terribly sorry to u nic.. i didnt mean to hurt u.. but i just felt that this relationship is going the wrong way.. i know god have planned someone much better for u.. so dont settle for de 2nd best.. u will find ur princess soon! =D GOD BLESS U! i love u nic~ so pls be strong! god loves u too! =DD

and to ALL my friends! GOD LOVES U~ so watever troubles u're going through.. let it be having exams or relationship problems.. GOD WILL BLESS U! i'll pray for u~ so BE STRONG! =D

in Jesus name i pray, Amen

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

nice~ =D

2008-05-21T23:39:00.002+08:00

NICE! =D

its kinda of nice today~ had lessons from 10 to 12.. stomach is really hungry by then @@ but we didnt really did anything during lesson.. listening to other ppl's work is wat we did.. lols! its like stonning.. listen.. talk.. =x ha~ but its "experimental" after all.. u get to hear wat other ppl's work is like & then improves ur own! overall its nice~ not bad i would say.. ha! =x

had practice after that.. i think that rose song will really work out! xD despite de fact that we still need lots of practice.. but i believe that that can be arrange.. its just de other song.. we havent really practiced that.. n i'm kinda worried.. i need to work out de chords for rose n really put everything tgt.. @@ HELP! lols~ =x but i know Stephen will be here to help! ah THANKS! =D owe u lots n lots! x.x

practice was fun.. high enough.. but de drum beats are constantly slowly down.. but i'll try not to take notice of that.. =x cos de drummer doesnt major in drum in de 1st place too so~ @@ oh well.. de guitarist was alright man! cool! xD but it will help to sound alot more better if she's a true electric guitarist player.. but nvm! we'll work something out~ =D but de only problem now is de vocals~ we had a main 1.. i think thats pretty enough.. cos we actually had 2 vocals.. so actually de 2nd 1 can sing backing voice.. but now they wan to combine.. i don know how it will turn out actually.. n i cant just be stonning.. so need to add keys in.. thats 1 major part.. its hard! @@ T_T lols~ i hope i can work out everything soon!

had a good chat today.. was pretty clear wat i should do now.. but~ i don know if i'm strong enough to do that.. lols! but it doesnt matter.. at least i had a direction.. n thats it~ =D tonight was a fun night! a little bit of alcohol doesnt kill me i found out.. lols~ its true of wat my mum says.. girls shouldnt drink too much but at least should know how to drink a little.. ha~ =D mum ur right! lols! *nod head, totally agree!* ha~

alright.. i'm tired.. there are still tons of things happening.. too tired to care actually.. =x alright night! see ya again soon~~ =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

yo!

2008-05-20T09:49:00.002+08:00

YO! =D

hai hai! i'm back! ha~ so long never update le right.. LOL =x well here i am~ just finished my camp.. so cool! it rocks~ xD it was FUN! although we had a few issues here n there.. but~ generally its alright! =D for a small club to cater a camp for 80 plus ppl is not rong yi! i must admit our camp is way more successful than it should be! other clubs de camp is all... n not to mention that we combined nightwalk with 1 of de clubs.. its really a HUGE success! =DDD all de hard work isnt waste! THANK YOU ALL~ =D

nothing really much to talk about these day.. de performance on 9 may? when was de date? ah i forgot =x was quite alright.. at least i still dare to sing on stage.. LOL on 28 may i'm performing again for my sch's graduation.. full day u know! i got 3 groups.. LOL =x morning need to perform.. then lunch then evening.. ha! hope everything goes well.. but i only have 2 weeks time to prepare for 3 different grp's songs.. 1 of them still singing 2 songs.. so total i need to get rdy 4 song~ @@ gotto work hard! sorry dear dear~ maybe i cant pei u that long.. cos got rehearsal and all.. sorry..

oh and~ i will change my blog song soong.. LOL havent had de time to think wat song should i put =x ha~ oh well! thats all for now!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

life is crazy!

2008-04-16T23:36:00.003+08:00

Life Is CRAZY! xD

life is really crazy man sometimes! in a good way i mean.. sch's hard.. i mean busy.. started practicing for my performance already! its fun~ xD no doubt! but also hard.. i almost gonna lost my voice at de end of de day @@ u know.. we're suppose to meet at 8.00 this morning.. but end up i couldnt wake up @@ pushed to 8.30.. in de end i 9 then reach.. is omg! T_T I"M SO SORRY! i was really tired! always woke up early but sleep late.. look at my blogging time @@ lols~ but also.. u know i was standing at de door in de mrt.. ppl keep on wan to walk in n out.. so i no choice & needed to move in n out of de mrt when in station.. end up.. when i reach lav.. i let all de ppl in n guess wat! no more space left for me.. =.= so i had to wait for de next train.. lols @@ but anyway.. special thanks to Stephen! THANKS ALOT for coming all de way to just help us with de harmonising! REALLY THANKS! i know u lack of sleep.. next time i'll be on time! T_T n really thanks for been on time =x ha~ but nevertheless, i hope its a fun day for u too! u laughed alot in my clubhouse =x

ya as i have been saying.. life is really hard.. AND crazy.. lols! sch is interesting.. but often had matters here n there for u so settle.. @@ sleep late wake early.. its sort of "against" my rules! isnt it? =x but i guess that is de state for now.. when i reach week 2, i think i will get more use to it! =D & hopefully i will work out my schedules nicely! =DD its hard & tiring.. but its worth it! =D

in another term.. i enjoy having my life been to de fullest! xD there is somethings here i show to share~ but then have to ask for permission 1st.. xD hehe~ =P

anyway! life is crazy man! but worth de try! xDD u will never know wats de ending.. unless.. u put ur whole life in it! =DD

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

ps: sweet dreams my darling~ =D

woots!

2008-04-15T20:04:00.003+08:00

WOOTS! =D

1st day of sch! i mean yst~ ha~ nothing much really.. was really feeling tired & draggie.. don really wan to go back sch.. but after been in de lessons~ it really changes my mind about going to sch! =D i love sch! xD

but.. lots of hw coming up.. @@ a revision test in week 2.. 9 may & 28 may.. i need to perform on stage.. its like only 3 weeks away to performing? omg! T_T n guess wat.. de timing for performance is only de "lunch break" time.. LOL! as in~ when de de pragrammes r done.. they having refreshment that time.. we play music for them.. LOL its background music na.. @@ but its no choice! still have to do it! =D not that i am complaining.. but i'm actually looking forward to it! =D we can do alot of things for de 2 performances ne! although it only act as a background.. but it really adds up to my experiences! =D

anyway~ enough about that! midi lessons are a overview of wat to expect this year.. had my 1st year 2 assignment.. that is create a little piece using loops.. spicer let us listen to 3 pieces that r created in this way.. n its really nice! i was really stunned & amazed! if i could do such things.. LOL =x anyway~ during music theory.. tin hee let us watch a video.. its a professor talking about music as a language.. its really interesting.. he uses mozart's sypmony 40 (S.H.E de bu xiang zhang da) as a exmple.. he plays really well! but.. bad thing is.. most of de time.. its only him talking & he uses ALOT of chim words.. n i was kinda.. sleepy that day.. so naturally.. i cant open my eyes.. @@ lols.. lucky~ tin hee broke down de words for us.. so we understood it better.. n now i find it really interesting! =D

today's remt lesson is fun too! xD we had a revision again.. then during practical.. we were taught a new music software.. Logic Pro.. de midi sounds in it really sounds good.. better than Cubase! ha~ n de software itself looks cool! but anyway~ after all that teaching.. tim let us listen to various music.. some r really cool! got a few is really happening man~ ha~ i only rmb got Beetles, Beck, Jypsy Kings & 2 more.. de songs are of different genes.. i'm exposed to more kinds of music! xD anyway~ my ears are more used to hearing different instruments in a song as solo.. lols its hard at 1st.. but i got use to it~ =D

last of all.. i miss u dear dear! T_T tml confirm BITE u! =x jokes~ ha! =x

to everyone out there~ jiayou on ur studies wor! especially those taking o lvls this year~ enjoy this study trip ya~ although its hard & long.. but if u work hard u're going to bear de healthest, most beautiful & most sweet de fruit! xD so JIAYOU!

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

ps: I Love You~ =P

PHEW!

2008-04-10T12:08:00.004+08:00

PHEW! =D

my room is in a messy state! =x anyone who come my house sure know~ haha! =P but then today~ me & my dad is going to arrange de furniture in my room.. it sure looks bigger now! =D n where de furnitures should put hor.. de ideas come from me! xD YEAH~ *so proud of myself~* =P

haha~ so now.. my room isnt that messy le~ & everything is more shun shou than last time~ my room also got much more bigger space =D yeah yeah! after lunch~ my dad is going to help me move de furnitures! xDD

cant wait for my room to be finish! =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

ps. I Miss You~ =)

Emo-ing Week~

2008-04-10T00:12:00.002+08:00

EMO-ING WEEK! o.o

i guess this week is de emo-ing week~ lols! everyone around me is abit emo here & there.. it makes me wan to cry with them also! T_T especially if that someone is emo too! T_T

u know~ there's 1 thing i hate about myself.. i often can tell wat is my friends feelings.. sometimes i just wish that i can switch that ability off.. only switch it on when needed.. lols! =x but as if Life will be that easy.. ha! anyway~ i don wan any of my friends to be sad! T_T nor emo! although we tend to be EMOtional.. but then.. emo is not de main word here ok~ emotional then is! =x so~ Be Strong GUYS! (& gals) =x Pull It Through! =D

i often console my friends when their down.. i thought i could handle these things well.. but oh well~ somethings are just wrong! =x i still cant handle some emotions well! lols~ @@ but i'll be trying my best! =D don emo ok~ cos i will emo with u de.. especially de 1 who say i cry he will go tiao lou oh.. =x if u emo de hua~ don know who is "tiao lou" ing~ haha! no la.. I Will Be By Ur Side Always ok~ rmb our konayuki~ =D Promises of de Heart~ =D *HUG!*

life is still de same for me.. accept that my grandparents had gone back to china.. feeling abit lonely all of de sudden.. or should i say i'm not use to it.. de house use to be filled with ppl.. but now.. only left me & my doggies during de day.. in de night.. my parents are too tired from work.. my house hen leng qing le wor.. i miss them! T_T also~ my parents are working hard.. all i could do is take good care of de dogs & don let them worry.. so now~ i'll try my best to come home early, always walk de dogs! (a promise!), feed them, bath them, try to get my room tidy =x (well i will try! =x) & lots of other things.. of cos! for u as well~ i will take care of myself! =D so dont u worry~ i wont be as lonely nor tired.. cos i know u will be by my side too! =D

at least now~ i'm not alone anymore.. i have my friends.. my family.. n most of all u! =D i am complete! xDD well fiona~ don worry about me leaving u! i wont~ i don know how to say this.. cos i know that no matter how i say it.. u will feel in-secure.. thus! let me prove it to u~ =D trust me! n to all my other friends too~ =D all of u had a little part of my heart.. so! don think i will take it back ok~ cos i have little pieces of UR hearts! & it fills up my holes! =D same to u! u have de biggest piece of all! =D (besides my family that is.. all of urs are equal ok!) so~ let time do de talking~ =D

Love U ALL~ Especially U~ =D *MUACKS!* =P

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

just dropping by~

2008-04-02T22:15:00.003+08:00

Well~ Just Dropping By~

ha~ nothing much ba these days.. life still de same.. except for a few friends ba.. some of them are quite down.. i hope they will cheer up soon! =D

learning Konayuki, piano version~ =D i know how to play de 1st page le! xD but abit slow na.. =.= n its a sad song! T_T i will start watching 1 litre of tears le.. anyone know where i can watch ma? if not i go borrow vcd le~ i think i will cry from beginning to de end nor.. T_T

dear dear nic~ jiayou for all ur test wor! =D n hor don over work urself ya~ miss u! =D see ya on sat! =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

hey hey! =D

2008-04-02T00:55:00.005+08:00

HELLO Everyone~ =D

nothing much is happening these few days.. everything is de same ba.. except for some sweet stuff here n there~ =P well i'll update about that soon ba.. haha! =P anyway~ life is normal.. not really busy or also not as slack.. piano is still my daily activity! xD yeah~ manage to sustain my "fever" for that.. ha! =D

super happy na! me & esther as more close le.. haha~ our friendship bloom! =D then then~ also happy to help out in sch activities.. everytime gather with them will have alot of xiao hua de.. LOL =x laughters everywhere~ haha! also~ not to forget de little sweet stuff with me n nic~ =P

sch's reopening soon.. but other than that everything is settled ba.. whatever de case.. i just have to deal with it.. but i'm glad i have friends who will stood by me~ n of cos.. i MUST especially THANK nic~ for all those sweet little stuff that he had done.. haha =D

n THANKS ALOT MY FRIENDS! =D REALLY APPRECIATE EVERYTHING THAT U"RE HAVE DONE FOR ME =D it will be rmbed ALWAYS~ xD

oh btw.. i was scanning through my e-mail when i received some funny 1s.. lols~ shall post a few here ba.. hope it doesnt bored u ne =x

ENJOY! xD

60 Things That Gals Don Know About Guys... (GUYS~ tell me how true is this)

a) Guys HATE sluts even though they have sex with them! oh yeah..you're not 'popular' if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE

'b) Hey, are you busy?' or 'Are you doing something?' ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

c) Some guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

d) Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

e) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

f) Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

g) Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

h) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

i) Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

j) Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend. Guys get jealous easily.

k) Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

l) Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

m) Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

n) Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

o) Girls are guys' weaknesses.

p) Guys are very open about themselves.

q) It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

r) Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

s) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

t) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

u) Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

v) Guys will brag about anything.

w) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

x) No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

y) Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

z) Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

1) Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

2) Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

3) Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

4) Try to be as straightforward as possible.

5) If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

6) If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

7) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

8) When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'

9) Guys don't really have final decisions.

10) If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

11)If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

12) When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

13) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

14) Guys like femininity not feebleness.

15) Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

16) A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

17) Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

18) Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

19) Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

20) Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

21) If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

22) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

23) A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

24) No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

25) Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

26) We don't like girls who are too skinny.

27) We love it when girls talk about there boobs.

28) Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....

29) Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

30) When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

31) Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

32) Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

33) Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

34) When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

ok~ i think this is way too long le =x so.. lets jsut stop here.. haha xD

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

tired~

2008-03-26T15:09:00.003+08:00

Tired! =D

yeah yeah i'm tired~ but tired dao hen happy =D everything is well ba.. =D xian zai hen xin fu! xD had a talk with my mum yst.. knew some of de stories.. i feel that i'm luckie! cos cos my mum told me that i should have either a baby gal or bro.. but that time china only can have 1 child.. so my sis or bro gets "killed".. hais.. u may blame my parents for killing that baby.. but its no choice ya.. china's policy.. n its quite senseable ba.. imgine if they allow.. example china popular is 9milion.. if like 1/3, 3million can give birth.. then everyone 1 is another 3m more.. if some is 2 child de hua.. then.. wa.. earth is really going to shake with humans le..

then my mum told me that i'm a "accident" baby.. my dada initally didnt plan to have 1.. so it dragged n my mum accidently got me.. lucky i am de 1st child.. if not i will be de 1 to die.. this make me cherish my life more.. also for my baby sis or bro.. i wan to live my life to de fullest! =D my mum also finally told me de story behind her n my nainai (my father's mother).. alot of misunderstanding.. i gain a little knowledge about them.. haha~

now in sch.. waiting for meeting to start.. @@ lucky got nic to pei wo chat~ =D THANKS! shulan also playing nice song.. later going to cope songs from her! xD hehe~ =P

thats all for now! =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

alright alright!

2008-03-25T18:41:00.002+08:00

Alright Alright! f3~

alright boss.. i am changing my song! f3~ its not noisy ok! but i think i should change it for a little change.. ah haha =x lol! so i'm putting up Jojo's song Exceptional~! =D its a nice song!

just a normal day for me ba.. didnt blog for so long.. now abit lost at words.. haha~ morning played alittle abit of my piano! =D piano piano! xD *eyes shine!* =D haha~ LOVE PIANO! xDD then after that i took de whole morning to make a video, or rather a ppt slideshow for nic~ hope he will cheer up abit after he have seen that ya =D soon enough i would put it in media player maker & post it on youtube ba..

then after that nic came home from sch le! xD yeah! oh n THANKS! xiu xiu lao po & teddy for helping me to test out de slideshow.. haha~ =D i sent him de ppt.. but.. he no responds de T_T lols.. haha no la.. cos in de end he got say he like it! xDDD YEAH! my hardworks paid off! =D

i had a chat with shulan also.. =D we finally get our understanding le.. another friend add to my list! =D i'll be here for u! just like u'll be here for me =D

alright eating dinner soon le.. c ya soon! =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

^_^ finally~

2008-03-24T11:24:00.003+08:00

HEY GUYS~ =D

finally! i know de true meaning of the song that i put in my blog.. lols.. during my bday that period i was emo-ing.. in de end i skipped de bday celebration that my friends have planned for me.. they bought a gift.. a really special 1 T_T n i didnt go.. i wasted de cake.. i wasted their xin yi.. but then in de end when i recovered form my emo n went to say sorry.. they are all there.. waiting to share their love.. they forgave me.. T_T i was so touched.. its true~ nothing is better than having friends who care.. a really big realisation hit me.. they are de bunch of friends that will never leave me =D

i always thought i was alone.. didnt expect anyone to celebrate my bday for me nor did i know a big present is waiting for me.. that really stunned me when i heard that.. i cried.. lols =x haha silly me right.. now i really know le.. so will cherish my friends better~ =D i think if i didnt go through this stage i may never know that some friends are so real.. THANKS TONS! *hug all~* xD

so here.. i wanted to thank every of my friend! =D THANK YOU~! especially xiuxiu lao po & esther lao gong.. i'm really sorry.. i really don know how to react to de problems appearing in my life at that period.. i was in a "low" condition.. forgive me ya.. xiuxiu once said that rest a while.. shou shi hao le xin qing zai chu fa.. =D i will de~ JIAYOU! i'm so sorry esther.. i really didnt know there is such a surprised.. n i should have come that day.. i'm sorry.. besides sorry i don know wat i should say.. but i will use my actions to say sorry.. =D

I LOVE YOU LAO PO & LAO GONG~ <3 =D

later having my grade 4 piano exam T_T i'm scared.. but i think i will pass =D with flying colours.. LOL =x hehe~ wish me luck ya~ besides i change de mmv links already.. pls check out in de left colume~ =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

yohu!

2008-03-03T21:00:00.002+08:00

YO HU! =D

hello everyone~ hmmm~ havent been updating ne.. recently all is well~ having more interest in my work! =D scanning is easy! now i can scan up to 500+ pages each day~ sometimes will scan up to 600+, 700+ wor! =D n to me.. each page is "nice & clean!" so when they go into system to see its not those blurr blurr de.. haha! xD

anyway this few days feel like watching horror or ghost movie.. =.=! but but.. most of my friends don really wan to watch.. haha~ its ok! =D but hor.. i don know why i have this "craving".. f3! i wan watch de yi jie! anyone wan watch with me?! =D contact me wor!

recently i got alot of bday or horoscope de reading.. haha! so i post a few here ba! =D take a look wor! tell me how true it is ne! =D

LOOK UP YOUR BIRTHDAY AND SEE WHAT YOU ARE..

January 01 - 09 ~ Ass
January 10 - 24 ~ Slug
January 25 - 31 ~ Cockroach
February 01 - 05 ~ Parasite
February 06 - 14 ~ Bullfrog
February 15 - 21 ~ Skunk
February 22 - 28 ~ Snake
March 01 - 12 ~ Ape
March 13 - 15 ~ Cockroach
March 16 - 23 ~ Slug
March 24 - 31 ~ Parasite
April 01 - 03 ~ Ass
April 04 - 14 ~ Snake
April 15 - 26 ~ Slug
April 27 - 30 ~ Skunk
May 01 - 13 ~ Slug
May 14 - 21 ~ Bullfrog
May 22 - 31 ~ Cockroach
June 01 - 03 ~ Slug
June 04 - 14 ~ Skunk
June 15 - 20 ~ Ass
June 21 - 24 ~ Ape
June 25 - 30 ~ Parasite
July 01 - 09 ~ Slug
July 10 - 15 ~ Ass
July 16 - 26 ~ Bullfrog
July 27 - 31 ~ Parasite
August 01 - 15 ~ Ape
August 16 - 25 ~ Slug
August 26 - 31 ~ Skunk
September 01 - 14 ~ Bullfrog
September 15 - 27 ~ Parasite
September 28 - 30 ~ Ass
October 01 - 15 ~ Ape
October 16 - 27 ~ Skunk
October 28 - 31 ~ Snake
November 01 - 16 ~ Cockroach
November 17 - 30 ~ Parasite
December 01 - 16 ~ Ass
December 17 - 25 ~ Ape
December 26 - 31 ~ Bullfrog

Ass : A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified.

Slug: Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-together's. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

Cockroach : Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. You love being loved, and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs!!!! Well, well... hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.....

Parasite : An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

Skunk : You are near to perfect and nice at heart. The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

Bullfrog : You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love....

Snake : You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

Ape : Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!!

i think 1 is long enough.. haha! i'll post de rest in de next post ba~ btw i am a slug! *crys!* cos it sounds weird! @@

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

yo yo!

2008-02-18T21:46:00.002+08:00

YO YO Eveeryone! =D

so how's ur valentine? =D i received quite a few presents from my "gfs" wor~ haha! its ok na.. working.. oh well~ speaking of working.. its really hard! my eyes are getting blurr ne =.= @@ i wish i could take a break nor! lao po~ u post de website on ur blog i do go le.. its true wor.. n it suggested me to take a break.. so i think i should! haha~ =D but.. well.. there are things or ppl that prevent me to.. i now feel that earn $ is really hard! T_T but its worth it! especially when u know that it will help u in time of need n it can satisfy ur daily needs.. haha~ without $ is wan wan bu neng.. but with $ also doesnt mean that wan shi jiu neng.. so i still believe that $ earn dao enough jiu gou le.. but for me! now i wan to save~ so next time i can go pei bao u xin! =DD

anyway~ sat's outing with teddy, boss n my jiemei fiona is cancelled! T_T so sad nor.. fiona had to meet somebody that she havent met for a long time.. i guess wat goes round will come back.. cos that day i also wan to meet someone that is missing for a long time that i pang seh-ed cmcc ppl.. sorry guys! T_T butbut~ its still worth it! =D our friendship stays in de heart! =DD YEAH~

haha! anyway.. recently i've been listening back to de old songs.. so nice! =D songs like High Sch Muscial de When There Was Me & You.. disney de songs.. n alot more! memories kept coming back wor.. n when i listen to When There Was Me & You, i suddenly rmbed a phrase from my lao po.. de same song reminds me of me & you.. haha~ really! songs can brought back memories & create new ones! =DD btw dada~ i wrote some of de lyrics le! =D must help me pei song wor! xD

nowadays ar.. i'm abit weird ne.. zhen tian hu si luan xiang.. my work hor.. abit slow.. but still ok la.. just that my eyes are going blurr @@ i think i would take a few days off soon.. anyway yanling & jaz! if u happen to pass.. i took my half day leave le~ i'll msg u all again.. soon! =x

alot of things are going through in my mind right now.. i think i would go crazy soon! lols! but~ i think i can handle it~ haha! =D n i fainlly packed my table! =D *sitting confortably there wor now~* although my room is still messy.. but should be able to get everything fixed by de end of this holiday! =DD *looking forward to it!*

n hor~ i'll update my de links n all soon~.. *lazy now* =x anyway i go orh orh le! night~ =D

Loves,
-pEiyaN-

f3 f3

2008-02-14T23:23:00.002+08:00

F3!!! U All All Cant Wait? =x

u all hor.. so impatiention! =x haha~ wait na.. got time sure update! =D plus especially ossocaions of cos will post a few na.. so wat is everyone up to recently? =D haha~ oh and HAPPY VALENTINE TO ALL! =D

although today is valentine but like.. no rest wor.. go out everywhere u can see roses.. i bet today is de day that SG have LOTS n LOTS of roses! different colours somemore.. got big de small de.. all sorts of different 1~ see le hen happy wor! but.. also abit sad na.. cos.. all got valentine ma.. then singles cannot receive flowers.. haha~ but nvm! it will not bring me down! =D it is still a happy day for me! no valentine but you qing chang zai! =D in office 4 of us gals exchange gifts wor.. plus alot of other staff also make something for each other.. its hen wen xin de! =D who say no valentine jiu must be sad sad de.. haha~ =DD then i receive 2 bouque of flowers wor.. 1 fake de 1 real de.. although its from de same person.. but she really hen li hai leh! i was only saying that hao xiang you ren song wo rose then she go buy le.. 2 times dou xia dao wo =.= n she was at there whole day laughing at me! T_T *angry plus shy face* haha~ jkjk! but nvm la.. can create laughter also very nice le.. see see! no valentine also very wen xin de wor! =D plus just passed presents to xiu xiu & esther.. yvonne.. celest.. yan ling & jaz also have wor! but u all will receive on de 29.. sorry ne.. anyway HAPPY VALENTINE TO ALL! =DD

scanning is bad.. =.= work is tired.. my eyes really need a rest le.. everything is.. so hard nor.. some boss see le not happy keep on re-scan.. like those ji dan li tiao gu tou.. but aiya~.. suan le.. f3~ as long as i give them my best shot jiu hao! =D but de bad thing is.. when i have de mood to scan.. de scanner keep on crash.. lols! hang 2 time nor.. then jam paper.. =.= no mood scan le la.. de other day is jam le 4 times de paper.. @@ then hor then hor.. today is.. PBDIS cannot login.. then cannot send batch over.. so also stuck there for like 30+mins.. so waste of my time.. lols! but not scanner de fault la.. de last owner didnt take good care of it ba.. or is it because that de scanner don like me.. lols! =x but i love u ok scanner! =D

anyway~ at home is still de same.. ppl nag here n there.. but oh well! keep my cool man! i know my limits la.. n hor.. i will start saving $ le.. NO MORE SPEDING! =D *put fist to my heart to make promise!* =D i will save save save! =D my piano is also improving le wor! =D n i wan to practice! f3~ *finding time!* haha~ anyway will stop by again soon! thanks those that keeps on coming back to read! =D

Loves,
-pEiyaN-

dear bloggie...

2008-02-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

my dear dear bloggie.. i think after sometime this blog only left u and me ba.. haha~ but contented with this happiness! =D everyday i see in my family nan mian shao bu liao quarrel.. so tiring.. mum and dad quarrel quarrel quarrel.. hiyo~ friends this n that too.. hen lei neh.. but nvm la~ cos there is always de little little happiness that will keep me going~! =D

work is good ba.. all day long i do scanning.. keep scanning files into de system.. my eyes are tired nor.. =.=~ sometimes hen tiring.. too dark u must rescan.. cut 1 word off rescan.. too light also need to rescan.. but sometimes.. got signature & words.. u need to make not too dark nor too light.. hen ma fan.. then 1 doc can divide into many class.. need to change de doc de cif no n also change class.. got a4 n a3.. alot of things to rmb.. morning you need to do other things.. to many things to rmb na~ but then its a challenge too la~ haha.. got 1 time i scan until 600 plus.. lols then de next day 400.. 200.. =x drop le.. but then my new record is 741~ haha! =D but my neck hen suan na =.= i wan massage~ =x haha~ my new target is 850! =D see if tml i can make it ma! =D *suddenly got strength le* haha! =D

recently got quite a few intersting drama also ne.. like gong zhu xiao mei.. and chnl u 10 to 11 de show.. i forgot de name le.. also not bad~ got alot of other shows i wan to watch too! but but.. a bit busy na these few weeks.. =x i making pineapple with beads.. plus shopping for new year clothes.. i perm my hair too.. look weird.. but.. i thnk i'll get use to it! haha~ =D i kinda miss my straight hair.. but then if i get back my straight hair i will miss me permed hair.. lols! deilmma =x

anyway~ i go orh orh le ba~ =D night! bloggie i'll come back de wor =D

Loves,
-pEiyaN-

hiya~ =D

2008-01-19T18:16:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL~ =D

hihi~ just dropping by to update ne.. finally holiday le! xD from 18 jan to april wor! xD but then i'll be working na.. =.=~ back to my old office! but doing different work~ haha~ 3 times holiday all same office but doing different things~ i think it really boarden my sight.. when u grow up there is alot of things that u cant do.. but then on de other hand there is also alot of new things there.. lols! i think i still prefer my childhood days.. how i wish i wont grow up!

anyway~ my exams finally finish liao.. waiting for grades now.. watever de case.. i am already prepared! =D even if it means that i have to repeat some modules or watever.. this is de dream i wan to fight for! =D i hope grades can come faster.. sch will reopen faster.. =.=! so sian nor~ have to work.. i ask mum can don work ma.. she said CANNOT! =.=! its like i have no holiday de lor.. sch just end then monday need to start work.. like a machine.. =.=! other ppl can enjoy.. i can only enjoy during work na.. even if i wan take a day off also cannot tell her de.. don wan later she nag me.. alright alright! actually working also not bad la.. haha~ must stop b4 more of de complaint come out of my mouth! =X

anyway~ i got an early birthday present.. LOL! a PSP slim~ =D YANLING~ u must fast fast buy ur psp wor~ then next time we can play tgt~ =D

and lastly~ Dear HaRu ar.. don be sad le ok.. this perious chance will come back to you de~ =D de more u cherish it.. de more it is worth it when it came back.. ^_^ Stay HAPPY OK! =D

and to everyone else! must stay =) wor! =DD

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

i'm a joker man...

2008-01-10T14:39:00.000+08:00

I'm A JOKER man...

really.. zzz~ joker is me me is joker! T_T my remt assignment didnt really help out.. but at de sametime i got do alittle here n there.. but its not enough! T_T u know after reading that book.. it really makes me realise somethings.. it stated that we get satisfaction from completing de work we do.. but all i do was sitting there.. slacking.. hoping this will natural come to me.. awww man! i'm WRONG! totally wrong! i just sit there n hope & pray that things will come naturally to me.. its not like that.. i havent been trying! no wonder i am always sad.. its because i havent been doing any work! i must get my butt moving! roar ! now i finally know liao.. things will improve.. its hard but i'm not going to give up! wan shi qi tou nan.. ya! thats de spirit ok! look at me from now on! things will improve! =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

morning! =D

2008-01-08T08:26:00.000+08:00

MORNING! =D

such a wonderful morning today~ =D although it looks abit misty from my window here.. there is none of de usual sunny brightness there.. but then! its still a wonderful morning~ =D eveything look peaceful & clam~ de chiping of de moring birds sound wonderful! =D haha~ like i writing poem or story.. anyawy~ GOOD MORNING everyone! =)

later in de afternoon i'm having a test.. it should be ok~ i've been studying & understanding de concepts~ my mum taught me how to do a exercise in de morning.. it will help with my memory~ after doing it my mind is clear! =D thanks mum! i think i'm ready for de test! =) *flip through de book again~* just to be sure! =P

anyway~ do check out de links at de side of my bloggie~ n i'll be updating photos in my friendster soon~ do check it out! c ya soon all~~

With LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

yohuuuu~~~~

2008-01-07T18:45:00.000+08:00

YEAH YEAH~

muhahaha! i'm feeling high~~~ xD LOL~ i think thats because i've been experiencing life in a new way ba.. a more HAPPY way! =D

1 main reason that cause me to be this way is a book.. this book enlighten me alot alot! n it help me to work out the happiness for my life.. the other reason is because of my piano! =D i now can play piano le~ my teacher gave me a piece of melody & i can work out de chords easily le~ =DD yeah! HURAY~~ haha! i feel great satisfaction from completeing my work~! and went i reach home i played for my mum~ she was singing along with it! O.O OMG! haha~ i'm so happy! i'm beginning to love her in a whole new way! =D add this is added up to de fact that i read that book nor~ so its a must for everyone! =D the title of the book is Girl Seeks Bliss - Zen and the Art of Modern Life Maintenance.. its written by a female author.. so most of de perception in it is in a girls persepective.. but never de less! its useful~! =D although de book is based on Buddhism, but really it totally make sense! so do check it out yeah! this book is not boring at all nor is it full of Buddhim things.. it covers a wide range from how to decorate ur home to dating.. its a MUST read for all! =D check it out~!

as for my sch work.. yeah its improved! =D first is my piano.. then my acoustic science subject~ my views on my studies has changed & its really all working out now for me! =D same for de attitude that i use to face my mum.. i'm really begin to see de light & really treat her a WHOLE lot better! =Dso tml's test should be a no problem for me! xD i'm getting everything back on track~~ although its a small step.. first my piano then my attitude towards mum and studies.. but its improving! i feel happy~! =) & most importantly i can make this happiness last! so do check out that book! =D

keep tune here~ more updating coming! =D

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

HEY HEY HEY! yo~

2008-01-06T22:09:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY HEY~ YO!

Good day / afternoon / night~ (depending on wat time of de day u're read this~ =P)! HOW"S EVERYONE?! yeah yeah~ i'm finally back!! *excited! jumping up & down~* =D well, changed by blogskin... a new beginning for this year~ new wishes! new goals~ =D watever is it, JIAYOU ok EVERYONE! <3

a few things to mention here though~ i've changed my blog address~ its now http://sprinkle-of-fairydust.blogspot.com yeah i know its long~ (cant help it! =X) wish that this 2008 year will be filled of new discoveries for everyone! those who is studying have good grades~ working have bigbig $! n those enjoying life~ well ENJOY! to de fullest~! =D

as for my maple char~ FINALLY! lvl 70! pzt~ xDD finally really! after sooooooooo LONG~ @@ yeah yeah! holidays are coming soon~ so i have time to chiong maple again~ but really.. time fly~! while i jsut reach 70 everyone is already going for 4th job at 120 @@ i've slow! *knock my head!* but never de less~ i'm still happy! =D

studies are as usual.. didnt put much effort there.. =.=~ i think i going to fail my module le.. but then watever is de trouble or difficult that i'm going to face next year i'll face it brave! its my fault in de 1st place.. n i've miss my chance of getting good grades.. so NOW i'll cherish! there was once that 1 read from a book (its sort of a buddish book).. there is this 1 sentence.. nothing is real.. except de present.. wats past is already past.. we wont know wats de future.. but all we can tell is de present! so yeah! i've finally settle down to study! =D i'm proud of myself yeah~ cos i actually sit down there to study acoustic science.. lols! although its only a few chapters but yeah.. its a good start! for de year of 2008~ i believe that there are many obstacles.. for everyone! not just me~ so let us face it bravely! ^_^

well~ i'm going to sleep now.. more updates soon! be sure to drop by & tag! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! <333

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

OK BACK!

2007-09-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

OK I'M BACK! xD

yes finally! i'm back~ with more stuff now.. there's really 1 period of time that i didnt want to post anything here.. just tired of all de work.. plus those words that i put here.. wat if it hurts ppl n all?

but finally! i found my way back here again.. it really describe my feeling here.. i know there is still ppl reading this blog.. so hor.. i will post again! xD haha~ just hope that those who still waits here in vain wont be disappointed.. ^_^

anyway~ *HUGGIES! all~*

LoVes,
-pEiyaN-

YEAH YEAH!

2007-07-29T14:40:00.000+08:00

YEAH YEAH!
finally changed the blogskin.. de desgin n all that will have to be modefly still.. but i'm lazy.. =.= i'll get it done AS SOON AS possible.. (ya i don know when.. lols!) anyway! stay tune! xD

HELLO! ^___^

2007-07-11T20:13:00.000+08:00

HELLO! ^__^
DA JIA HAO! xD so long didnt post here le.. hahas~ so now.. just a msg for everyone who is still reading this blog.. THANK YOU FOR UR SUPPORT! =D
well.. my blog is "so-call" under construction again.. i decided to make a blog skin.. not really make.. just erm.. "improve" on the current one.. xD more features will be added.. and.. aiya~ just more personalise la.. hahas~ but recently was busy with sch work.. other than that jiu shi rest.. =.= *phew* the pace is too quick.. so when free jiu seat down rest.. play pc games (like sims 2) and just rest nor.. MIA from msn also.. don really wan to login to chat.. feeling.. brain dead.. lols! jiu shi wan to rest la.. let my brain dead a while.. creating music can make ur brain go crazy! @_@
ya lor~ so HOPEFULLY! my skin will come out soon! xD must check back wor~ if u wan la.. cos i also don know when i will use the new skin.. @_@ plus my postings can be VERY little sometime.. so.. SORRY! T_T
see u all soon~ xD

I JUST WANNA SAY..

2007-06-23T20:33:00.000+08:00

I JUST WANNA SAY..

i just wanna say a few things.. n also note a few things to myself.. i suddenly see de light within this misunderstandings.. also these problems.. these "black cloud" days are FINALLY going to be OVER! YEAH~ ^^

i don know how.. i just suddenly see de light in this darkness.. its always been a thing that i know.. lols~ funny right.. n plus.. after reading some ppl's blogs, i just find somethings are very true.. even for different ppl.. hahas~ i think each of us have to really experience urself.. then u'll know wats precious & wats just rubbish.. lols!

well.. i think i did really have a few things that r REALLY screwed up.. but thats also de lesson that learn from it that make me more mature ba.. i usED to take ppl's saying very seriously.. not because like i cant ignore it.. because i wan to change.. if i really had this bad habit.. i wan to change it.. then today.. i suddenly realise.. sometimes.. its JUST NOT MY FAULT! its just something that i couldnt control.. n because its something that i COULDNT control.. i shouldnt care much more it.. like de misunderstandings btw me n me been close to boys.. i mean.. its just close.. nothing else! see my mind pls.. nothing else is going on~~ @_@ but rumors keep on flying.. make me guilty.. feel sorry.. wanna do something to stop it.. n thats distant with de boy.. but is it a wise choice? sometimes i think we didnt see de other way round.. sometimes i hurt de guy instead.. truth can be blind.. so u have to use UR HEART to find out.. anyway.. one such case happen.. a gal misunderstood me & her guy.. when actually nothing is happening.. then she "scolded" (i think so..), say some nasty things to him.. but after that.. its actually just a misunderstanding.. then after that she felt really sorry about it.. she apologised to de guy n me.. at first i was shocked.. cos i felt guilty too.. i think its partly my fault.. but then she said that don need to say sorry.. cos its because she didnt trust de guy enough.. she believed in something that IS NOT TRUE.. she believed in rumors.. while de fact that de guy is loving her so deep is RIGHT B4 HER EYES.. love can be blind.. but then u gotto trust each other.. just as jaz had said.. trust is VERY important in love.. i suddenly.. wake up~ lols.. ya right.. its like.. none of my business! just because u believe in de rumors but doesnt mean its true! de guy love u.. not me.. n i will NEVER snatch a guy away from a friend OR another gal.. so pls.. see de other side of things.. trust in ur partner!

i also read of my best sisters blog.. i think parents are all de same.. hahas.. although she had been really compare to another of her neighbour.. while my mum didnt do that.. but my mum nags.. lols~ no matter wat she also nag.. so i guess its just one thing or another.. but still its for our own good.. but then.. i still think that some decisions u have to make it urself.. how long can they "advise" u? life is so short.. although they gave birth to u.. they see u grow up.. they lived longer than u have.. but its UR life.. u're going to walk it.. either alone or with partners.. so no matter wat u do.. just odn regret.. make everything de best! wish u all de best~ ^^ n rmb always.. once u have made this descision.. stand by it.. no matter how tough it is.. cos its ur own things.. not other ppl.. but urs.. ^__^

alright! i just finish wat i wanted to say! YAHOO~ lols~ too high today.. hahas~ *relaxed (at last!)* n my grandma is nagging again.. =.= say i like must sleep at 11 le.. zzz~ i also wan to sleep early ok.. just that somethings r not finished i feel weird.. zzz~ its always de same! naggings.. =.= *wu yan*

anyway.. lastly.. i just wanna say.. i'm NOT scared of these rumors anymore.. cos i stood clear.. i didnt so anything wrong.. i'm just gulity for hurting ppl.. so if u wanna spread rumors about me.. then.. go ahead.. i'm not going to stood back n let u shoot.. i wanna stood tall & look down at u.. cos my liang xin is clear.. n spreading rumors just creats misunderstandings.. n misunderstandings just hurts ppl's trust.. if u really trust somebody.. then just do it with no questions..

ok~! time to sleep! xD i'm sleepy le.. no matter u believe me or not.. thats all i wan to express of myself today.. hahas~ i'm speaking de truth about me.. but believing or not ups to u.. just hope that u'll have fun at my blog! xD n my feeling now is about memeories.. so i think my blogskin is going to change le! xD just like this song.. i really hope that i can have my old life back (meaning when i was small).. hahas~ but i know its not possible.. but then.. no matter how life is going to be for me.. i'll stood straight.. stood by de truth that i believe in.. ^^

i wanna learn to be strong! so that i can smile again.. =D

I'M SPEECHLESS..

2007-06-22T10:55:00.000+08:00

I'M SPEECHLESS..

i'm really speechless.. things keep on happen one after another.. misunderstandings n misunderstandings.. i just wanna disappear..

things keep on happen.. dear god! give me a break! i'm human ok! pls let me breath b4 de next one comes! >.<

today a misunderstanding happened.. n i think.. i think i have lost 2 friends.. i shall not mention their name.. it make me angry.. how can they.. zzz~ nvm.. i just wanna cool down now.. this is something that i wont forget.. n i almost lost a 3rd friend today.. things r just NOT turning my way!

my dad was officially in jail today.. for 2 months.. 2 months without him! T_T i'm gonna miss him.. but be strong ok! ^^ cos i promised him that i will be.. no audi.. study.. lols~ n have good results for my piano by march.. i think its time that i do something for my studies & for my parents.. DON WORRY OK DAD~ ^^

finally i today cleared up my desk! xD FINALLY in a LONG long time~ lols.. much more clean & more space le.. everything back to their original place~ =D so finally i can get some work done! xD study study! (i don know why i don like to study or do things when my table full.. lols~ i think its because i'm lazy ba.. cos last time even table lazy i also do de.. now its like table untidy = slack.. LOL) but still there's some parts i havent finish clearing.. @_@

anyway~ just came across this song never had a dream come true.. i think it quite suits my theme here.. lols~ n long time never hear this song le! so now put it here for a while.. i'll be back with more interesting stuff for my blog~~!! =D cos although its like a lonely blog but its not! (if u see it de other way.. like i DO! ^__^)

thats all for now.. somethings i can never forget.. because its de memories that makes u u.. if u arent rmb.. then u never exist.. lols~ i wan to rmb~ even painful memories.. (u may think i'm silly.. but then.. i rather i have something bad to tell my grandchildren then something that always sounds good.. lols~ i'm CRAZY! X_X)

troubles come n go~ i'll learn to be strong! cos i wan to smile again~! =)

SORRY GUY! >.<

2007-06-21T23:06:00.001+08:00

SORRY GUYS! >.<

erm erm~ i'm changing my blog.. lols! now still havent complete yet.. more stuff will be added! so pls check back for more! xD

oh n~ sorry to those viewing my blog tonight.. its ABIT messy.. >.<

pls bring me out of this world.. because i wan to smile.. as freely as i can..

I NEED A RESPOND.. ^^

2007-06-21T19:49:00.001+08:00

I NEED A RESPOND FROM U GUYS~ ^^ THANKS!

i just wan to find out if de previous post is alright to ur eyes.. u can read it more comfortly & easily as de previous ones.. thanks!

pls bring me out of this world.. because i wan to smile.. as freely as i can be..

SPIN SPIN SPIN.. @_@

2007-06-21T19:34:00.000+08:00

SPIN SPIN SPIN.. @_@

my head is in a total.. confuse state.. i just wan this thing to be over with.. i think i wont talk to him anymore lor.. i really feel CHEATED!

jaz reminded me that he HAD a child.. i totally FORGOT about it.. how can i? baka me.. then i suddenly realise too that one of my friends also tio him bully.. although not as bad as me.. but then i think its unworthy.. its like i still think good for him.. but all he gave was a sorry through sms.. i'm REALLY a BAKA for believing in him in de first place! *PENGZ*

but still.. it is a great impact on me.. ham u really put de fact right in my face.. lols! (don worry.. i'm alright about it..) u say that i'm LUCKY that i never got raped.. i know i could have been.. but then i'm REALLY REALLY glad that things didnt go THAT way.. but still.. cos of this sentence it made me think.. do i really have that strength to fight him if i were in that situation.. why am i so stupid.. stupid enough to believe in him.. to trust in him.. *BANG WALL*

i really had a sleepless night yet.. keep on waking up in shock.. imagine if i wre really... by him.. zzzz~ i really just wanted to rest.. get it over with.. i just wan to STOP thinking about it..

by de way.. i have space in between.. so hope that everyone can read better.. cos i know sometimes its too wordy.. sorry.. n i'll update more pictures.. thats all~

pls bring me out of this world.. because i wan to smile.. as freely as i can be..

SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE..

2007-06-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

SORRY FOR DE LATE UPDATE..

something happened yst.. it will leave a clear mark in my heart & memory.. n i'm struggling with my thoughts.. i don know should i post this up ma.. not of de fact that many ppl will scold me baka or u deserve this.. just that i don know wat his reaction will be when he read this.. cos i feel that he himself is also feeling miserable ba.. plus i don wan everyone running after him & ask him why he do that.. lols.. i'm CRAZY!

because of this thing it actually sends a scared feeling through me.. even up till now.. although its not a very big thing.. but then wo zhen de bei xia dao le.. i'm abit lost.. depression.. feel like crying.. but yet another part of me is telling me to be strong.. i'm in a dilemma..

but i still think that i should paste this up & act as a warning to every ladies out there.. pls don end up like me.. i finally know wat is it feel like to be in that kind of condition.. n besides.. its not someone that u don know.. its someone that u trust..

so my last msg here will be.. PLS TAKE CARE OF URSELF..

i really wan to see de stars again with u..

pls bring me out of this world.. because i wan to smile.. as freely as i can be..

I'M SCARED! >.<

2007-06-19T22:07:00.000+08:00

I'M SCARED! REALLY SCARED.. >.<

today was suppose to be a happy day for me de.. had my piano lesson in de noon.. i can play my songs & even learned parts of my grade 4 theory & practical exam.. but suddenly like a breeze washed away de happiness.. leaving behind de sadness..

this afternoon my maple cannot patch.. *ahh~~~~~* soul teddy, jason even daii de all can patch! only mine.. keep on not responding! zzz~ then when i check with them all say can! *FAINT!* make me feel miserable.. *me floating pass* i go maplesea website also never see de new version of manual patch.. *faintED* lols.. try de auto patch 4 times.. check website 3 times.. *GIVE UP!* zzz~

then going out to do my project that time was so moody.. lols~ not moody la.. just thinking about alot of things.. =.= i also don know wat i thinking about.. just that i suddenly like have alot of things on my mind.. then on de way also sms alot of ppl.. maybe thats why ba.. cos everyone talking about different topic ar.. then whole way got chat with daii~ then we crack alot of jokes.. FUN! xD

after that meet xanthus & zakk at newton.. i'm late! *BANG WALL!* so sorry! then we went to discuss about our community service project.. its hard! *ahh~* we cant get an organisation! we try calling many times.. CCF only picked up 2 times.. despite our so many calls.. =.=!! then de salvation army NONE! plus a hospital also.. all voice mail.. zzz~! then we must finish everything by august lor.. times i running OUT! so we try calling them again when we 3 gather.. they actually picked up! xD but this is de 2nd time they pick up our call lor.. =.=~ then we confirm with them see if we can go down straight ma.. then we got from them another e-mail & they say just send de proposal over then its alright.. ok~ waiting time agian.. =.=! *sian~*

we wan to send de proposal on de spot.. so we went to starbuck.. i actually wanted to drink hot chocolate.. but then.. 6.40 for 1 SMALL CUP! zzz~! its expensive! n recently i'm trying to save $.. so i don need ask so much from my mum.. (not that she mind.. i just don like asking for money..) so for me its like save & spend.. lols~ u wan something.. u save it urself~ =) so i gave up on my hot chocolate~ (i can drink it anytime ma..) hehe! ^^ then we used the wireless net there n sent our de proposal! yeah finally! xD but in de meanwhile we'll still try to get everything sort out.. we have to look for other organisations.. IF ANYONE GOT SUGGESTION! PLS PLS PLS TELL ME! >.<

after that it was still quite early.. n js (from maple) ask me if wan to meet ma.. then i feel abit bu hao yi si la.. cos i rejected him quite a few times.. then plus i'm feeling hungry at that time.. so maybe he come out then we eat also not bad.. but end up i went to his house.. base on my thinking that i trust him! n that daii is actually waiting for me in maple.. n my patch don work! so save all de trouble of fixing my maple.. then he was late when he come pase raise fetch me.. then i joke with him that he own we another meal..

but de scary thing happen here.. n i really feel like crying.. those who r reading this post.. pls don find him after this n i know i should be scolded.. but to me its also UNexpected! i had a total shock.. *ahhh~~* BAKA ME! >.<

in his house.. he got try to get closer to me.. then i avoided him.. he got try to catch my hand.. we joke round.. its still quite ok.. but then went home that time he die die also wan to send me home.. then he say all de sweet stuff.. of cos i didnt believe in him.. but then he tried to hold my hand.. i got scared! i didnt let him hold.. but i felt that wo hao xiang pei pian le.. cos i trusted him.. but he did something that made me scared.. although u can say its just a small thing.. but then.. we 2 werent even dating! plus de fact that he KNOW that i didnt like him in THAT way.. *ahh~* then hor he msg me a sorry.. n then asked that is it possible btw us.. no.. its not.. sorry..

wo zhen de bei xia dao le.. ya u'll say its ur fault for going ma.. but have u think b4.. its not that i LIKE going.. its because i trusted him.. thats why i went.. i know its my fault.. i should have been more careful.. but its really something that i dont expect.. cos he KNOWS that i DON LIKE HIM.. he KNOWS! T_T arh.. i'm really shocked myself..

when i was small.. i always use to go to my friend de house.. but this is de first time something like this happen.. i think its a lesson to all of us.. pls ladies.. take care! DON BE LIKE ME! although nothing happen (except holding hands & HIM trying to get closer) but other things might happen next time! so PLS PLS PLS LADIES! TAKE CARE OK! >.<

i think i'll have nightmare le.. but its my fault.. & I PROMISE TO EVERYONE READING THIS.. THERE WONT BE A NEXT TIME LE! NO NO NO NEXT TIME LE.. I REALLY.. LEARN MY LESSON LE.. T__T *gou gou shou plus chop stamp*

i hope rainbows are all over.. cos i really wan to smile..

i wanna see de stars again with u.. i really do..

STEAMBOAT STEAMBOAT! xD

2007-06-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

STEAMBOAT~ STEAMBOAT! xD
tonight, our holiday family had steamboat dinner at Marina South to celebrate Father's Day~ xD it was nice! ^_^ n i eat & eat~ lols! become piggy liao~ >.<
from the time i woke up this morning i already cant wait for de steamboat dinner le! xD cos finally my mum accepted my suggestion of NO air-com steamboat dinner~ hehe! xD i long ago wanted to bring them there eat le.. cheap also.. ($12 per person) plus u can eat until u full! ^__^ & also there are 2 steamboat base, one is tom yam & chicken soup.. lols~ both nice! xD tom yam not spicy de.. nor sour.. erm.. just have de taste la.. lols!
i know i have to wait for tonight.. cos my mum still need to work in de afternoon.. so i woke up at 10! *sobs* 10 leh~ late late late! lols~ my mum was still at home then.. so i slacked my way through de morning.. =X i login msn on my labbie to wait for haru.. cos i promised him that i will play my piano for him de.. then after that i just slack.. lols~ slowly eat breakfast.. then watch tv.. xD slack until she went out for work! =X baddie me! *hit hit hit myself* i think i slacked too much le.. even skipped my 2 hr piano today.. T_T lols~ then when she wetn out login audi.. first thing.. PLAY NPC! xD but npc sotted.. =.=~ chain like them never chain b4.. all lose.. star poor thing lor.. den from like 14k lose until 985.. -__- li hai hor! then me, soul teddy & star think suan liao.. we go creat normal rm & play.. then 2 they suan wo.. so i said find i shutup.. lols! from then i didnt talk.. =X they thought i angry.. lols~ xD but never la.. just lazy type.. =.= *concentrate on game~* =P then at that time i especially go buy a =X face expression.. de one with de mouth X de.. lols~ then they 2 was like.. wei wei~ hehe~! xD but don worry la.. i'm not angry~ =)

after a while i decided to play npc again.. lols! cos i wanna buy a boots.. then plus KK also wan buy someting.. 150k de top ar? i forget de sum le.. lols! so we go play npc again! xD got win.. just enough for me to buy de boots.. hehe~ =D new clothes! ^_^ so today spent.. 50k plus 80k on de boots? =.=~ zzz! expensive neh~ but nvm la.. happy jiu hao.. lols! ^_^ so u can see me now broke.. tml NPC! earn dens dens~ xD but almost all can earn dens de npc all give me drain le.. poor npcs.. *sayang~*

then afternoon my parents came back.. then they went to sleep a while.. n then off we go to steamboat! =D we then b4 we go there we got ALOT of difficulty.. f3~ cos marina bay that side i only know how to go by mrt & bus.. they wan to drive there.. then i not even sure if that side got parking lot ma.. =.=~ but then mum say don wan walk.. =.=! i mean de walking is like.. SO LITTLE! zzz~ nvm.. don wan argue with her.. then i called Alex.. help me search de directry.. then we go find wat bus & wat road.. then call here n there.. lols~ ALOT OF WORK! *ahh~* then finally we know le.. so off we go~! xD so hor ppl~ if i wan to go marina south there eat steamboat.. take mrt to marina bay.. then walk out of de mrt station & at de bus stop take 400~! xD just follow de crowd or ask de bus driver.. he'll know where to get down.. plus its pretty obvious.. cos once u come down u can see ALOT ALOT! of steamboat shops there le.. then walk <--- when u get down.. go to one call Zhong Bang.. that side de steamboat nicer~ xD plus there got bowling & arcade.. so u can play b4 or after ur steamboat~ =D

then we went there eat eaT eAt EAT! xD nice food nice food! ^^ my family drank beer.. 1 can 4 share.. lols~ but i don drink.. =.= (so bitter!) f3~ then we got eat crab ar.. black pepper chicken.. (its de MOST delicious out of all de meat there.. lols~ if u eat it then proberly u wont eat other meat le.. lols! xD) then prawns also.. we have chicken soup as our steamboat base.. then got alot of other seafoods.. xD n we eat alot of veggiee~ xD alamak~! i now hungry le la.. f3! *stomach guu guu~* f3 f3~~ we also got take photos after our dinner~ later upload! xD but de funny thing is.. my phone low batt cannot take.. when i try then know.. =.=! BLURR ME~! X_X then mum de digi cam also.. can take one but then de next is.. can on cannot take.. *faint!* lols~ in de end i rmb my mum de phone is de same as mine.. so can take.. hehe~! xD in de end got take a few~ then we also VERY guai.. never waste food.. we take how much eat how much~ he hE HE! =)

reach home around 8 plus le.. we reach there at 5.30.. then eat until 7.30 +.. then reach home 8 plus.. my 2 doggies was like.. *ong ong ong! onnng ong!* talking to us in their dog language.. asking us why SO LONG ten return.. lols~ then my grandpa actually asked me if can bring home de cooked chicken wing for them ma.. -_____- cannot lah! lols~ reach home that time.. go in my room.. see de mess on my table.. @_@ *faint~* havent pack! =X tml is going to be a LONG LONG day for me~~ @_@ must pack my table liao! so messy~ zzz!

rainbows above everything! i will survive! ^^

i wanna see de stars again.. with u..

ITS A RAINY DAY.. ^^

2007-06-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

ITS A RAINY DAY.. ^_^

its just another rainy day.. but i don know why i like rainy days.. it sort of like washed away my unhappiness.. each & every raindrop is so pure n nice.. hahas~ rainy days! ^^

today rained alot.. morning hao xiang got rain.. afternoon sure got.. then now in de night also raining soon le.. but its not even de monsoon period yet! lols~ but still rainy days r good.. ^^ i like de feeling when u hold a umbrella or without an umbrella & walk under those rainy places.. so nice~ i don know how to describe de feeling.. hahas~ cos i long time never do that le.. i wish i can again.. u also go try ba~ xD

nothing out of de blues came today.. its just another normal day! ^^ morning played my piano.. then audi.. but i login audi to afk char.. lols~ =X anyway.. while i was playing de piano i told my grandma i going to esplanade library later in de afternoon.. as usual, she's not very happy about it.. so i asked her why.. then she said that i should go library borrow computer books.. i was like.. O.O wat for? then she told me next time can fix my com on my own.. LOL! "good idea".. seriously.. but then de problem is i can fix it le.. at most re-format.. =X lols~ i told her i can fix it le.. then she say i cannot.. that time my task bar spoilt.. i re-store my computer.. then she say is she fix de.. cos she reminded me to delete away some of de com items so got space.. i was like.. @_@ since when i did that? lols~ then we were "arguing" over who fixed de com.. finally i gave in.. i said thank you for fixing my com.. then my grandma was like.. don be too proud ok! (cos i argue with her ma), if not me ur com still cannot work.. then i was like don know wan to laugh or smile.. =( =) lols~ *trapped* but nvm la.. she win~ (as usual) =X just that i suddenly feel that my family very ke ai~ lols! xD

after that i went to de library.. rain very heavy.. no bus.. but in de end i late by 10 mins.. phew.. thought will be very late ne.. but still.. SORRY GUYS! >.<>

research was done pretty soon.. then i & pei lin also take de book that i reserve.. then de librarian so funny! she say cannot borrow de book.. =.=~ but actually is can de! -___- i was like.. u sure ma? lols~ then she borrow for me.. it can be borrowed.. f3! =.= *faint* i photocopy de notes form books for my research.. from 3 dollar + photocopy until 0.47cent.. =.= crazy right.. zz~ but i also got find some scores la.. so i can play at home.. got de sudden urge to play piano there lor.. lols~ i'm crazy! >.<

after i done my research i went home le.. cos grandparents going out for dinner.. then i never bring my keys.. if i did i can reach home late.. but then don wan la.. let them worry.. then actually thought of asking someone to pei ni go play house of de dead 4 b4 going home.. but timing not very right.. so suan le.. save money also~ xP jiu went home le.. but who knows reach home le grandma say u so early reach home le ar.. =.=~! dots.. b4 i go out she still ask me come home early.. zzz~ zao zhi dao i eat ouside then come back.. -__-

but nvm la.. dinner i go downstair da bao.. my parents reach home at 10.15 nor.. i home alone from 6 until 10.15.. lols~ *scared!* >.<>

dinner was fine~ at least fulfilling.. lols! but also nice to eat la~ ^^ my 2 doggies also wan eat.. f3! but they 2 like abit love sick.. @_@ cos like no mood.. then when i go down da bao they bark.. asking me not to go.. =.=! then when i come back their tails wag until cannot wag.. lols! xD they had chicken wing for dinner neh! more fortunated then me.. lols~ i only had veggie, rice & some meat.. lols~ chicken wing is a treat ma.. f3~

mum recently had moved some of de funitures in my room.. =.=~ *sian dao~* have ti re-pack everything again.. then today is de day for that.. lols! by de way tml also fathers day.. our whole family going to eat steamboat! xD

oh ya! b4 i forget.. tonight audi meet someone weird.. & funny~ lols! cos me, mei, star & soul teddy playing npc ma.. then suddenly got this guy (kakacho) come.. he say pls let me in.. i'm pro.. x6 pref.. lols! then i was thinking.. erm.. x6 so..? lols! but anyway we let him in.. then his.. -__- when he x6 he'll go yes! then aaaa~ ahahhaha~ =.= crazy! then he will like.. talk alot of rubbish jiu dui le.. don borther to rmb.. sorry.. =.= then make star, mei 7 soul teddy hen bu shuang.. lols~ then they jio him one on one 188.. lols! then soul teddy heiong ar! he use number pad 188 still win kakacho.. =.=~ li hai! after that mei win him.. me & star is just.. lols~ star is lag & he don see de point in "fighting" him.. he just shoot him only.. i was.. totally no mood.. *sleepy* @_@ lols~ *head spinning~~* @_@ i just wanna sleep.. but in de end they "owned" him.. well i guess.. for one point its a good thing ba.. =X cos he really! talk alot of rubbish.. zzz~ anyway~ audi tonight is helping star & soul teddy de noob drain all de noob npcs.. lols~ every match won.. then we keep next next next.. lols! but stuck at sally.. -_____- sally is like.. CANNOT WIN DE! zzz~! she keep on chain chain chain! zzz~! *hit audi!* =X

ok la.. i know i fierce.. =.=~ i go sleep le.. night all~! xD

rainbows above everything! i will survive! ^^

i wanna see de stars again.. with u..

SLEEPY DAY STILL.. @_@

2007-06-15T21:53:00.000+08:00

I'M STILL FEELING SLEEPY.. @_@

today.. its just another sleepy day for me.. lols! i first woke at 7 then went back to sleep.. until 9 plus.. =X i can be piggy liao~

nothing much today as usual.. played audi once i woke up FULLY.. lols! then grandma "complaint" when she came back from de market.. arh.. sorry! T_T then around 10 plus i told her that i'll be going to mac to tuition wan xi n meet up with yanling (ps. i still owe u a hug! xD) but she wasnt too happy about it.. she said about me racticing my piano.. n i'm not studying.. i go out = play.. because of wat she said i cancalled it with wan xi.. i actually did ask them to come my house.. but yanling don wan.. nvm.. i know u don like.. sorry.. >.<

then dad suddenly came home when grandma went out to buy something.. then he saw me playing audi.. nvm.. then he told mum n mum called home to scold me.. -__- ok thats it.. no more audi! i think for my family i have given up alot of things le.. i hope someday they'll see it.. instead of keep on asking me to practice or do this do that.. anyway.. they nag i also feel bad.. so nvm.. i practiced de piano..

i know my mood.. practice piano will sometimes make me bored.. no matter wat songs i play.. they cant understand.. de only language is that i made no mistakes in it.. n whether i played it with feel.. i mean although its important.. but i can never share my joy & laughter about music with them.. they only know if i play well or not ma.. like when i say that i finally can play this song le.. my mum will say.. see u can do it de.. or she'll reply by saying hai bu gou hao.. =.=~ although i get use to it le.. but still it sadness me abit.. today while playing de piano i was actually looking through my phone book n see if i can find anyone to share my joy with.. lols! i guess this is de thing i'll always get ba.. so MUST TRY HARDER! =)

then i practiced 2 hr plus of piano.. finally finished my sch piece.. bridge over troubled waters.. xD it turns out quite well ne~ hehe! then practiced beauty & de beast too.. guan huai fang shi also.. ^^ all sounds not that bad la.. hahas~ but still MUST WORK HARDER! xD

today actually suppose to play badminton with jason, karkoon, tracy & karkoon de friends.. but then wan xi de tuition i cancelled it le.. but in de end also no tuition for wan xi.. -__- cos she having faminie camp tml.. plus she also don know wan come my house ma.. arh~! SO SORRY! >.<>

after piano i login audi a while.. FINALLY my char lvl up le.. then i do lis.. first time FAILED! =.=~! but then de 2nd time passed.. LOL! n because i last min chain~ @_@ lucky ne! xD then today also npc alot of times.. LOLS! earn $_$ =D but also alot fail la.. =.=~ but nvm.. cos all in all got earn! xD then de npc let me drain until cannot give den le.. LOLS! =X sorry ne..

at night attend star n mei de wedding~ ^^ they start from 8 until 9.45 then ok.. @_@ they failed quite alot of times.. but audi cheat! star n mei got sync 2 pref.. but audi "eat" it up.. in de end they have to try again.. lols~ AUDI CHEATER! =X

then during de wedding alot of.. "troubles".. mei de -RiP- jiejie keep on stress her.. say wat don pass they go tiao lou.. then some say she mo 1 min left.. aiya~ but alot of us still shhh.. lols! n i cannot take it le.. i "scolded" them.. >.<>.<

mei n star also very stressed lor.. they 2 keep on pref wrong time.. zz~ cannot sync.. they try like 5 times b4 thy offically marry? @_@ ya but still.. CONGRATES! xD happy for u 2!! xin fu xin fu! =D hehe~

but my poor ears.. my mum start nagging from 8 until i finally logoff.. zzz~ lucky ears havent spolit.. =.= jiu ming! T_T but also my fault la.. play too much audi.. zz~ sorry! >.<>

plus hor.. everytime i go in star de wedding i put 5k.. i like lost.. 20k? =.=~ nvm la.. they happy jiu hao! xD

plus i went to buy another face emotion in audi.. =X 50k~ @_@ i sort of like wan to collect all de face in audi.. LOL! i'm gonna broke at this rate.. but nvm! CHIONG NPC~ xD but like that i don need lvl leh.. f3~ nvm nvm! CAN DE! xD finally clubber le leh.. zzz~ *faint* i wait for this lvl for don know how many yrs le.. =X

so now i sleeping le.. night night! xD

rainbows above everything! i will survive! ^^

SLEEPY~ @_@

2007-06-14T22:19:00.000+08:00

I'M SLEEPY~~ @_@

didnt have alot of interesting news to blog about today.. lols~ so just dropping by to "record" todays programme.. lols~

morning wake up around 7 plus.. lai chuang until 8.30.. =X cos today actually need to follow mum out.. going to sch to sign tuition grant with gov.. but first i need to follow them to work.. they got some stuff they need to deliver first.. so i actually went to quite a few places today with my parents.. like hollan village, we pass by orchard road, my sch.. a condou.. lols~ fun~!

then reach sch that time got alot of ppl queue-ing for signning of tution grant.. so we thought it will be quite long b4 its our turn.. but who knows.. its really fast! lols~ plus.. we actually parked de car at a further side.. =.= walk 1 whole round! lols~ then we were saying how stupid it is not to park nearer.. =.=~ diao!

afternoon my piano teacher come my house to teach me piano.. YEAH! i'm contiuning my piano~! xD then teacher say wan let me next year march take grade 4 practical.. grade 5 theory.. OMG.. can i do it? zzz~ i have a fear ne.. later fail how? got to practice my piano! YEAH! jiayou jiayou! xD

today didnt play much nor.. only went in audi for a while in de afternoon then com out le.. after that jiu shi in de night.. hais.. lols.. nothing to hais about la.. hahas~ cos at least i did spend de day with my parents in a happier mood.. although we did had a little fights here n there.. and as usual, my parents are "fighting".. its soemthing they'll like almost do everyday wont change.. f3~

& finally! xD my mum agreed to go with me to marina bay de steamboat! =D its like don know how many months le.. then she agree~ hahas~! xD *soul teddy.. i'll da bao for u de.. LOL!* cos she say that side no air-con.. later eat until very hot.. then my grandparents also going ma.. so not good.. but then now finally le! xD i say i wan to treat them de.. but she don wan.. anyway its good news! xD finally she can accept something suggest from me.. hahas~

alright.. thats all for now! i'll post up some pictures tml ba.. tired.. night night! xD

rainbows above everything! i will survive! ^^

NOTHING MUCH TO DO.. @_@

2007-06-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

NOTHING MUCH TO DO NOW.. @_@
hasnt got anything interesting to blog about now.. lols~ its all de regular stuff.. so i decided to post some photos here.. xD

this is me & ham~ (my best sister) =D (ps. she's on de left.. pretty right? xD)

these are my gu zheng juniors.. after their SYF competition.. WE GOT GOLD! xD
below are some of de groups photos taken..

de whole group of gals with our instructor in pink.. LOLS! (can u spot her? =P)

de same whole group of gals again.. with some helpers in sch uniform at de back.. hahas~ ^^

alright alright~! thats all for now.. blogger upload imagine NOT that easy ok~ zzz! check back soon for more photos~! xD

rainbows above everything! i will survive! ^^

HEYHEY! xD

2007-06-13T15:06:00.000+08:00

HEYHEY! xD

wasnt really doing anything now.. i'm at mac with yanling & wanxi.. they studying.. i just go there to "disturb" only.. =X LOLS!

nothing really happen today.. so just thought of dropping by to say hi~ hahas! in the morning is just me, KK & soul teddy playing audition.. maple under server check.. f3~! i wanna go chiong my maple.. lols! suddenly felt that maple now better~ hahas~! but also to the fact that i just bought new clothes for maple la.. don play like wasted! lols! plus i still left so many quest to do.. >.<

now yanling teaching wan xi chem.. they say they very bored.. yanling regret never bring her labbie here.. lols! then i'm just busy typing here.. LOLS! wan xi said it just took yanling 10mins to teach her bonding (in chem).. lols~ then her next line is.. "we still got 1 hr 50 mins to go.." LOL~ *xiao dao du zi tong!* xD

on de other hand.. yanling MISS her audi so much.. she say she tml whole day CHIONG ARH! lols~ guess tml is de day for audi! xD (she say she chiong her lis first.. her lis cannot pass.. f3~)

later wan xi going to tamp & jason ask me wan go jaz de house ma.. =.=~ then yanling going to co.. f3 f3 f3! zheng shi de~ @_@ *blurr*

rainbows above everything! i will survive~! ^^

JUST ANOTHER RELAXING DAY.. ^_^

2007-06-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

JUST ANOTHER RELAXING DAY~ ^_^

hmm~ its finally just another relaxing day for me.. no more unhappiness or troubles.. just sitting down & enjoying wat i'm doing.. ^^

recently i went to play badminton again.. de first time was on saturday, 9 May.. i send gin off to de airport then meet jason, karkoon, tracy n 2 of jason de friends to play badminton.. after that exercise was really pi gu tong.. lols.. i mean de joints la.. so i decided to exercise more! xD then monday, which is yst.. we all met at tamp sports stadium & play bad again.. laughter n laughter.. hahas~ mainly we created alot of jokes la.. then we play 3 vs 3.. then i always laugh.. =X hai de they all laugh also.. then created alot of jokes.. n we got along well.. but jaz never give mian zi nor.. =X don wan play badminton.. just sit there n play her phone de games.. f3~ next time u die le! xD must tell u to play~! hehe~

the my com was FINALLY FIXED! xD i go restore de com.. so everything is back to normal.. just that have to install everything in again.. but its not that bad! xD cos restore com only undone de changes that u did to ur com.. so all ur documents n everything is not removed.. so i just update & re-install in everything can le.. so finally done! xD

then in de afternoon jason & karkoon come my house.. we all use my house de wireless net play maple.. LOLS! we all go ludi hunt things.. actually hor is doing quest la.. lols~ karkoon lvl 43, jason lvl 44, me lvl 59.. jason say wan to catch up my lvl.. ask me stop lvling.. f3~ u dream on! =P then jaz lvl so fast! >.<>he afk.. then i back.. i back he afk.. he back i afk.. lols~ like drama.. until i decided nvm! i sit down wait! lols.. then finally meet him.. =X sorry soul teddy! >.<

besides play maple.. we also got play others.. jason don know playing she mo tactic de game.. lols! then i "borrowed" karkoon de com n play o2jam.. then he help me pass me lis! xD THANKS~ then karkoon play piano.. xD i also got play a little la.. but not as good as his.. then end up we played quite alot of songs.. LOLS! got guan huai fang shi.. always with me.. cannon in C.. beauty & de beast.. her most beautiful smile.. n alot more la.. then i asked for 5 music scores from him! xD sorry ne.. then ask him teach me also.. then he "complaint!" hump! got mei nu let u teach leh~ still complaine.. f3~ =X LOLS! jkjk.. sorry ma.. at most i learn on my own.. which is like.. X_X lols~ xD

b4 they 2 come my house i was playing audi with star n KK.. then we were talking about who's MrSanta.. then they all know le.. now haru also know le.. hahas~ i think telling is better ba.. better than later become something so bad that cannot wan hui.. sorry soul teddy.. >.<

then at de sametime i was having a very good conversation with KK jiejie.. sorry wor jiejie.. if i didnt do that nothing sort of this will come out.. hope u'll forgive me.. SORRY! >.<

in de night jiu shi i playing maple.. until 9.. then after that go msn.. soul teddy & star talking about audi.. audi server CRASH! =.=~ poor audi.. *sayang* too many ppl jiu shi like that.. take care ne.. after that jiu shi update blog.. plus read jaz de blog.. she sad ne.. make me kindna sad too. plus her blog song all so nice! i jealous! =X lols~ jkjk!! ^^

lastly i just wan to say to my SISTERS..

TO JAZ:

take care ok~ nothing is too hard on this earth.. not only u got me, yl & jason.. u got all de HOPE in this WORLD! ^^

we'll always be there for u de.. but say truely.. like wat i told jason b4.. find ur own hope.. we can always be here for u.. but we come & go.. we cannot always 24 hrs pei ni.. even we wan to.. de hope that we give u also.. it always come & go.. but when u give something to urself.. its ALWAYS urs.. so JIAYOU! u confrim can find de! ^^

(ps.. i not saying we'll leave u ok.. don misunderstood! >.<)

TO YANLING:

don sad! cheer up ok~ nothing is too hard! i'm alive le ok.. ^^ n i'll continue to be alive de! ^^ *huggies~* although i'm not really with u physcially.. but my heart is ALWAYS with u de! don ever doubt that! ^^

TO BOTH OF THEM:

AS I SAID B4.. WO MEN JIE MEI SAN GE REN YI TIAO XIN! we can confirm pass this de ok! *HUGGIES HUGGIES!* always have hope ok~ ^^

i'm alive again.. all thanks to u all! hope always! ^^

JUST AS I THOUGHT.. =.=~

2007-06-11T21:46:00.000+08:00

JUST AS I THOUGHT.. =.=.. *GIVE UP!*

just as i thought de rain & storm is finally over.. something more ridicules.. more funny.. n more sadden-ing turns up.. n thats regarding my labbiee!! >.<

today was de day that i finally can cheer up.. played audi in de morning n found my MrSanta! lols~ actually my friend lai de la.. lols! then i change my name to MrsSanta~ xD but later ppl type satan how? f3~ anyway.. just change name ar! nothing happen yet! (don anyhow imagine yl n jaz!) f3~ =P then meet up with jaz, jason, karkoon, tracy & karkoon's friends to play badminton in de afternoon.. fun! xD exercise~ we got alot of jokes.. lols! mainly because of me la.. T__T stupid! lols~ fun fun fun~ so long didnt exercise le.. so nice when we play finish.. then we went to play house of de dead.. tired! keep on shaking de gun.. @_@ play bad plus shake gun.. TIRED NE! >.<>

anyway~ had a good talk with jason.. i think wo men de xin jie finally kai le.. phew.. ^^ sorry ne.. hide from u until now.. >.< *bow* but its a good thing! xD cos now i finally don need to have that "distant" feeling when i'm around him le.. hahas~ can zi zai de xiang chu..

so i thought everything was finally good again.. hope it will last ne! but happiness don always last.. =.= n i know it..

de first thing i open my labbie was.. WHAT?! lols.. a BIG SHOCK! my task bar got some problem.. STUPID de problem.. lols! my quick launch bar hor.. every icon is showned.. then my language bar.. still ok.. but then if u remove both quick launch bar & lang bar.. de WHOLE task bar GONE! T__T if u just remove either one.. de next one will "jump" forward.. then hor.. when u open a window n somethings will have a tab ma.. mine no tab de.. =.= if i wan to change between windows.. go task manager n press switch to.. =.="" *shiver* cold ne.. stupid problem.. zzz~ SOMEBODY HELP ME! T__T lao tian ar! u wan to yuan si wo ar? zzz~ out of de blue will give me such problems.. i'm really feeling UP n DOWN ne.. zzz~

dead.. i'm dead.. i wont live anymore..

ITS CONFUSING.. ISNT IT? @_@

2007-06-10T16:49:00.000+08:00

ITS CONFUSING.. ISNT IT? @_@

actually.. i really don plan to update anymore.. but u.. u all.. (yanling, jaz, anata, KK, soul teddy..) and alot more ppl gave me de strength.. i think i can finally found something to hold on to.. and therefore i posted everything that i had wrote de night b4..

maybe after reading them u'll find out that i'm actually a very dark person.. maybe u'll get scared n run away.. but i don blame u.. sometimes me myself i cant stand myself too.. lols! maybe that is de consquences of keeping everything to urself ba..

but anyway.. i wan to thank you anata.. u really have help me alot & gave me hope! ^^ n my promise to u is still there.. just that mayeb this time it will take me longer time to recover ba.. but all in all THANK YOU!

and to everyone else too! THANKS ALOT! ^^ jaz i saw ur msg at ur blog.. yanling also.. thank you for asking me wat is happening.. n telling me that i'm alive.. hahas.. but maybe i breath carbon dioxide leh.. LOLS! xD

but still.. somethings are so confusing.. is it me or that everyone else felt that too? my mum always ask me to work work work.. like de computer.. she use de desktop to play neopets.. sometimes a whole day.. sometimes even up till 2 plus in de morning.. i always ask her to sleep.. then if i wan to use de desktop play audi a while she'll say no.. go practice de piano.. then she'll start her "lecture" about me not caring about my piano practice then wat for i learn it? sometimes she walk in me on msn.. n doing my sch work.. she always says that i'm playing.. n say that wo bu hao.. but i'm really doing my sch work! then she'll say i bu hao.. make me feel guilty.. but wat can i do? nao dao don do my work? playing de piano also.. when i playing she just do her things.. i don mind that.. but i always have to ask her how was it.. then she'll say its good.. but bu gou hao.. even sometimes i willingly sit down n practice.. how much more must i give out? i really don know.. when she use de internet to look at her gu dongs.. she say she doing work.. i respected her.. but when i'm doing work why do u have to say that i'm playing? i didnt even complain, like i use to when i was small, about u using too much com.. i care for ur health too.. but all u said was da ren de shi xiao hai bu dong.. but i really know it..

my dad also.. out of de sudden he'll say that ur piano like tui bu le.. but in fact i'm improving.. i now can even sight-read a little le.. then he ask that maths need tution? but de fact is i still can cope.. i understands my maths..

i know they are caring for me.. i really know that.. but too many things make me cant feel it.. not that i don let her use de internet or anything.. but ur health is important too.. if i can feel u caring for me why cant u feel that i'm caring for u? maybe both of us used de wrong methods.. how long must i continue this kind of relationship with them? i really didnt mean to hurt them..

my grandma also.. she keep on feeding me.. she'll ask wan to eat ma almost every hour.. 45kg me become 50kg n + a little when she come.. it never drops.. not that i complaining.. but when it becomes a habit to her..if i don eat at home she'll say like i don need her le.. i wan to jian fei.. who says anything about jian fei? i dont even plan to.. just that i don wan to eat.. because she'll sad thats why i always try to eat at home.. especially dinner.. ou er go out with my sisters than eat ouside.. but she still don seem satisfied.. i'm really tired..

despite all these.. de skys still seems so blue.. i think somethings wont ever change while others will change like don know wat.. thanks all those who stood by me.. i'm really greatful.. & so sorry.. if i hurt u b4.. pls forgive me.. wo zhi cuo le..

dead.. i'm dead.. i wont live anymore..

IT HURTS.. STILL HURTS..

2007-06-10T11:15:00.000+08:00

IT HURTS.. STILL HURTS ALOT..

watever happened still hurts alot.. i "cried" to sleep yst.. i went to sleep cos i'm too tired yst.. i don wan to sleep.. tears were flowing down..

wat i type yst.. rows n rows of tears were flowing down.. lucky my grandma is asleep.. then everyone else too.. its funny.. isnt it? she's just sleeping behind me.. n if i turn or make some noise she will know i'm crying.. other times too.. i cried in de toliet.. in my bed.. she's just right outside de toliet.. or beside my bed.. did she know i cried?

this morning too.. i woke up n realise i still rmb.. can i really forget about everything n treat it as nothing? how can i forget? i don wan to.. its part of my life.. n evern if i can.. my mum wont forget.. my grandma wont forget.. they'll still keep on reminding me of that.. my mum.. she always mention that i buy for u all de hair de thingy but u never use.. de bag i buy for u u never cherish.. n things like that.. i really love them alot! when i lost them.. damaged them.. i'm hurt! i wan to kill myself! why didnt i be more careful? but i wont.. cos i don wan another bei ju.. although they have been damaged, i still love them as it is.. n because i am often careless.. i rather i keep them n don wear them until some important things come up.. i wanted them to pei wo in de most important ocassions.. but u always says that i don take care of them.. i'm hurt.. then wat for i keep them? i might rather throw them away.. u always see me as someone who wont care.. i will.. i even skipped my lunch n don but stuff that i like.. i don even wan to go out.. so i can keep those $ for next week or next next week.. then u wont have so much naggings on me using too much $ or u have to work extra hard to get de $..

i know i'm very lucky to get into this course n i cherish it.. i know my limits but still i work for de best.. so u can see me suceed.. did u know that?

this morning i'm crying agian.. until now.. i'm still crying.. how much tears do i have? i have watched a movie.. de gal cried because her husband is going to jail.. n graduately.. her eyes cannot see.. will i turn into her one day? if i did i think my mum is going to kill me.. adults don really find out wat happen do they? they always assume that its like that.. my grandma "scolded" me this morning.. she said that go eat ur breakfast! if not later lunch don eat again.. i know she's caring.. but pls.. i'm hurt now.. even i don eat lunch at 12 i can eat at 2.. i'll still have my dinner at 7.. don worry.. i'm crying still.. if they just walk into my know now they'll know i'm crying.. but they didnt..

i know wat they did is out of de best for me.. but i really need a break.. all ur carings are naggings.. scoldings.. negative words.. i always tried to look for de positive meanings in it.. but i cant anymore.. i don wish to understand anymore.. i don wan to think.. i just wan to live each day as it is..

now stoping crying! if she know i'm crying she'll surely say u cry for wat? yst is already over.. but is it? hurts.. it always leave a scare in my heart.. i feel my heart been locked up again.. hao bu rong yi anata opened it little by little.. but now its been locked again.. so cold.. so dead.. no warmth.. my heart is like been locked up by thousands of locks.. chains.. how much time now do i need to recover? i really don know..

and lastly.. i'm so sorry jaz.. i made u think of de past n cry.. i didnt mean it.. i know u did see de real inside me.. thanks for that.. but my strength is slipping away.. i really don wan to fight anymore.. i'm tired.. i wan to learn de sleeping beauty.. but this time round there will be no prince.. no waking up.. sorry jaz.. *huggies..*

dead.. i'm dead.. i wont live anymore..

I KNOW..

2007-06-09T23:00:00.000+08:00

I REALLY KNOW..

i relaly know that in this world.. de only saddness does not revolve round me only.. but i can tell u that i am part of that saddness too.. so pls don always thought that i'll be fine & everything will be ok.. i just need someone to be there for me..

i don need u to talk or say comforting words.. i can tell myself that too.. n i know those words are true.. but i also know that if i cry or be sad.. u'll be affected too.. so i rather don cry.. n keep it all in my heart.. i just need someone who will listen.. n be there for me.. i dont even need to u talk..

i understand de rules.. if i wan something i have to lose something too.. but i'm never greedy.. i don wan all de riches in this world or anything! i just wan everyone to be happy.. to be ok.. is that too much to ask? i've always tried my best to make u smile.. anyone! as long as u're beside me i'll try! but i always got hurt in de end.. is it that my thinking was wrong or not u never saw wat i did? did i really do de wrong things? i wan to say sorry.. but i think i've said it too many times that u thought its fake.. i'm sorry for that..

can someone really see me.. just me.. de real me.. not de one who keeps on smiling or de one who alwaya comfort u n be there for u.. i really need someone.. pls don go away..

some ppl will say that its me who went away first.. but is it so true? i saw u been happy.. thats all i wish for.. u'll have better future without me.. cos i always brings saddness to ppl when i try very hard.. n if i see u sad i'll blame myself.. i rather i leave..

my father left me when i was young.. so i rather leave then u leave.. i cant face de saddness anymore.. sometimes i act so well that i thought i'm alright too..

but i'm not.. i really cant hold on anymore.. n i know that.. i asked for help.. i got replied.. but still.. who can see de real me behind those faces..?

i need an angel.. who can save me & be there for me..

all things i've done make me feel so sick! sad.. disappointed.. do i really fit to deserve someone? i'm so sorry.. i think i'll die.. when i can.. sorry guys.. i really couldnt hold on anymore.. T__T

dead.. i'm dead.. i wont live anymore..

ME & MY MUM.. T_T

2007-06-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

ME & MY MUM.. T_T SORRY..

i just had a fight with my mum today.. it was suppose to be happy day for me.. but then.. i guess nothing ever runs smooth.. but for it.. it runs 10 times more bad..

today is suppose to be de day that i'll be sending gin off de airport.. she's going back to china.. how i wish i could too.. but anyway.. i told my mum that.. she said ok.. i can send u to enous.. i'm alright with that.. but then when we were off that time.. i suddenly rmb.. i can just take a bus to Bedok n from there change mrt.. it will be faster than taking mrt from enous.. which is more far away.. furthermore.. recent things n feelings that i've kept deep inside my heart started to rise.. i just sort of get "angry".. n shouted at her.. she keep on asking my de same things.. i was abit frustrated.. i didnt even realise i shouted at her until she say so.. I"M SORRY mama.. i really didnt do it on purpose.. i have my troubles too.. i'm not de gal that can just come n go.. i can rmb.. i can feel.. i have feelings now.. but still.. i'm sorry.. i really didnt mean to shout at u.. pls understand..

but then wat my mum said also hurt me.. she say why i'm treating her like a enemy? even if u don treat me as ur mother but at least as a friend.. why do u have to shout at me.. sorry.. really sorry.. i really didnt mean it de.. but pls understand.. although i appear to be happy.. i'm not.. really.. i'm sad.. i really need help.. pls.. pls see my other side.. i never ever didnt treat u as my mother.. i always respected u.. I LOVE U! i always tried to make u happy.. like this morning.. i know u wanted me to pay de piano.. i played! but u werent at home.. when small that time.. u wanted me to learn de piano.. i did.. i know u're worried.. i tried my best to go home on time.. i dont do foolish things cos i know u need me.. but pls.. why cant u see my other side..? u always see me "playing" with de com.. my daily activities is playing.. de more i go out de more ye i am.. but really.. i love u.. i don wan to hurt u.. so i'll try my best to make u smile.. i'm really sorry.. sometimes i also have my emotions.. do u ever know i cried b4 in my bed? i really love u everyday? one times u told me b4.. u see ar.. those "not-normal" kids will try to hurt themselves.. cos they know they're been bad.. i'm hurt when i heard that.. i know sometimes i'm bad.. but i want n i'll try my best to change it.. i wanted to hurt myself sometimes too.. do u know i almost wanted to jump down de building when i was in sec sch? but i didnt.. something or "somebody" stopped me.. n up til now i wont.. cos i know if i get hurt or do foolish things.. i'll make u more sad.. its not that i wont be like those children.. i will! just that i don wan to.. cos i wont bring happiness to u.. did u ever know that i was been called a flirt by my friends? my friends look down on me when i couldnt turn up or projects n stuff like that? i'm suffering too.. sorry..

u always said that i can do better.. even if i'm already trying my very hard.. from failing maths to getting 100.. u said that i should get 100.. i really wanted u to recognise me! but u never really did..

but still.. i'm sorry about today.. although i called u to say sorry.. n u said u know u r wrong jiu hao.. but then.. i still hope to hear that its ok.. i'm sorry too.. why am i always de one saying sorry? not everything is my fault.. but because i wan to keep this relationship.. i wanted to say sorry n i AM sorry.. but i'm tired.. i cant hold on anymore.. i just wan u to understand.. i really need u to understand! u are de one who pei wo from young until now.. i really love u mum.. i'm so sorry..

i cried all de way to de airport today.. n de only word i get is.. don cry le.. u cry outside so weird.. i'm sorry.. i didnt mean to disgrace u.. i'll learn to be strong.. i wont cry again..

i love u mum..

dead.. i'm dead.. i wont live anymore..

HU PEIYAN (JOYCE) IS DEAD!

2007-06-09T22:04:00.000+08:00

HU PEIYAN (JOYCE) IS DEAD!

from this moment onwards.. i'm dead.. pls don come back here for anymore updates.. there will be no more updates.. n if u see me on de street.. pls don call me.. cos i wont hear u.. i'm dead.. even if u say i'm alive, i'm just a zombie..

recently too many things have happen.. although i thought that i can always be happy.. happiness is always there.. but is it? i'm really breaking down le.. i don wan to fight le.. de unhappiness keeps on staying there.. i tried to forget.. but can i really forget? i wont.. n i don wan to! cos if i did.. then i wont have a life.. i don even have a happy one yet.. de most happy things that happened to me is knowing all de ppl n de knowledge that i have received.. thanks for everything guys.. i'll miss u..

dead.. i'm dead.. i wont live anymore..

FINALLY OVER! HORRAY~ xD

2007-06-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

FINALLY OVER! HORRAY~~ xD

most of de week is finally over! xD i can rest le.. phew~ now only left REMT de hw.. my CD presentation is ALRIGHT! =D plus i get back my theory test paper le.. de results is not that bad~! 47/100 although still fail.. but at least i didnt feel THAT bad.. phew~ i think that's a good thing!

i thought my theory is gonna failed very bad! de feeling after i finish de test is so horrible! but actually its still ok.. just 3 more marks to pass.. de best out of de worst huh! xD plus my mum was very understanding towards this.. she ask me to ganbatek~ plus she getting a music teacher to teach me piano again.. so she's actually HELPING me! =D plus i've been approaching my classmates for help.. so afterall~ MY THEORY YOU JIU LE! =) & i suddenly found out that ACTUALLY i can pass.. if not for de careless mistakes.. i would have pass it already.. n Mr James, our teacher, actually giving a 2 way lesson le.. not like last time.. so.. dead.. he now even will explain some of de things le~ xD things seem to be turning better huh? ^^ hehe~

but still.. there are abit unhappyness here n there de.. i think u can never be happy A WHOLE DAY! can u? during de first REMT lecture, Geoffrey, our teacher tell us, de group of us which is always sitting behind to sit in front so can interact.. although i never really listen to his lecture cos de notes are all can read online de.. lols! but then i still found it interesting & useful in my learning! xD i now kinda like de interaction le.. i also learn that actually our eyes will creat "errors".. example when u watch a car wheel.. sometimes u'll see it either turning front or stop when de car is actually driving on the road.. out eyes made an error n this error is process through our brain.. u know de wheel is turning at a very fast speed.. so fast that our eyes cannot see it "properly".. which is like time delay.. n this created an error call a something.. i cant really rmb de word.. =.=~ but i rmb de concept ok! xD then hor.. our eyes is always seeing things at de same rate.. n de car is also turning at a same rate (assuming).. so in theory.. de time delay should be always de same.. but why we sometimes see de wheel turning forward or maybe even stopping? why arent we either see it at stopping or just turning forward? cos both rates are de same ar.. but de truth is.. u cant really know how fast de wheel is turning at.. so ur brain actaully cannot get de correct wave from de car wheel.. so it will make assumtions.. then it become that u wil see de car wheel turning infront or stopping.. u wont see one only.. xD hehe~ chim hor.. lols!

anywa.. today was fun ba.. we actaully make alot of jokes in class.. hahas.. n all de little little happiness add up become a BIG ONE! so i think no matter how "big" de saddness seems it will always be REPLACED by these little little happiness! =D n plus its FINALLY HOLIDAYS! who will be sad in holidays?! lols~ ITS TIME TO ENJOY! AUDI AUDI, MAPLE MAPLE! HERE I COME! xD

& anata~ don worry ok.. eveything is FINE! ur ah hem will take care of herself for u de.. just trust in her ba! ^^

u cheer me up so i can fly again.. u gave me hope so i can smile again.. thank you! ^^

CONTINUOUS.. @_@

2007-06-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

CONTINUE DISASTER! @_@

bad things always seem to happen so fast but went on too slow.. de feeling was so instant but yet so lasting.. u get alot of feelings.. confused, sad, dead, lost of hope, dull, but at de sametime.. u really found out who's caring for u.. who will give u comfort n hope..

things always happen so fast.. dont they? u can be happy de first moment but sad in de next min.. n things keep on adding up.. strangly enough.. u rmb de sad ones more then de happy ones.. de sad moments always see so big, so strong.. that u thought it gave u a BIG impact.. but then de happy ones are just like passing very fast.. in an instant n its gone..

recently all de "BIG" things happen.. so sad.. so tired of it.. my dad's case.. now going for at least 2 months jail? o.O plus 8k fine.. zzz~ then doing hw in de late night.. is also out of de question.. u'll hear my grandma nagging.. while my mum understands n just told me to sleep eariler if its possible.. like my CD ppt.. i do until 1am +.. my mum was still ok with it.. cos its a hw! have to be done! but my grandma was like.. nagging.. not that i blame her.. just that i hope she can understand! she goes like.. shui liao la.. bu yao wan le! why i wan to play until midnight for?! n furthermore.. i'm doing a PPT! not a game.. u can clearly see that.. but she just say bu yao wan le.. then i say i do finish jiu sleep.. then she wait until bu nai fan then just say.. u wanna sleep u sleep don wan u continue.. don care u le.. i'm SAD! i wish she could understand! T__T if i can.. i ALSO WAN TO SLEEP! >.<>

i also keep on getting hurt these few days.. like i can just get scratched when i sit on de stairs.. its true de stairs are a bit rough.. but get scratch by it until bleed?! i cant believe it.. =.= my feet also.. i just scratch scratch scratch then bleed le.. my are also de same.. then my other feet like get hit or something? o.O pain pain de.. plus red red also.. i'm so blurr about this injuries! i until go bath then notice ooh~ yuan lai po pi le.. my feet is until when i walk that time pain pain de then i know.. @_@ wats happening to me?

i just hope that for de rest of de days for these week can pass smoothly.. i just wan to get it over with n rest.. i really need a break..

u cheer me up so i can fly again.. u gave me hope so i can smile again.. thank you! ^^

DISGRACE! T__T

2007-06-06T12:00:00.000+08:00

DISGRACE! T__T SI DIAO SUAN LE!

just got back my first test, music theory, de results FAIL! T__T omg.. i FAILED the test! ahh~~~~ imagine de previous night i still study until so hard.. then i still ask if i don understand.. but de results is still fail.. i wanna die..

yanling is right.. music is something that i'm doing for myself.. so all de more i cannot fail it! but i did... *BANG WALL!* plus i rmb de different ppl telling me that they cant get into this course.. n wan me to help them "fulfill" their dreams.. OMG! i'm BAD AT IT! zzz.. added on to de fact that i'm really lucky to get into this course.. so all de more.. HOW CAN I FAIL?!? *BANG WALL AGAIN* i'm really USELESS man.. kill me ba! scold me ba! do anything! i feel guilty.. sad.. disgrace! i studied music b4 ok!! so I CANNOT FAIL! why why why?! T__T ahh~~~

i knew de results first thing in de morning.. from that moment onwards i WANTED TO CRY! just find a HOLE & HIDE! i wan to fall asleep.. FOREVER don wake up.. i'm really useless.. i suddenly felt that maybe i have chosen de wrong course! how can i be bad at something i've learn b4..?

but actually.. wat de test is testing is something that i have not learnt b4.. my teacher, Mr James also didnt really go through it.. he just gave us a piece of paper & say that if u do this paper then u'll definitely pass de test! i can actually do de questions in de TB.. then i went through a few questions in that paper too.. i can do! but when i do de test.. everything crumpled.. i realise from de test that i've been reading de wrong concept.. de test is about changing de time signature from simple to compound or vice visa.. i've been studying de wrong concept all these time about that!

so straight after de exam i ask pei lin to teach me music theory.. n i get it afterwards.. its actually VERY SIMPLE! i was like.. WHAT THE HELL! i get it after de test.. why not b4 or during de test?! but i guess its de disadvantage of not learning up til grade 8 for theory.. so therefore.. I'VE DECIDED TO TAKE PIANO LESSONS AGAIN! xD this time round.. i wont just focus on practical le! i'll focus on both theory n practical! xD WISH ME LUCK~~

for de next test i'll confirm get higher! like an A ^^ n i believe i can do it de! xD cos i wanna prove to myself & de ppl around me that music is something serious to me! i am WILLING to WORK HARD for it! ^_^

so hor anata~ don worry ok! i'll cheer up~ ^^ my fighting spirit is back! =D

u cheer me up so i can fly again.. u give me hope so i can smile again.. thank you! ^^

YAWN~ xP

2007-06-04T16:48:00.000+08:00

YAWN~ xP

like very long never update about my daily work le.. hahas~ so i decided to login n update on my daily doings.. xP

today wake up on timing nor.. even though never set alarm clock.. LOLS! but partly is because my mum woke up early.. then she on de light.. so it actually disturb my sleep.. =X lols~ woke up at 7.. then wash face, brush tooth n eat eat eat.. lols~ (got nian gao as my breakfast! xD) after that change jiu go down to de bus stop le..

as usual, its crowded! >.<>

anyway.. de mrt trip was ALRIGHT! ^__^ got a seat like in payer lebar.. lols~ normally i at city hall or raffles than can sit nor.. but today i got it early~ *wonder why* lols~ then i got bring Rurouni Kenshin de comic.. so throughout the whole journey, i read read read~ xD n i got bring labbie to sch.. heavy.. =.=""

at sch.. we got our KEYS test today.. Miss Bazi.. (is that how u spell de name? o.O) nvm~ she tested us on C major scale, F major scale & G major scale.. plus we need to play de chords progression as well.. make 2 mistakes in it.. f3! minus 2 marks.. zzz~ when practice that time still ok de lor.. test jiu die le.. zzz~ *bang wall* so overall i get 13/15.. not bad la.. but can do better.. lols~ ganebatek! ^^

afternoon idea de class was simply.. boring? slacking? or learning? lols~ cos today we're suppose to present everything we have discovered n do for the e-learning week.. my group was the last.. lols! have to wait very long.. but also got de good points la.. cos we get the see the mistakes that other group have made n take note of it.. plus this project.. we arent really sure wat to do nor.. we have to go "shopping".. then from there discover how ppl buy things.. wat attracts them n wat does not.. n maybe focus on 1 or 2 shops & talk about them.. my group went to Vivo city~ we focus on Zara.. then i think my group quiet SPECIAL~ xD cos ours are mostly pictures.. very few words.. we talk.. n we focus only on 1 store n from there we explore n explain wat we found out.. unlike other groups wo basically gave an detailed idea of where they went n wat they have found out.. we zoom on it using quiet a different way.. i'm PROUD how our presentation turn out to be nor.. hehe~ xD GOOD JOB GUYS~! ^^

then these few days.. got someone, who i think i wont mention yet.. mian de ppl like ah hem will say jie fu again.. (not yl.. is j n j de.. xP) f3~ he pei wo quiet alot.. n cheered me up.. ty for that.. my best buddies too~ thanks thanks~ ^^ yl also.. ty for leading a helping hand! ^^ i know u r quiet stressed with ur sch work.. JIAYOU ok! holidays we can go out le.. PROMISE! ^^ *huggies~*

these few days have been changing my blog de layout.. lols~ but its not done yet.. still have some "research" to do.. i not very good with codes n all that.. =.= must see examples then can.. lols~ anyway.. i also have been listening to a song call truth.. by yuna ito.. from NANA.. a very nice song! ^^ i think maybe i'll change my blog de song to that.. cos i also wanted someone, erm.. someone la.. lols!, to go listen to it n understand de meaning of the song.. although i also very blurr de song is about wat la.. lols~ but then i really hope u can go listen n understand.. n i KNOW HOW TO SING IT xD if i see de words la.. lols~! cannot rmb de lyrics =.=~ baka me..

anyway.. JIAYOU ALL! ^^

rainbows plus chocolates~! & u'll get a SMILE! =D

DON KNOW WAT TO WRITE.. @_@

2007-06-03T10:32:00.000+08:00

DON KNOW WHAT TO WRITE.. @_@ BAKA ME!

i don know wat to write le la.. lols! cos nothing much happen this few days.. my dad's case is still not over yet.. still need like.. 3 weeks later then will know de results? *hais* hope it will be over soon ne!
my maths is still stuck at differentiation.. =.=~ so blurr when doing de respect to x de.. f3~ gamebatek ne! ^^ i still got keyboard to practice.. my assignment is due in a few days time~ oh well.. but i got everything under control! xD so no worries~ hehe~
and to jaz:

i've been reading ur blog.. but my com don allow me to tag at ur tag board.. =.=~ been on error.. i don know why.. sorry wor.. but keep in mind~ i'll go n read de ok! xD

i go do my maths le~ tata~!

rainbows above everything! ^^ i will be happy~

MORNING!! ^^ I FEEL HAPPIER~

2007-06-02T11:44:00.000+08:00

MORNING~~ ^_^ I FEEL HAPPIER~~!

hahas.. nothing much to say really.. just wan to thank alot of ppl.. n i just feel happier le.. hahas~

i first wan to thank yanling & jaz.. i know they have their own problems also.. but despite that fact.. they still extended their help to me.. I'M ERY GLAD! ^__^ but i also wan to say sorry.. because i don know how to kai kou.. i'm blurr about this.. i feel lost.. so i tried my best to deal with it.. i tired not to think about it that much.. i am trying to find a way to solve this.. so i don know how to respond or say this to others.. the only thing i found it easier to express myself is this blog.. lols.. cos i don need to think that much.. i just need to type down wat i feel n think.. so sorry..

i also wan to thank bear.. he pei wo chat when i needed someone.. n he even pei me do my hw.. lols! late into de night.. plus he offered his help too.. thanks alot~

n lastly is haru.. u cheered me up.. thank you~ wat i promised u is a promise.. it wont be broken.. but then i cannot say i will 100% do it always.. but i will definitly try my best.. n u also neh.. although u have throw down ur burden.. but i'm at ur service if u need anyone~ ^^

thanks everyone! ^^

rainbows above everything! ^^ i will be happy~

WHERE'S MY ENERGY...? T_T

2007-06-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

WHERE'S MY ENERGY? T_T

i feel tired.. actually.. i AM tired.. my panda eyes are getting deeper.. i'm like too lost now.. a child wondering everywhere without life..

i feel.. lost.. almost dead.. like a zombie.. i ate because i need to eat.. i sleep because my grandma wanted me to.. n if i dont she dont sleep too.. i work cos i need to pass my exams n everything.. so wat is something.. that i finally did for myself?

am i laughing because i wanted to.. or just because i wan to keep everyone beside me happy? i really wanted to find out the truth for myself.. i don wan to be puppet! but its like i AM been puppet.. by life.. by my feelings..

dear god,

please send an angel down.. i need someone now..

i wan the light.. the hope that i once had..

please come to me.. rescue me...

i almost skipped dinner tonight.. i feel really DEAD! wats my purpose in life again..? i think i've lost to fate.. but still.. i will come ALIVE once again.. cos i promised someone not to tink negative again.. i wan to keep my smile.. and i will keep it! for the sake of those who are round me.. and of cos.. for me..

one day.. i wan to laugh because i wanted to.. i wan to smile because u really make me happy.. i will do something for myself.. n for u.. =)

rainbows above everything! ^^ cheer up~

BAKA ME! >.<

2007-05-31T23:02:00.000+08:00

BAKA ME! >.<

i just feel like i've been a baka all along! >.<

tml is 1st june le.. my dad going to court again.. it looks like de real time for sentence le.. I REALLY HOPE IT WILL NOT BE SO SERIOUS.. PLS LET IT BE LIGHT.. PLS PLS PLS! >.<

and the funny thing about it was that i'm like so baka about this.. this whole week didnt think about it.. until i realise finally its june 1st.. zzz.. i feel useless.. wat can i do to make everything right? my dad was like coughing all de way.. so sick.. my mum was worried.. along with my grandparents.. and my hw.. i do it in the night cos its more quiet.. i can think.. n i finish it le.. but got 1 more that don need to hand in so early de.. but to finish it i stayed.. but they "scolded" me.. say i always sleep so late.. this n that.. pls try to understand.. T_T

i really need someone by my side.. i really need de heaven to be by my side.. pls keep my dreams alive.. i feel like a walking zombie.. i don wan that! >.<

pls pls pls... send an angel down pls.. T__T i really need someone.. *tears* i wan my blessing..

rainbows above everything! ^^ cheer up~

LOLS~! O.O

2007-05-31T09:59:00.000+08:00

LOLS! O.O

morning everyone! xD yst night so funny.. hahas.. experiment with quite a few effects for my blog yst night.. lols~ havent really found the one suitable yet.. so later on i'm gonna try again.. then my blog de words, tags and links should all be changed.. SOON.. lols!

my blog de effects abit difficult neh.. n i've disabled the right click on my blog.. so if u see anything nice.. pls ask from me.. don just copy paste.. lols! thanks.. but i think that wont apply yet la.. cos i havent really been putting pictures and all.. but i'll be creating photo albums if possible on the side.. so u not only get me text but also pictures.. LOLS!

at young hor.. i got a dream.. that is to creat a own website.. actual i wanted to do it with a friend de.. but then in the end didnt.. but i guess i can make my dream come true after all! xD ^__^ must support hor ppl! xD

anyway.. thats all for now.. i wan to go watch vcd first! hehe~ have a nice day! =D

rainbows above everything! ^^ cheer up~

HOME SWEET HOME! =D

2007-05-30T20:18:00.000+08:00

HOME SWEET HOME! =D

PHEW! after one whole day, FINALLY reach home le.. hahas~ today was not very busy.. but fun! ET = ear training & MIDI was fun! xD

although i still woke up early this morning.. at 6! when to bath.. was REFRESHED! xD so not that tired.. plus i slept at 11 last night.. ya lor~ so finally i do get a good night's sleep~

anyway~ today's classes was FUN! xD using Cubase 4, a music software that allows u to creat music with all sorts of instruments, we are suppose to creat a music piece using the only element timbre.. Timbre is a very special element.. because its a element that allows our ears to distingush whether the note is from a piano or violin.. its all due to the harmonics that de note gave out.. am example is the note A.. its freguency is always 440Hz.. but the note A has harmonics.. that means that de note A does not only give out 440Hz and also got 880Hz, which is an octave higher, 1760Hz and so on.. of cos it can be lower also.. so u can actually hear different sounds when u hit the note A.. it applies for all other notes as well.. and that 880Hz, 1760Hz so on is called harmonics.. if u listen carefully it actual is there.. and Timbre is tone colour.. tone colour also means the harmonics.. so its like.. we can use grand piano, strings, tables.. anything that can produce a sound to make something.. Timbre is purely the notes or sounds.. it does not have any rhythm.. u hit de table n it gave u a sound right? that sound is timbre.. Timbre exploration is maingly on the different types of notes that can be created by different things.. which even includes ur voice! ^^

so bascially.. we are suppose to do that.. n i creat a funny piece! LOLS! but timbre music will sound weird to u when u first hear it.. cos it does not make any sense to ur ears, at first!, because u normally hear song with beats.. but timbre music don have.. i think i'll soon post a link to the timbre music and u can go listen! its weird.. but like me.. if u get use to it.. it actually make sense! xD

then maths lesson i'm very guai~ xD i do hw leh.. cos teacher let us finish our hw.. she not going to teach new subject.. plus i mention that hui zhuang is HIGH n LOW lor.. gin is busy watching anime.. hahas.. ^^

after class had bao & 3 fishballs for lunch.. LOLS! then was helping gin to change ur blogskin.. hard work! >.<

after lunch is my ET lesson.. SO FUNNY! xD teacher, jimmy, was explaining how we get our 12 notes, which includes semi-tones.. then he joke along the way.. and we tried a TOTALLY DIFFERENT scale! sounds weird at first.. but after a while.. IT MAKE SENSE! xD i'll post a link for u guys to hear it soon.. so its like.. MUSIC AREAS ARE REALLY BIG! there's lots to explore.. like Timbre.. a TOTALLY DIFFERNET SCALE.. and soon.. many more will come.. those interested can keep on coming back to read it! cos i'll be talking ALOT ALOT about music.. hahas..

I REALLY LOVE THIS COURSE MAN! xD everyone was great.. n the course was interesting.. plus i'm learning wat i wan to learn! wat can be more good then fulling ur dreams? JIAYOU JIAYOU EVERYONE! although it make seem very hard.. but i believe once u learn to love it.. U CAN DE! so YANLING JIAYOU! xD i really believe that u can do it de! cos u love bio ma.. hahas~

thats all for now! going to change my template le.. c ya soon~ xP

rainbows above everything! ^^ cheer up~

HAPPIE HAPPIE! xD

2007-05-30T11:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPIE HAPPIE! xD
so happy neh! cos i finally find the cure to my blogger problems.. LOLS! xD by the way this update is done in sch.. cos today bring labbie to sch to let spicer check on my com.. cos i cannot do my e-learning on my labbie..
in morning de MIDI class.. i tried Cubase! xD music sorfware lai de.. so CUTE! lols~! then can creat alot of things.. hehe~ next time let u all hear.. then spicer help me check on my com.. finally can work le! xD but he solve it de "traditional" way.. LOLS! go into de programming part.. @_@ *blurr*
math class was seriously doing hw.. differentiation.. @_@ *blurr again* but once u get it its quite simple.. LOLS! then gin was there watching anime.. LOLS! so funny! hui zhuang gets high and low again.. LOLS! i was "busy" asking her how to do ma.. then she was also busy doing her hw.. she got stucked.. so was like.. "AHHH~ huh..." LOLS! nvm if u don get it.. cos i also don get wat i am writing.. lols~ funny jiu dui le.. hehe~
now is eating lunch.. eatin bao.. don really feel like eating anything else.. later still have ear training class.. n need to help gin do her blogskin.. lols~ thats all for now..
rainbows above everthing! ^^ cheer up~

STUPID ME.. =.=""

2007-05-29T21:56:00.000+08:00

REALLY STUPID ME.. =.=""
i just found out wats wrong with my blogger.. LOLS! and its because of some stupid silly mistakes.. =.="" DOTS! nvm.. anyway.. SO SORRY!!! >.<
these few days also quite busy.. got tons of hw to do.. today just had my first test.. on music theory.. conclusion.. FAIL! de teacher gave some questions that he didnt even teach b4.. everything have to be self-learned.. the only help he gave was a piece of paper.. with about 10 questions.. i was like.. HUH? @_@ lols.. n when i do the paper than i realise i had de wrong concept in mind.. oh well... =.= pray hard that i can pass! >.<
yst was also a busy day nor.. do hw until 11 plus.. pervious night is 12 plus.. so now is.. @_@ *spin spin spin* headache plus sleeping mood le.. LOLS! lucky i finish my hw le.. hehe.. so after i updated this.. i can go sleep le! xD
by de way i'm CHANGING MY BLOG LE~~ xD not changing de whole thing.. just adding in new stuff like music, all time favourites website & even a birthday box! ^^ so next time got any bithday updates u can always check back here.. plus the all time favourites website.. it will include anime websites & even youtube and things like that.. but not updating now la.. now i sleepy.. @_@ updating tml.. xD
thursday is holiday! enjoy ur holidays wor everyone! xD night night~
rainbows above everything! ^^ cheer up~

FAN FAN FAN! >.<

2007-05-24T22:26:00.000+08:00

FAN FAN FAN! >.<
today was REALLY BUSY! not only have school work but the "CME" project proposal is MAKING ME CRAZY! almost make me cannot meet ham for dinner.. but nvm la.. cos we still got meet in the end.. LOLS!
today whole day was doing the proposal.. chasing after ppl for all the missing details.. and i realise i suddenly have to write everything in "LONG" form.. like de de.. must to write as the.. abit not use to it.. LOLS! but nvm la.. cos proposal ma.. once in a while only.. LOLS!
busy with hw & bascially sch stuff.. i suddenly found out that, i cannot concentrate when i listen to music.. lols.. for today only lor.. don know why.. anyway.. FINALLY! de rpoposal IS DONE! ^___^ MUHAHAHAS~ edited the proposal quite alot of times lor.. from the start of it to the end of it.. the proposal me n my group wrote have changed quite alot.. miss erica edited alot.. lols.. and she put in the e-mail that she had edited WHOLE LOTS about de proposal.. she actually also put it in bold.. LOLS! *scared!* >.<>
this evening went to meet ham.. have a wonderful talk with her.. I ALWAYS KNEW I CAN COUNT ON HER! *HUGGIES!* ^^ n so sorry.. i almost couldnt make it tonight.. >.< *BANG WALL!* i recover from long lost comics (Rurouni Kenshin) from her.. lols! we ate bunger king for dinner.. but don know why don really have de wei kou to eat.. then i told me n teck de story n my family problems.. then we joke.. LOLS! took photos.. but not nice.. SO DELETED IT ALL! lols.. but at de mrt go home at time got take la.. hehe~ xP b4 we leave bunger king i told her ghost stories.. LOLS! then she told me 28 weeks something.. its a movie.. where its about zombies.. lols! the story line was not bad.. but it was.. erm.. SICK! the zombies ate de ppl ALIVE! T__T *ahh~~* *RUN!* then the ghost story i told her was scary nor.. i heard it from weizhi de.. its about a couple.. have a fight or something like that.. then de gal sucide.. jump down from building.. one day de boy receive a msg.. saying that de gal will come back n find him.. then de boy is very scared.. he went to de prist and ask wat to do.. the prist told him to hide under de bed.. somewhere low.. cos he said normally when ppl died, de feet is on the ground like normal ppl.. so that day.. de gal came to find him.. he heard de *tock tock tock* sound.. & de gal was like.. where are u? he was trembling.. so he quickly hide under de bed.. he heard de *tock tock tock* sound again.. but it stop after a while.. then he heard that.. *HAHA! I FOUND U!* from de gal.. why? cos de gal land her head first on de floor.. so she was actually walking upside down.. T_T SCARY RIGHT! *temble!* T_T
hao la hao la.. i think i better go do something else.. don wan to scare myself until canot sleep! T_T so night night everyone~ sweet dreams! xP
lastly.. just wan to say.. THANKS DEARIE! ^_^ SISTERS 4EVER & ALWAYS~!
rainbows above everything! ^^ cheer up~

STILL LOST.. @_@

2007-05-23T16:51:00.000+08:00

STILL LOST.. IN HOPE? @_@

hey hey~! i don really know wat to say.. lols.. anyway.. just dropping by to say hi~ i'm still feeling abit lost n unbalance.. so i guess i feel this way for a while ba.. but don worry ok! I"M ALRIGHT DE! ^^ just feeling lost n unbalanced..

i guess i'm used to him b y my side le.. last time for anything will think of him de.. now his not there.. abit don know go where de gan jue.. but i can find my balance de.. SO DON WORRY! xD

hais.. don talk about him le la.. de close ones will know wat happen.. i will tell u all de.. anyway.. these few days busy doing projects.. ALMOST DONE LE! ^^ e-learning week not that hard.. hehes~ but i still prefer sch la.. lols.. yst went back (to sch) to collect my hardisk from wen kai.. but end up taking de violin lesson also.. LOLS! cos teacher zai ma.. our lesson is alternate week de.. but since i there n take lor.. LOLS! learn quiet alot of points.. hand abit stiff.. =.= position also.. LOLS! de shoulder n all.. natural but stiff.. LOLS! anyway its fun.. after that me, wenkai, a gal n shaojun went to de staff cafe there eat lunch.. its nice lor! de food there are nice also~~ i eat de nasi georing.. fried rice lai de.. SHOCK! hahas~ thanks for bring me there wenkai n shaojun! ^^

reach home quiet late nor.. then abit lost.. cos on de train i don know wan to think about him ma.. lols! to end up i find ps n xanthus to chat with me.. but ps didnt saw that msg!! *screams~!* lols~! then i chat with xanthus a while.. too tired to think anymore.. then went to sleep.. lols..

that was yst.. today was relaxing at home.. finally..! hahas.. doing my things.. slowed my pace.. so.. i feel that i can relax.. after all that have happened.. at least i got sometime to my own.. hahas..

i was listening to music in de morning.. S.H.E de yi yan wan nian.. (ya.. jaz's blog de song.. LOLS!) but its a NICE SONG! ^^ ancient love.. much more powerful than our love nowadays.. at de sametime, i also went up to de internet to search for window media de skins.. too tired to do hw le.. today was mainly for resting.. watched death note 2 n NANA in de morning.. it was a nice show.. but everything i do seems to remind me of my relationship.. AHHH~! I WANNA BREAK FREE FROM IT! zzz~

late afternoon went to jaz de house.. help her tune her gu zheng.. then told them about wat happened.. doesnt really wan to rmb it.. i tend to forget.. but i know i need to tlak about it.. cos sometimes i cannot keep in my heart any longer le..

and sorry jason.. not that i don wan to tell ni.. just that i also don know where to start.. if can i rather leave it be.. cos i got nothing to say about le.. n tired of facing it le.. sorry.. but thanks alot.. jaz n j.. ham n my 3 sisters.. ^^ *HUGGIES!!!*

rainbows above everything! ^^ cheer up~

JUST WAN TO SAY..

2007-05-23T16:38:00.000+08:00

JUST WAN TO SAY..
i just wan to say a few words to some ppl.. thankies n thankies.. thats all..

TO TECKLI:
honestly.. i don know u will still come back to this page ma.. but no matter u will or not.. it doesnt really border me.. i just wish that u will be happy.. ^_^
"Life is not always so hard.. there's a rainbow somewhere out there.. have u found it?"
i wish u happiness & sucess in ur coming years! JIAYOU on ur o lvl~!
and lastly.. i just wan to thank you.. for teaching me that love should be an absolute promise.. i'll remember de! THANK YOU! ^^

TO JAZ & J:
thank you for been with me! i lost my balance when.. but ur appearance have make me wan to find my balance again.. THANKS! ^^ *huggies~* to jaz only.. j don have.. =X
FRIENDS FOREVER & ALWAYS! (i cant decide which is longer.. hahas.. xP)

TO HAM:
thank you dearie! ^^ U'RE MY BEST SISTER! i am ok.. i'll be fine~ i know u'll be here right? hahas.. n tml we meeting le.. FINALLY! i have alot ot tell u! u are always de one who understands me.. cares for me even though we r miles away.. THANKS! UR COMPANY HAVE MAKE ME FEEL JOY AGAIN.. REALLY THANK YOU! ^^ *HUGGIES!*

TO MY GROUP OF SISTERS!:
u know who u r dont u? lols.. gin, pei lin, hui zhuang.. THANKS! ^^ i know u'll be here for me de.. n i'm really glad that u r!! ^^ THANKS! ^^ *huggies~~!!*

rainbows above everything! ^^ cheer up~

BROKE.. & BROKEN.. T_T

2007-05-21T22:24:00.000+08:00

BROKE.. PLUS BROKEN.. T_T

me n him.. fen kai le.. yepz..

i don know wat i should feel now.. its neither us at fault.. just that we both took on our so call "crush" n wan to keep it longer.. but then.. fate always play it around.. n it is just not there anymore.. as time go by.. u can really tell ur feelings.. (i suddenly rmb last time.. one of my friends told me that he will always watch out his feelings for a week b4 he ask de gal for stead.. cos he wan to make sure that he likes/love her..) it doesnt really matter wat ending it has become.. because at least its been true.. i have been true to my feelings.. i love him then n there.. but not now.. n he have took action for his feelings.. we were together.. n seperated.. i think all love have this "cycle" ba.. but some are more lucky.. u can stay for a long time.. while others are just unlucky..

many things have been going on this week.. things that let me think.. make me feel.. n make me wan to do.. me n him.. our relationship is a beautiful one.. its really nice.. both of us had fu chu guo.. ye kai xin guo.. ye shang xin guo.. i think de thing that we never do is wo men mei you qu liao jie.. wo start when we have that feeling.. n end it when we don have that feeling.. its really an honest relationship.. we are true towards it.. so i feel that no matter wat de ending is.. at least we experienced it with truth.. (again i suddenly rmb that someone actually asked me.. why be together when u r not serious towards it?) we are serious.. i am serious! but de point is.. it didnt last.. its not that serious relationships will always last.. just like us.. both of us act on de feeling.. it is serious.. but again its so short.. this kind of feeling is really.. undescribable..

i don know whether to laugh or cry.. i feel relief.. n i feel this will bring me good memories.. (i hope it will bring him good memories too.. but if.. ru guo nan guo, qing ni wang le wo..)

i first feel de change in feeling was when we start seldom to talk.. after his exams.. i thought we could spent more time together.. but.. a weird feeling just came to my mind.. i cant understand it.. but i know wat it is.. its rejection.. i am scared.. i don know why.. but i feel it clearly n strongly.. i began to reject him.. reject him for closer actions.. phone chat also don know wan to say wat.. sleep feel my mind when i talk to him.. our chatting time become so.. sad.. its not so lively anymore.. nor is it lovely.. its just.. fan.. as time goes on.. our chars differ.. he have this revenge feeling in his heart.. i have this unsecure feeling.. i don like him to fight.. he don like me get close to other ppl.. we just have this wall.. i feel.. weird..? maybe even sad or hais.. i don know wat i should say.. i don wan him to get angry.. nor him feeling fustrated.. i just wan him to feel happy.. it became a wall for us.. somethings can never cross that easily..

we always plan that during de next meeting.. we'll kiss.. hug.. but it wont.. never will cross that line.. cos i wan it naturally.. i don wan to kiss him.. not yet.. something stop it.. i don know wat.. just a wall.. i know that will be difficult to cross.. difference make us tired.. i am willing to cooperate.. but for how long? he is willing to change.. but how? i love him.. not his char.. just him.. i don wan him change for me or anything.. that wont be him.. n that wil be de case.. (i suddenly rmb about my mum n dad.. i often ask my mum.. why did u marry dad? did u still love him? she always reply.. it doesnt matter anymore.. wo men dou lao le.. hai you shen mo love ke tan? when u're old.. u jsut relie on each other n survive.. but all they have been doing is quarrelling..) so that is their relieing? just fight n fight? i don wan that! i hate fights! there is peace! i believe that is! but u have to creat it.. for urself.. are we ready for this? all these quarrels or changes to come.. i think about it.. n no.. i'm not ready.. i still don know how to face fights.. my dad's case.. sch work.. friends.. relationship.. too many to take at once.. i can only blame myself cos i let it start first.. but in love.. there is no right or wrong.. its either u cherish it or not.. we do.. both of us do.. but it still doesnt work out.. (like my friend.. he told me he n his gal stead for 1 yr.. but all they have done is fights.. after a fight.. both said.. OK! next time we're gonna make it better! don repeat! but end up.. they do again.. fights get bigger n bigger.. in de end.. both of them separated..) they love each other.. but it doesnt work out that way.. i don know..

i suddenly wan to listen to Angela Chang - 其實很愛你 Actually Love You Very Much.. de lyrics.. very nice.. lols.. anyway.. our chars don match.. his young.. not possible to stop at this age.. i'm not ready.. both of us had a conversation.. its best we stop it now.. both of us understand.. so i gues.. its de end..

n leastly.. i don know wat i should feel still.. i think wo hai shi you dian xi huan ni.. dan bu hui zai yi qi ba.. i think so.. but.. no matter wat.. best sis n bro! ^^ confrim.. u will always be my sweet dar dar.. as a said.. its a nice memory.. so.. ya.. just a memory le..

rainbows above everything! ^^ cheer up~

WOOHOO! BACK~! xD

2007-05-20T19:28:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO~~! BACK! xD

FINALLY! blogger is operating NORMALLY on my LAPTOP again~ finally~~!!! i don have to update in sch liao! at home also can le~ ^^ plus today i have ALOT to say!!! xD so bear with me wor.. hehe~ xP

my house de network can finally connect to blogger le~!! ^^ so i can update normally again! *WOOHUU~!* HAPPY ARH! ^^ hehe~ last few days cannot nor.. make me don wanna update le.. =.=~ but cannot ma.. where can keep my 'READERS' waiting?! xP hehe~ no la.. jk jk.. LOLS!

then hor.. friday.. I BOUGHT SIMS 2!! ^^ sims 2 plus sims 2 nightlife.. xD MUHAHAHAS! happy like FLYING! lols~ mum buy for me de.. total is $60.. LOLS! discount le.. normally is one $60.. zz~ but still expensive.. so.. i wanna say.. THANKS MUM!! U'RE DE BEST! ^^

now for de despressing part.. =.= dad's case not over yet.. the court say need some meeting.. so june 1st have to go back again.. hais.. why cant they just get over with it?! *HATED!* lols.. no la.. just feel tired for my parents.. they gotto keep on going back there.. plus hor.. that day friday i went with them.. not only my dad'd case wor.. still got a few others.. got one boy hor.. he got multiply offence.. i THINK (cos i cant really hear wat de lawyers saying.. so.. blurr~) he last time in home liao.. then this time get caught again.. sentence to 13 months of jail/home.. lols! cant really hear.. anyway.. his gf is there.. CRYING HER SOUL OUT! ya lor.. poor thing.. then he also cried.. so at that point of time.. i was like.. "since he know his gf n friends (a few of them is there..) will be sad.. WHY DO IT?!" SILLY HIM! but i guess thes kind of things also cant help it ba.. it bonds to ur char ma.. ya lor.. hais.. ALL IN ALL.. ITS A SAD STORY IN DE END.. so hor dar dar.. thats why i always tell u to take care of urself.. when i saw that scene.. i cant help thinking IF HE IS U.. wat will i do? wat CAN i do? i don wan that.. i wan u to be safe n sound.. u may say that 'no la! that one wont happen de!' i believe that when he did that he also thought of that.. but still.. u know.. so PLS PLS TAKE CARE! >.<>

another depressing thing is.. e-learning week ALOT OF HW!! T_T *ahh~~* seriously! i rather go sch.. f3 but nvm la.. at least can have a SHORT break b4 sch starts again.. so at least i can rest at home n recover from my sickness.. =.=~ getting flu is NOT NICE! THOUSANDS OF TISSUES USED! f3 can ask jeremy, hui zhuang they all.. tissues everywhere.. zzz.. 'borrowed' tissue from jeremy, david they all nor.. why use '...' because.. i don intend to give them back de tissue.. =X LOLS! not until they need it BA.. lols.. xP e-learning week = sian =.=~ zzz~ lols! but still la.. sch can be fun! xD never had so much practical in my life lor.. keyboard is practical.. MIDI is practical.. IDEA id practical.. REMT also practical.. even ear training too.. LOLS! see.. already 5 subjects practical le.. LOLS! expect for music theory n lectures about basic concepts la.. that one how to have practical ma.. so.. FUN! ^^ i feel that i didnt make de wrong choice nor.. i'm doing wat i LOVE! interacting with music.. learning about it! hehes~ HEAVEN DOTES ON ME! i actually put 4th choice leh.. but i went in.. despite everyone else putting 1st choice.. LOLS! xD *HUGGIES HEAVEN~* but hor.. friday lesson was... de REMT practical is bascially.. we sit there do our own stuff lor.. LOLS! zao zhi dao wo jiu 'SKIP' that lesson le.. but nvm la~ its still FUN! we went canteen to buy food instead.. LOLS! hehe~ then this week e-learning week le.. RELAX AT HOME! xP = rot at home.. LOLS! DAY-DREAMING LA.. projects yi da dui! f3

enough about sch.. i'm like repeating eerything only.. LOLS! =X anyway.. (i like to use this word alot hor? keep on anyway-ing.. lols! xD) ya anyway.. zz~ i mean anyway.. ok ok stop! =.=~ anyway (last le! >.<) dar dar seem very busy these few days nor.. >.<>

dar dar i love u~ xP *muacks!*

BADDIE ME! xD

2007-05-17T13:39:00.000+08:00

BADDIE ME! xD
i'm actaully updating this during my music theory lesson! xD bad Bad BAd BAD!!! SO BAD! i'm gonna FAIL my music theory le la!! T_T
ok ok.. concentrate.. lols! actually just dropping by to say hi.. cos he not teaching now.. so we can actually go our own things.. so just thought of updating my blog.. then suddenly (because of this thought), alot of ideas POP UP! into my mind.. lols! thought of ADDING a BIRTHDAY BOX on my site.. n even maybe a ALL-TIME FAVOURITES.. which includes stuff like links to various websites or something like that? anyway.. all these are not comfrim yet.. just an idea.. so... but MOST LIKELY i'll do that la.. i even thought of adding a... erm.. like a 'chat box'.. but not like de tag board.. where everyone can post things n see immediately.. so have to research on that! f3~

anyway.. sch is still as busy as ever.. things were 'HEATING' up~~ not to mention that next week is e-learning for my sch.. so don need to go sch.. *YEAH!* ^^ but hor.. de thing is.. there is TONS OF HW!!!! *ahh~~~* so its like a holiday with work to do.. LOLS! i rather go sch then.. cos at sch de hua no SO MUCH HW LOR! every subject also got.. n most involve lots of research.. my IDEA de project jiu involve us going to shopping centres to 'OBSERVE' how ppl chose to buy things.. its like.. u sit there whole day n SEE! lols~! but we do in groups of 4.. so i guess it WILL BE FUN! didnt really think how ppl chose things u see.. (especially when they wan to buy things.. how will they chose it? xD u may know how u will chose.. but other ppl ne?) anyway.. my subjects ARE INTERESTING! my REMT project jiu wan us to RECORD 4 SOUNDS.. 2 in STERO 2 in MONO.. n make it into a series of sounds or u can call it a 'story'.. cos de series of sounds suppose to 'tell u some story'.. just by listening to it wor! so it will be a CHALLENGE n FUN thing TO DO! ^^

ah hm.. enough about sch le.. i'll update more on that de! now is reserve for my dar dar lao gong de~! miss u lots LOts LOTS nor! these few days not feeling very well.. not to mention that i'm sick also.. sore throat plus flu.. zzz~ *headache* but don worry ok.. i'll recover soon de! ^^ TO ALL DE REST: (which includes juleen, grace, weizhi they all.. plus yanling & ham..) don worry.. i'll be fine de.. ^^ lastly.. i just wan to say I LOVE YOU~~ *HUGGIES!* we'll meet de someday.. so don worry about it ok? ^^

thats about it for now.. tml my dad going court.. hais.. >.<

dar dar i love u~ xP *muacks!*

BLOGGER 'MISSING!' >.<

2007-05-16T10:14:00.000+08:00

BLOGGER 'MISSING!' >.<
error ERRor ERROR! f3 f3 f3! blogger keep on giving error.. zzz~ then canot update.. so for de past one WHOLE WEEK! NO UPDATES.. T_T anyway.. sch was BUSY! cca.. sch hw n de SO CALL 'CME' PROJECT! lols~ @_@ *faint~!* plus.. dar dar i REALLY MISS U ALOT! >.<
something is wrong ba! blogger keep on error neh.. when i creat new post jiu shi cannot.. f3~!! but then nvm la.. got dar dar pei wo chat on de phone ma.. so never update also nvm~! ^^ hehes~ anyway i now updating using Hui Zhuang de com.. (got a "BAD" feeling.. because i didnt bring my laptop.. why i so DUMB! but.. its heavy ok.. 2.77kg.. zzz~) anyway.. busy nor.. yst violin class.. learn how to play de basic 4 strings of violin (G D A E) then de first finger (actually its de 2nd finger for piano players) for each of de strings.. HEHE! FUN~! waiting that time i use my laptop PLAY CRAZY TAXI~~ ^^ SO FUN! alot of ppl ask me for de game.. LOLS! like pei yun, wen kai (that uncle =X) LOLS! anyway.. violin was FUN! de senior also teached my n sinyi twinkle twinkle little star~ MUHAHAHAS! (dar dar next time i play for u~ xP) anyway.. in de afternoon (from after sch 12 to 5) was doing de proposal for our 'CME' project.. when to eat at fc 4 (de AIR_CONED one).. sinyi help me n my friends CHOP SEATS! xP THANKS SINYI! ^^ after lunch we went to t16 there do proposal.. pei lin n vick summarise all de points.. me n zakk write de starting.. lols! divide out work.. then almost done liao.. now left all de details.. check with miss erica again then should be ok le~ YEAH! ^^ it was tiring lor.. doing de project.. have to gather de whole class.. then discuss this n that.. LUCKLIY CCF ANSWERED OUR CALL! if not REALLY TROUBLE LE! ma fan nor.. lols! TO MY CLASSMATES: I ALREADY TOLD PAUL EVERYTHING LE.. SO HOPE EVERYTHING IMPORVE! xD
reach home around 9 le.. too bad dar dar today must go celebrate his dad's birthday nor.. if not he will come to sp to pei wo de.. T_T but nvm la.. sure got chance de! ^^ (*muacks! dar dar~*) but saturday surely can de! xD HEHEHEHEHEHEHES! hahas~ ya lor.. miss u dar dar~ i go for lesson le.. C YA SOON! ^^
dar dar i love u~ xP *muacks!*

CRAZY IN SCH! X_X

2007-05-08T13:03:00.000+08:00

CRAZY IN SCH~! X_X
LOLS!! today was a crazy day at sch.. or should i say.. FUN! xD anyway i'm posting this in sp~~ hehehe! ^^ n bascially.. i'm actually updating this while listening to juleen's group plan our their CD project.. LOLS! *evil face~* hehe!
today actually woke up very early.. put alarm at 5am.. then just.. BOMB! lols.. n went back to sleep.. zzz~ was just.. SLEEPY! X_X anyway.. i still woke up at 5.30am.. =.=~ was like.. 'huh? sleep for 30 mins? lols!' but still.. 30 mins was better than nothing! xP i already planned to meet jeremy 7.30am at dover station.. so i better wake up or else i'll be late! >.< class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">de whole journey is like.. SO SLEEPY! @_@ whole morning blur blur.. then in de REMT class (which starts at 8!) my whole group was sleeping.. Mr Micheal (our REMT teacher), he teaching about rhthym n time space between music.. i was sleepy.. so didnt listen much.. X_X *dead* ya lor.. then my group doing de small little "performance" thingy that time we whole group like.. DEAD! lols~ me, pei lin, hui zhuang, gin n two gals (VERY QUIET) gals --> from class 01 de all so dead.. so sleepy.. then we just think think jiu ok le.. lols! maths was also a boring lesson.. just sit there n do hw.. MATHS HW SOMEMORE! =X (pls don tell my teacher.. LOLS!) ya lor.. just sit there n listen.. then do hw.. chat with ppl.. then shun yi 'sabo' me n charles.. =.=~ SO LAME! zzz~ aiya.. but small matter.. NVM! (dar cannot angry ok..) ^^ *HUGGIES!* we already agree that cannot be angry le hor.. so MUST SMILE! I LOVE UR SMILE OK!! ^^ ya then.. finally after sch le! meet sinyi in fc 4 for lunch.. then have to wait again for cca.. lols.. (which STARTS at 5!!! ahhh~~ @_@) but nvm.. at least i got my energy back after lunch~! ^__^ so.. i just wait.. evesdropping juleen's team in their CD project! =X hehe~ but no la.. just accompany them.. ya.. then 'lend' them my laptop.. after their meeting me n juleen went to t16 there n wait.. we use my laptop surf de net.. go youtube, my blog, do this do that.. FUN! hehe~ she show me de tsubasa songs.. char songs la.. sang by sakura n xiao lang (don know how to spell is english de. >.<) ITS SO NICE! THANKS JULEEN~ ^^ then after that she also showed by de song nana (a.k.a yuna ito) sang in nana de movie.. NICE! its just called ENDLESS STORY.. (想念你的歌) in japan only.. LOLS! then went home that time.. me, wei zhi n juleen decide that we'll sing that song together! they 2 in jap n i in chinese.. LOLS! funny combination right~? hahas.. but we went home that time quite late le.. n we didnt really learn much in violin class.. just learn how to hold n play de violin.. reach home around 8+ le.. tired.. thats about my day le.. c ya soon~
by de way hor.. this is updated in 16 May.. cos de whole week my blogger is not working! T_T so cannot update.. zzz~
dar dar i love u~ xP *muacks!*

RELAX.. CHILL~ ^^

2007-05-07T21:41:00.000+08:00

RELAX! CHILL~ ^^
so much for the heavy things.. lets just talk about some lighter ones ba.. today at sch was FUN! xD morning had KEYS TUTORIAL until 12.. star from 9.. we had sight-read n learn to figure out de chords for C major, F major & G major.. it was fun! ^^ we then practice n thats it for that class.. 12 we had an hour of lunch at foodcourt 6.. GRACE WAS SO HIGH! xD out table of 5 (consist of pei yun, juleen, grace, weizhi & me) keep on laughing at de jokes that we crack.. LOLS! de other 2 tables.. (consist of jeremy, wick, gin they all..) are not so "happy" or "laughy" as us.. LOLS~ i wonder if anyone there thought we r mad! we crack lots of funny jokes! including ask peiyun eat faster.. teasing each other about something.. (most grace is been teased by us! poor grace.. hehe~! xP) so it was overall fun! ^_^
de afternoon class was also enjoyable~ each of us did something on ZBRUSH, de drawing software.. n we r suppose to present it.. its was funny! we learn from each other.. de way how some of us present.. de different nice, laughy, cool n so on ideas that everyone has created.. (tml then i elaborate) some of de gd ones includes vick created new teddy bear.. lols.. shock-proof to a scaring extend.. =X others include pei lin's animal.. she really did a VERY GOOD presentation! xD NICE ONE PEI LIN! *woots~~* n many others too.. charles created a toothbrush.. lols! organic somemore.. n i created a moving house.. juleen was presentation was really NICE! COLOURFUL~ ya so.. went home at around 3..

on de way home my mum reminded me to collect tickets for my grandparents.. cos they wan to watch some opera.. so i went to bugis.. shu cheng there to collect de ticket.. lols.. it was overall a nice day today.. although there r many unhappiness.. but somewhere out there.. happiness is still close to u.. hahas.. n dar dar was so sweet! especially called me today to find out how i am! hehe~ THANKS! I'M OK LE~ so u also must JIAYOU ON UR EXAMS Ok! wo yong yuan zhi chi ni! ^_^ *HUGGIES~!*

thats all for today.. update tml~

dar dar i love u~ xP *muacks!*

BAKAS! plus weridos.. =.=~

2007-05-06T19:06:00.000+08:00

BAKAS! PLUS WEIRDOS! @_@
zzz~ i suddenly found alot of interest in de ppl around me n those who i am not close with.. everyone is like.. so out of point to one another.. but that is also de thing that brought us close or far.. i suddenly feel so weird.. maybe even a baka.. cos i didnt realise this b4.. lols.. ~.~
something happened yst actually set me thinking.. n something happened today actually gave me de dajavu feeling.. LOLS! but still.. out of so many misery.. there's always something or someone(dar dar) there to cheer me up! so its always a rainbow hidden somewhere ba~ *hic*
anyway.. yst was suppose to post an update on my blog.. but my laptop sort of.. shut down? or restart.. everything i typed have to be re-typed again.. *sian~* was de only thought when that happen.. plus i knew de horrible news concerning my father (aka family).. n wat happen in de afternoon was sort of.. erm.. unpleasant.. (dar dar i told u le.. de webcam thingy) so forget it.. i just off my com for that night.. by de way this was updated on monday 6 may.. but i go edit de post that i saved yst.. so it actaully showed yst de timing.. lols.. sorry..
life is SO BITTER SWEET! ONE MOMENT u can be HAPPY.. de NEXT BITTER SWEET.. its so.. changable.. anyway yst afternoon was actually doing my hw.. online on my msn too.. played a fre arounds of msn games with yaNLing then both of us went to do hw.. after that, someone chat with me in msn.. its not a very close friend.. jsut someone i knew from maple.. n we didnt contact each other for a very long time le.. so when SHE/HE suddenly talked to me.. i was SHOCKED! but nevertheless.. i went n talk to her/him.. (seriously.. i don't even know he is a guy or gal.. i rmb him as a boy.. but when i ask she told me she gal..) --> n for ur info.. he doesnt sound like a gal to me at all.. so we chatted.. n end up "fighting".. lols.. its not really anyone's fault.. just a different idea to soemthing.. because she told me yst was actaully her birthday.. n she asked if i'm free to chat with her.. i said yes.. (chat as in text form) cos i was busy doing hw.. so i thought text chatting should be ok.. but she said she wan to webcam with me.. i said no.. i don wan webcam n do hw at de sametime.. its.. WEIRD! lols~ so i rejected her.. she said hais nvm.. so i asked her.. why she always think so negative.. (cos that time she also said she wan to webcam with me but i rejected her.. then she also gave de same reply that no one cared about her..) i told her that although cant webcam but sometimes when ur friends are busy chatting is also better than nothing ba.. then she said that its her birthday today.. was webcamming with her too much to ask? i told her no.. but if ur friends r busy i guess its a no choice! i was getting annoyed at this point.. (she was SO persistant in asking me to webcam with her.. i don know reject how many times le..) so i sort of "scolded" her after that.. saying that why u always think about urself? have u think about other ppl? wat if their busy.. (cos last time she ask said something like is it webcamming with her too much to ask..) so anyway she reply by asking me have i been lonely b4.. yes.. of cos i have.. everyone would somehow or rather have lonely times de.. i answered her yes.. then i said that but u cant except ur friends to 24 hrs be there.. bdays can celebrate anytime.. its de heart that counts! she said that don compare me n her.. its different.. i'm not comparing.. i'm just showing her lonelness can be overcome.. (if only u are willingly to do that!) after that sentence.. i just wished her a happy birthday n off de chat box.. but she reply by saying that can i be sincere enough to show her that i truely wish her happy birthday through de webcam.. i was frustrated! so i asked her.. 'did u understand de word sincere? its not de webcam that counts.. its de heart of wishing u a happy birthday!' (if i'm not sincere.. i wont even wish her a happy bday in de 1st place! she told me that i certainly don "look" sincere enough.. i was BOOMED! i said i final sentence.. 'as u said.. both of us is different.. this is my way of wishing u happy bday.. if u don like it i take it back!' n by that we ended de chat.. *phew..* type SOO~ LONG! lols.. but de conclusion is.. its neither of us at fault or both of us is in fault.. i should have understand her because she is lonely.. she just wan someone to chat with.. on de other hand.. she should also trying to understand why i don wan to webcam with her.. (one thing to note is.. she/him always talk to me when i'm using my laptop.. when i'm using my desktop, she/him never talk to me once! o_o surprising? lols! n when she/him send me de invitation to start webcam.. i just got this bad feeling about it! so i always reject her..) but anyway.. its really a tricky suitation.. wat if wat she's saying is real? or wat if its just bluff? i don know.. i guess i'll just go by my feelings.. plus in de night when i finally had some clue wat is going on about de case involving my father.. i was.. BROKE! (really thanks that dar dar was there for me wheni needed him de most! ^^ *huggies*)
de case was actaully... simple? or complicated? i don really know.. i just knew that this was de 2nd time that my father got caught of hiring foreign workers.. (we really had no choice! i can't really explain it here.. i don wan ppl coming sue-ing me for wat i wrote here.. sorry guys.. but maybe i'll give a clue or 2 on de up-coming post ba..) its just.. lets just say its no choice.. we have look for many alternative ways to hire workers.. but it just doesnt work out! n this time.. he got caught.. again.. court case.. fine or jailed.. but it looks like my father is going to be jailed! T_T ahh~~ why why? why all de bad things happen to my family?! first my biological father died when i was very young.. then my stepfather is going to be jailed! wats next? my family income is gonna crash! i thought finally i could put EVERYTHING behind me! but it just kept coming! GOD! LET ME GO! zzz~
suan le.. life is always full of ups n downs.. but then de good thing is.. my family, friends n dar dar is always there for me.. like yanling & michelle.. special thanks to them.. both of them tagged at my blog.. really thank you! n my family.. they wan me to comcentrate on my studies.. n told me that everything is fine.. i think its a wise choice.. cos i was REALLY CRASHED! when i know that.. n really really special thanks to dar dar.. he didnt even hesitate to call me when i needed him de most.. although his parents may kill him for using too much phone.. but he called n cheer me up! so thank you for everyone that have helped me! ^^ i wont forget this little helps de.. *HUGGIES TO ALL!*
lastly.. i just wan to say that.. with ur support & concerns.. I STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT ME N MY FAMILY CAN SURVIVE THROUGH THIS! really thank you! ^^
ok ok.. enough of heavy matters le.. i'll update soon.. tired..

dar dar i love u~ xP *muacks!*

HURRAY! xD

2007-05-06T10:43:00.001+08:00

HURRAY~! Finally got WIRELESS INTERNET le!! =D
yippe yippe! my laptop can finally connect to my boardband de internet le~ ^^ next time don need to use unsecure network le~ xD
this morning call de singtel ppl.. singtel too many numbers to call le! she mo 1610 ar.. 1628 ar.. SO confusing! f3~! but nvm la.. finally found de right number for singnet le! ^^ 1800-848-6933.. LOLS! so those got singnet requires de can call this number.. its their technical helpdesk! xD
morning was just plain old ordinary for me.. wake up.. eat.. then jiu play 1 round of KIKO MATCH 2 in neopets! =X mum was actaully playing it then snatch from her de.. hehe! xP after that jiu start playing piano~ *ding ding ding* lols! =P practice beauty & de beast n her most beautiful smile on my piano~~ but half way go play internet! =X bad hor.. >.<>
ok ok lets skip topic.. SO HAPPY that finally jaz & jason.. hehe! (its my secret! =X) xD anyway there's also some family problems.. zzz~ so maybe i'm not in de best of mood.. but then there's always dar dar to cheer me up~! =D so de HAPPINESS OVERWRITE de SADNESS! lols~! ^^ (so wat more can i ask for? DAR DAR IS DE BEST! ^__^)
my family problem was quite complicated.. haiz.. my father actaully was involve in a police case.. until now its not solve yet.. *worrying!* >.<
but seriously.. thinking of u make me relax.. so even if there's such problems existing.. i felt no fear in them.. u make me strong wor dar dar.. ^^ *HUGGIES!*
hao le la.. i go do my hw le.. i also have to help my mum type an email to someone.. lastly I JUST WAN TO SAY TO MY PARENTS..

MUM & DAD.. I LOVE U!

don worry.. i'm sure everything will be alright de.. jiayou ok!

i'll be here for u no matter wat happens!

ITS A PROMISE!

dar dar i love you~ xP *muacks!*

*~*L0v3_SeAs0n*~*

MERRY XMAS!

something new

syco

nice day !

scared

trial camp

new photos!

fun !

so tired

hello all !

just some short notes

its 2009!

Just another laugh!

My Mightly God!

a joke!

another new post!

YO!

alright alright!

wahahaha!

woots!

there r so many things!

hais

wao..

without u

leaving for perth

oh well~

hmm yst..

life is great!

dear lord!

dear lord

wonders of life!

dear heavenly father...

happy~ =D

praise de lord! =D

nice~ =D

yo!

life is crazy!

woots!

PHEW!

Emo-ing Week~

just dropping by~

hey hey! =D

tired~

alright alright!

^_^ finally~

yohu!

yo yo!

f3 f3

dear bloggie...

hiya~ =D

i'm a joker man...

morning! =D

yohuuuu~~~~

HEY HEY HEY! yo~

OK BACK!

YEAH YEAH!

HELLO! ^___^

I JUST WANNA SAY..

I'M SPEECHLESS..

SORRY GUY! >.<

I NEED A RESPOND.. ^^

SPIN SPIN SPIN.. @_@

SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE..

I'M SCARED! >.<

STEAMBOAT STEAMBOAT! xD

ITS A RAINY DAY.. ^^

SLEEPY DAY STILL.. @_@

SLEEPY~ @_@

NOTHING MUCH TO DO.. @_@

HEYHEY! xD

JUST ANOTHER RELAXING DAY.. ^_^

JUST AS I THOUGHT.. =.=~

ITS CONFUSING.. ISNT IT? @_@

IT HURTS.. STILL HURTS..

I KNOW..

ME & MY MUM.. T_T

HU PEIYAN (JOYCE) IS DEAD!

FINALLY OVER! HORRAY~ xD

CONTINUOUS.. @_@

~L0v3_SeAs0n~